#mustlearntoadapt

So we FINALLY GOT SAM OUT. GODDAMN IT FINALLY. Anyways, I didn’t NEED to play my idol but I knew I was getting votes… so oh well. I wanted to be safe. I now know I can trust Linus and hopefully our f3 will last til the end. Also lol at Ting Ting kissing my ass rn.

MY SAMANTHUEL IS GONE! Poor King! Robbed AF! However, I told him I had a feeling Linus was flipping because I KNEW it and because Ashley/Amanda weren’t talking to me. At least I made Final 5. All I have left now is my good ole’ ally Ting Ting and it’s just us two vs. the world. I think they’ll probably try and vote me out this upcoming tribal HOWEVER, Ting Ting was left the Legacy advantage which gives her 2 votes at tribal including revote scenarios. So all we need to do is for one of us to get the immunity necklace and win this challenge, if we can do that we can make it past these next tribals until Final 2 or 3 together we can make it to the end and win it. This tribal coming up is the closest I’ve been to the chopping block yet, but I need to continue to play the game because one little move can make a HUGE difference at this point in the game. I just want to get as far as I can at this point and if that means crushing my the rest of them that’s what I’ll do. It’s so surreal this feeling of accomplishment I feel I have achieved, I’ve been able to withstand some pretty rad stuff and make it past ¾ths of the players left in the game. Been through many blindsides on both ends of the deal, many tough challenges, and many frustrating moments this season but it has been so enjoyable, should be fun to see how this all is going to play out.  

GNOEGNVORNFOVNRFGONRFGVOBROGRFNOGBOFNVO Frickty Frick! Damn Linus won Individual Immunity and Ashley/Amanda won a trip with him to the cave. Literally the worst thing that could happened happened. I just have to get people super paranoid that I have an idol which I think I did do. Ashley is saying she’ll turn on Amanda and vote her out this tribal and make a Final 3 with Linus, Herself, and Myself which is awesome because then all we have to do is get Ting Ting and Me to vote Amanda this tribal with her Legacy advantage and Ashley won’t risk going to rocks with only 2 people drawing rocks. So Ting Ting and Myself will be able to stick together going into Final 4 but I would also have a Final 3 deal with Linus and Ashley, plus a shot at winning Final 4 Immunity (whether or not it is Final Immunity) and even then I think Ting Ting and I would at least cause a tiebreaker at Final 4 because she is the one true person I believe to be loyal to me. UGH, THIS IS GOING TO BE A MESS!

So this is probably the most stressed I have ever been in my whole entire life. Like god why. Linus and I are trying to pull one over on Tommy rn, who it is rumored has an idol. Apparently Tommy was trying to get him to vote for me yesterday, and was saying he could get back with Amanda and I whenever he wanted to. So kind of trying to get Linus to work with him yet also threatening him. I was like um bitch no. Linus Amanda and I are still tight. So in order to try and throw Tommy off and make him feel a bit more safe, Linus and I had a fake conversation in order for me to be able to send receipts to Tommy of Linus agreeing to the f3. So now Linus and I are going to make it look like we are working with Tommy, or at least convince Tommy so. The only problem is, I think Tommy wants to try and get Amanda out this tribal so I can “prove” I wouldn’t just flip on him at f4. Linus and I don’t want there to be any chance of Amanda leaving, we want to vote Ting and try and make either her or Tommy leave. But the threat of idols at this tribal is still very much alive, especially since this is the last chance Tommy or Ting would have to play one. It may get to the point where Tommy votes Amanda, Linus, Amanda and I vote Ting, and Ting votes Tommy in order to have a tie if idols are played. God this is complicated and I am dying. please just let me live through this tribal.

They could just be busy but Ashley and Linus are being super quiet right now and its making me nervous as fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck

well okay trevor. bring in the self vote punishment i see. anyways so it’s f5 now and i can use my hella amazing legacy advantage brought to you be the beautiful steffen. like this advantage is gonna get me through to f4 coming in so clutch with that extra vote. and literally only tommy knows so i think we’ll be good. I still can’t trust linus at all because he flips so much, like boi change your name to LIEnus. amanda is like barely on so i think she’ll get out this round if ashley flips on her, which she probably will because there’s no way ashley will go to rocks for amanda, she wants to win too badly. so hopefully everything goes ok tonight and tommy and i make it to f2

