#mutablebeauty

you make THEM look good. You are their arm candy, their trophy. Standing next to you gives them status and well favor from the public. They can receive the benefits of from the public for being seen w you. They love you because you are “good” for them.

You are going from a 12th house profection year into 1st house profection year. Things hidden and avoided will be revealed first hand to you.

The people you treat like shit, the relationship you should leave but choose to stay in, that job you cannot fucking stand, it will come full force to fuck you up.

Your best bet is to face your suffering so that you can pick up the pieces with a bit of a head start instead of picking up the pieces for your entire age of 24.

I store my darkest secrets deep. I most likely will never share with anyone my darkest secrets.

I also hold the big secrets of others. It can be a burden that I’m not yet ready to release.

I have instinctual fears surrounding intimacy. I’m very slow (Taurus Saturn) to open myself up completely.

I am deeply immersed in esotericism. I discovered astrology at a young age and was reintroduced to it when I was old enough to understand its true purpose.

My relationship with my father is emotionally strained.

It is very difficult for me to let go of someone when I’ve decided I love them.

I am very responsible and strict with my savings. My fear is not having options, and being extremely poor to where I have no savings to provide a cushion (Taurus Saturn)

You should keep your personal secrets that have affected your emotional state to yourself or until after you’ve healed from it. Frankly I think don’t even try to share it after you’ve healed. Do not open up to your family members or roommates about your lore, ESPECIALLY IF YOU HAVE HAD PREVIOUS ISSUES. They will use that information to HURT YOU or CONTROL YOU.

I find that living this transit, I’ve let my guard down with family about my private personal life and regretted it deeply. It has negatively affected how they viewed me and damaged our relationship especially when it’s thrown back in my face during an argument. Ha! You will never know me personally again! It has shifted dynamics and opinions of me in negative ways. Imagine telling your sibling or father something hurt you terribly years ago and the minute you upset them that’s the moment they choose to throw back to hurt you? Yeah. Your private life needs to be under the fiercest protection. I’m not sure Pluto will truly allow you to keep things under wraps for too long but at least it’s not you choosing to the hand the knife to your killer.

The sun is your identity. It is your ego, your sense of self, who you truly are at the essence of your soul. The ascendant is your influence interacting with others, how others perceive you, your actions, movements. The ascendant is the way you were raised, how you look and the mask you put on to interact.

Lilith conjunct your sun would mean there is something about you soul wise that is different from the norm. Something about you deep down is non-traditional, or taboo . It could be your sexuality, or your real personality. Your fundamental essence is taboo in some way, you ARE a Lilith.

Lilith conjunct your ascendant is other people see YOU as non traditional through your actions, demeanor, appearance. You face experiences where you are shamed for your differences. The aspect gives you a magnetism that attracts people. People project onto you without you doing much. Like you could walk into a room and a bunch of people might assume a bunch of things about you. You LOOK like a Lilith

Personal context: I’m an 7H Aries Mars.

Yall, when I say this was exactly my first relationship with a man. I dated a shy guy, but once he got with me, he literally told me “Nobody wanted me when I was single and then I date you and suddenly everybody wants a piece of me”. I had women that came out of NOWHERE (the sewers I presume) hate me just because they wanted him. Unfortunately for me, he was an attention whore and was described exactly as the second tweet was warns against.

It was one of my most painful experiences I have yet to live through. I was torn up that someone I was in love with, was so swayed by the attention of just anyone (I mean any old ugly thing Chile). I have no idea why he would hand out his contact information to just anyone, or what his intentions were. It’s honestly hurtful to even think of his reasons why. I just know it was horrible to experience and it changed me fundamentally in a way I’m still recovering from.

The love games that you endure with a man like this is horrible. People will OPENLY compete with you over YOUR OWN MAN. Like is that not crazy? I almost got into a fist fight with three girls who chose to disrespect me, in front of him, in order to show some sort of dominance for their ugly friend who had a crush on him. That was when I had enough. That’s when I realized no man that I ever love and loves me would ever put me in a situation where I have to put my hands on someone over him. For a Pisces, loyalty is honestly everything.

I will never involve myself with a man as secretly desperate for attention as him. My next man needs to have INTEGRITY and not be two faced.

Neptune, as we all know, rules escapism and subsequently tools used for escapism like alcohol or drugs.

Neptune operating in the 6th house, you may consider consuming drugs more often, dare I say daily

However, the effect it will have on you will be stronger. More ungrounding. You will lose your touch on things.

Neptune on the Sun will make you more likely to overdose, or consume more than your body can handle.

The planet of fog, illusions and trickery is close to you as a person. That means you will lose your footing and be lost when you choose to escape through Neptunian means.

I had a huge fight again in my home after trying to avoid one because I am tired of fighting with my family (specifically the men). Throughout this transit, I have gone to therapy and done self reflection and venting to friends to be able to notice the true power dynamics of the men in my family and how they choose to self regulate through choosing me as a target for their misery and insecurities instead of being real men and going to therapy.

I natally have Pluto in the 3rd for context. My relationship with my older brother is very toxic. For years, I have ignored and forgave the weird competing behavior from him and his actions towards antagonizing me as an outlet for his misery for the sake of family. But unfortunately, it can only be undeniable for so long. We had a previous argument that opened my eyes to how he truly felt about me in my low periods of luck. And I finally snapped this time and told him every single thing I have been holding in for years about how I felt about him. He said so many awful things to me, things that you do not expect a brother to even say to his little sister. And I am emotionally cutting ties with this individual.

Funny thing is Pluto definitely is triggering this. How I know is, it will force things to the surface that you try to suppress. He and my father are energy harvesters. They have a bad day outside and come home and take it out on the family to feel better. I tried to be mature after years of therapy, and avoid giving them reactions but they pick and pick over the course of days to achieve what they want. This was the first ever argument where I was so clear and confident in the things I was saying. It really revealed a lot.

It shows that a Pluto in the 4th transit will tear up down to really build your emotional boundaries and inner emotional confidence up. For years, since I was a child as this transit was happening, my own emotions were used against me. People (roommates, family, ppl emotionally close to me) would do mean things to me and then I would react and feel so ashamed of my emotions afterwards. Often times they would justify their behaviors and because I was insecure about myself through years of manipulation that I was dramatic or too emotional, I would be the one apologizing for my reactions to their treatment. Finally as this transit is in its last years, do I see the truth. That I deserve happiness, I deserve to be treated with respect. That my emotions and my intuition are for my survival. Less and less do I care about who I push away and if I end up lonely bc I’d rather that than be around ppl who want to treat me any type of way and want me to shut up about it.

This argument was so hurtful to me but it has been the argument that I am most confident in my own emotions and judgement and this is the blessing Pluto bestows in the midst of its curses. But please be advised you must do the inner work to achieve the benefits.