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✞ JULY EVALUATION * SUMMER PARTY ; COMPLETE with @rkseunghun​ @ianrk​ @mxnark​ @beomgyurk​ @rkserim​ also mentioned: @haknyeonrk and @rkmiya july 31st, 2020

he’s nervous the day of the performance, and he wonders if this will always be the case. maybe one failed evaluation has scarred him for life, and he’s doomed to have it flash through his mind before every performance. he reminds himself that that was different; he couldn’t prepare for a switch in their music to go along with an already difficult dance and a daniel that felt drastically less skilled somehow, despite it being mere months ago. 

maybe it’s just new confidence. maybe it’s that this performance is fun, and was his idea-- his evaluation to begin, and his evaluation to finish more than any others with dancing included. 

regardless, that new confidence wavers a little as they’re on deck, following several wonderful performances that daniel tried to enjoy in full but ultimately failed to with this performance heavy on his mind. thankfully, there are still plenty to come, and depending on whether he nails it or fails it, he’ll be able to enjoy them once this is all said and done. there’s the promise of the party on the other side of this too, and one way or another, the performance will come and pass, and--

no, that’s not a winner’s mindset. wasn’t he thinking mere days ago about how much fun he had working on this evaluation? it’s more important now than ever to look like he’s having fun, here on this rooftop in the middle of summer, performing a song that’s full of energy to keep the crowd of other professionals in this industry lively and enjoying the performances. (there are idols there too. he tries not to think about that too much either, or his nerves multiply.)

no, they can do this, and they can do well. he is confident, even as the nerves still flutter in the pit of his stomach when the audience claps after the performance they will follow. he needs a little more confidence, so he says a quick prayer, and flashes back to when he felt the most himself: ironically, while pretending to be someone else. he thinks of empty enigma stages, and his element, and cameo, and he tries to bring some of him back. it worked well for him on the mgas, so why not now? why not every performance from here on out? he can do it.

when he steps on stage, he believes it, even as he looks out at the crowd-- even as he spots haknyeon and the rest of per_se, then and*roma, and his eyes settle on sunmi momentarily. that desperation to prove himself returns, but it’s also accompanied by a desperation to have fun, and a smile that stretches across his face.

it’s a good thing, too, because he sings the first lines, and sets the standard for the entire rest of the performance. 

i wanna run to you all my senses are looking for you right now

he doesn’t have many lines, but he doesn’t mind it. he actually enjoys this choreography, and is content to just dance for most of the song. he hopes the others, most of which it’s their first evaluation, are enjoying themselves too.

maybe, just maybe, in one of the rare times he dances near the front, he’s intentional to catch sunmi’s eye, and even more determined to finish out strongly.

whew! ok finally i can post this. i had actually finished this on august 22, but tumblr unfortunately doesn't let you upload more than 10 images from mobile, and because of how i have the app set up, i can't add images to reblogs very easily.

this is a trash can + trash bag (yes the bag is separate and can be cinched closed) + trubbish (pokemon) + some trash items. it was a gift for a band that came through recently

the body of the trashcan is done with normal red heart yarn and a 5mm hook. everything else is done with a mix of angora and brisa yarn from la pantera rosa. (not real angora, it's acrylic, but it has a very soft texture). for those i used a 3.5mm hook. I didn't use patterns for anything except the bottom rectangle shape of the trashcan because i wanted to make sure i was doing that right. it's not the most common yarn among american fiber artists, I've noticed, and i'm often unable to find nice yarns at that weight at the large chain stores. it's quite nice for making small things like this though, where i want to be able to work with smaller stitches. the store i get them at also has like a whole wall of colors, which is quite nice for amigurumi purposes.

i constructed a plastic structure to make the trashcan keep its shape out of some old containers. the size was pretty inconsistent to what i needed, so i ended up cutting and taping them together to form larger panels. i used reinforced tape and then covered the edges with duct tape to smooth them out. any corners/edges/sharp parts on the inside were covered with some quick dry silicon that i originally got to close up some stuff in the bathroom that was letting ants in.

i still can’t quite believe people actually miss me here, but i, too, miss being around. if you see this, anoncchi, feel free to come chat me up anytime, i promise on my ships that i’ll try to revive this account again.

but, i need a reason to keep sticking around, because everyone has left. well, most of them have, anyway.

((O-oh gosh;;;;;; T-thank you! Thank you very much! I wasn’t expecting this aaa;;;;;;; Let me love chu ok— ;///;

Aa, I’m so sorry Anoncchi—! I didn’t mean to make you sad— It’s nothing serious, I promise! But thank you— I’m honestly grateful that you care for us. ;v;