“My name is Ozymandias; King of kings; Behold my works ye mighty and despair.” -Percy Shelly So this  round it’s either Amanda, or Tommy and Im really the swing vote. The problem right now is Im in the middle of two alliances of 2 people, both wanting me to be their third, and quite frankly  both of which  probably don’t want me at the end. Both alliances have 1 floater and 1 challenge beast. Ultimately I think my  decision comes down to I’ve never given Ashley and Amanda a reason to not trust me, and on top of that Ting could genuinly be a big jury threat since she hasnt made anyone mad.  On top of that  I feel like my odds are better against either Ashley and Amanda as a pair if its a final 3 since they share a voting pool, and in a final 2 I could try and bring Amanda  and as I count out votes I like to hope it would be 6-4 in my favour. On top of all this, Im convinced an idol will be coming out tonight, possibly by Tommy. So even if the plan fails Im hoping that this would solidify one ally who we could both depend on each other at final 4 and the other way I dont think I would get that. At this point I just feel like everything is on that brink of crashing and burning for me after everything I’ve spent this whole game building up. I have a serious chance here to win, but I also have a chance to become just a footnote in the Tumblrsurvivor history books.

I hope this shit works and no one has idols or shit so Tommy finally leaves :) As usual I have a bad feeling though so we’ll see. WOOO I LOVE PARANOIA!!!

So… I don’t really know what to say right now. Amanda was just voted out. And I was the deciding factor. Linus, Amanda and I voted Tommy, as we had planned. Ting Ting pulled out an extra vote (WHICH I TOTALLY CALLED). And made us go to a revote between Tommy and Amanda. Ting could use her extra vote on a revote as well. Which, would have made it go to rocks. With literally only Ting Ting and I’s name. I couldn’t take that risk and wrote Amanda’s name literally last second. I can’t believe I did it tbh. f4 is great and all, but fucking up not only an alliance but a friendship might not have been worth it. She seems to understand, and I hope that stays true when it comes to jury time…. if I can make it passed this next vote. Linus and I are still good, he understands why I did it and is certain we can pull through for her. I am hoping to be able to get Ting on our side because then we would just have to get out Tommy and be good for f3. If it came to f2, Linus and I would definitely stick together I think.

Oh so I found this little gem from before this tribal when Linus and I were trying to pull one over on Tommy. [1/11/2017 10:24:29 PM] Tommy Shallow: yeah idk but getting Amanda out this vote then ting ting out next would be more ideal because that way I can ensure u guys wouldn’t take me out at 4 [1/11/2017 10:25:02 PM] Tommy Shallow: because ting ting is a big jury threat she hasn’t pissed anyone off. Let’s see how Ting feels about this, shall we? You piss me off I’ll mess you up my friend. Karma is a bitch.

Final thoughts: If Ashley is the one who flipped the revote i’ll be upset, but i’ll understand tbh cause rocks would have literally been only her and TingTing as options so like I get it. I still love her to death and if she gets to the end she has my vote 100% Tommy- I KNEW I SHOULD HAVE GOTTEN HIS ASS OUT SOONER :) Ting Ting- I knew she would fucking have something this whole game. I’m not shocked at all I just wish it could have been used a week where I WASNT THE VOTE Linus is playing a really fucking good game and if Ashley doesnt get to the end this bitch has my vote I had a really good time playing this game. I went to the cave almost every week? I made a bunch of new friends. I GOT TO ANNOY THE SHIT OUT OF TREVOR AND OWEN ALL THE TIME!!! and on top of all that, I more than doubled my placement i think? Who knows I suck at math but I can’t be mad at that concept.  ANYWAYSSSSS shoutout to my number one fan Teddy and also shoutout to Kait cause she loves shoutouts. Time for me to head off to Ponderosa!  I hope Trevor will finally give me the chicken i’ve been asking for <3

Lmao this is hillarious. If the two alliances stick together, everyone actually has to actively hope their ally loses the firemaking xD Like, if Ashley loses the firemaking I think I have the votes to win. If I lose a firemaking I think Ashley would win. If Tommy loses firemaking I think Ting wins, and if Ting loses I think tommy wins xD But like, we cant flip on each other either or we lose jury favour Its a game of russian roullette for who the votes are on initially, and than after that its a game of hope the person you voted to keep loses hahaha

How I feel like the jury could potentially look right now (Obviously this is just speculation so I could be way off). Steffen: Ashley Brett: Tommy Keegan: Tommy/Linus Tossup Christian: Linus (Possibly Ashley) Jay: Linus Leah: Ashley Sam:Tommy Amanda: Ashley Then if Tommy gets voted out Brett, Sam and possibly Keegan go over to Ting and Tommy also votes Ting. If Ashley goes her voters switch to me (Other than possibly Steffen, he becomes a 3 way tossup) and she also votes me (Probably), especially if I dont betray her this round. If Ting goes well, no real change other than she votes Tommy, and if I go then Jay and Christian vote Ashley which gives her enough to win.

So Linus and I have pretty much decided to keep Ting around and kick Tommy the hell out. We figure they would be going for the same votes (well sorta). Hopefully through my jury speech and the questions and stuff I can persuade a few votes more my way, if I don’t get backstabbed this round and get sent out. I would scream for literally ever. Because then the Amanda vote would not have been necessary and I could’ve basically just gone to rocks. Ugh. This is stressful. What am I doing with my life. Tbh if I win this game, Connor is getting my buff because I will feel bad that he has never won. Oops.

OMFG TING TING AND I SURVIVED! WE MADE FINAL 4! WE DID THAT! Amanda getting 5th by the legacy is so ironic since she voted in the minority with Gaston who was the 5th voted out and she also played a double vote to get someone out. Plus all the old people are finally out of the game (20s and above) because there was an age curse this season. This is amazing for my game that Ting Ting and I were able to make the Final 4 together, all I have to do is win Final Immunity now and keep light on my feet for anything that shifts out of place in these last few days. When tribal comes around I’m either voting for Linus and Ashley to leave next, at this point Ting Ting and I are going to be sticking it out together because we can’t trust Ashley or Linus. Like Ashley just flipped on her closest ally all game last tribal and Linus has burned us multiple times now and I wouldn’t doubt it if he continues to do so. This game is only going to get more intense now that we are one tribal away from Final Tribal Council.  

Hmm, so Amanda really kinda screwed over my plan. Now that the optimal gameplan is for me  to cut Ashley, it’s absolutely core that I win final immunity, or at least that Ashley doesn’t win. Tommy is already claiming he wants to go for Ashley, which strategically makes some sense for him if he wants  to stay loyal to Ting (And have some chance of winning still. I feel like he and I would be in a closish vote hopefully). The only scenario in which he likely wins though is if Ting goes home, and Im 90% certain he believes that it’s his best move to get rid of Ting, but I still don’t think he’s going to  vote her. He is telling me he wants to go for Ashley, which is cool beans by me I suppose, but at this point  Ive betrayed him enough times that he could definitely write my name down as a fuck you and I would get the total Johnny Fairplay edit. Ashley  is saying  she wants to go for Tommy, however if she is smart she will go for me since that would 100% guarentee her victory since with me out of the picture Im almost certain she would get the jury votes of Steffen, Leah, Amanda, Christian and Jay. She seems to think it’s her and Tommy competing for the same votes though, so I really don’t know. The biggest wildcard this round is far and away Ting. She has been so UTR that I can’t tell if she will make the strategic decision to cut Tommy since that is her best chance of the win. On top of that from what I  understand  Ashley is  pushing for Ting to vote out Tommy and sending her logs of times Tommy said he would vote her out, so Im really lost. Pray for me <3

Damn so close in immunity and Ashley won, I really need to get Linus out if I have any chance of getting there or winning the entire game. This really sucks because my game does come down to if I can make it to Final Tribal Council or not, and if I make Final Tribal I will be extremely happy, this honestly sucks so bad for me but I think if I can just pull through and take out Linus it would be a miracle to witness.  

Well, it could all be coming to an end for me. As far as I know right now it should be a 2-2 vote between Tommy and I. I told Tommy to his face I was voting for him, but I also told him if he beats me in firemaking that I would vote him to win and hopefully obligate him a little to vote me if I win :P . I also have one last gambit where with the help of Ting Im going to attempt to get Ashley to give up immunity to me. The plan is for me to push hardcore tomorrow that Tommy will landslide if he gets to the end, and Ting is going to act unreasonably paranoid about me getting to the end, but say she thinks that Tommy is the second biggest threat. It’s a long shot, but  hey, anything is worth the try. If I do get  to the end Im counting votes and theres a chance I could win, but  like, it’s hard to say without reading  jury minds. Tommy for instance thinks Keegan would vote for Ting over me soley because Ting flipped to save him, and like, it’s true he could vote based on that, but I can’t count my chickens before they hatch. Ashley winning this really hurt me, so rip :( . I think at least this game really showed myself that I could play a strategic game to do well though. On wikia the joke is that all I have going for me is that I can win most flash games and don’t have to think strategically. This game I couldnt count on wins though, I was able to put myself in the majority for every vote except one, always place myself in the swing position, play a Rob Cesternino-esque game and Im proud of that I could be a villain for once, even if I was forced into that position because I couldnt rely on a strong starting tribe alliance to ride out to the end like I usually do since the fans were so bad at challenges and not getting voted out hehehe. Ting has given me what some might say is  a not so flattering nickname, but I embrace it fully this game. Long live “Lie-nus”! Wish me luck at tribal as always <3 <3

Well I can’t believe I just won the last immunity challenge. That was one wild freaking ride let me tell ya. I finally didn’t frick up on counting and got to a decent number that I figured could get me into second place, which it did. And I got a decent puzzle time compared to what people were willing to tell me about their times. IDFK how I got the trivia but Connor gave me random facts that morning for me to keep in mind. And then I took notes from the Wikia, must’ve been the right notes I guess because I got most of them right somehow. Now that I have immunity literally everyone is coming to me with new information. I guess Steffen gave the legacy thing to Ting? That is interesting. And Linus created an f3 with Tommy and Ting and basically wanted to get me out, so that is cool. I am trying to figure out which person to get out would be the most strategic for me. Ting- Just a fucking goat but flipped on Keegan vote and played that legacy thing (not much of a good game but whatever.) Steffen will probably vote her which pisses me off but whatever. Tommy- Has fought to be where he is, was supposed to go multiple times but somehow made it through it, thanks to me and Amanda sometimes. Yet a lot of people thought he was annoying. Which is understandable, so idk where his votes stand. Linus- Was my only ally left until I found out he was trying to get me out. He is the only fan standing and definitely fought for his place In the f4. I know for a fact Jay will vote him if she can, and so would Christian probably. Idk what the heck I am gunna do. Stay tuned for some ranting later.   

OKAY So you know how I said stay tuned for some ranting? WELL HERE THE FUCK IT IS. Fucking Linus made an f3 with Ting and Tommy, as we all expect from an ass kisser of course. Both Tommy and Ting have told me this so I am not really caring rn because I have freaking immunity. So there little f3 is shattered of course. BUT HOLD UP. HERE COMES THE INTERESTING SHIT. Ting tells me LINUS came up with this GENIUS plan to “get” me to just HAND OVER MY FREAKING IMMUNITY TO HIM. Yeah no, bish. I ain’t doing that. So she sends me some receipts and basically he wanted me to give him my immunity, and then have all three of them vote me out. WHY WOULD ANYONE BE THAT FREAKING STUPID. LIKE HOW COULD YOU THINK I WOULD DO THAT. He can literally go rn. bye bish.

(Last Confessional Continued) I AM CONFRONTING CUZ FRANKLY I DONT GIVE A DAMN. [2:11:51 PM]        Linus: We’re still cool on tribal though right, like at worst I should be expecting a firemaking? [2:18:08 PM]       Ashley Hudson: Voting Tommy? Yeah of course [2:45:30 PM]       Linus: Awesome! Just wanted to be sure so there’s no surprises haha [8:54:08 PM]       Ashley Hudson: Well you know what would be a surprise? If I gave you my immunity and then you voted me out. Whew! That would be crazy right? Yeah so incredibly crazy. I hope you can FEEL the sarcasm LEAKING out of my bones rn.

When Ting Ting being a snake actually comes in SO CLUTCH. Sending me recordings of calls and shit. Smh what a little rat I love her.

I am saltier than a goddamn saltine.

Linus is gone, so AWESOME. Now I have to go up against the fucking wonder duo of Ting Ting and Tommy, both of which I want to stab in the eyes with rusty sporks at this point because no matter what I did everyone ELSE would get a jury vote. I will not get  a vote from Linus now, as he has said he will probably vote Tommy, and if we sent out Tommy or Ting, they would’ve voted for each other to win SO JUST STICK ME IN THE MIDDLE OF A ROCK AND A FUCKING HARD PLACE WHY DONT YA. I swear this game should be called “Surviving fucked up emotions”  

I can not believe Ting Ting and I were able to pull it off, and cause a 3-1 vote getting Linus out. I’m so happy I made the Final 3 and get a chance to plead my case to the jury. Plus that tribal we just had was so fricking crazy, like coco for coco puffs. I popped off on Linus and it was just like a huge mess and all, definitely the craziest live tribal of the season. Now all that’s left is Final Tribal Council and I have to make a good speech that I feel will persuade people to vote me to win this thing. I’m stoked I made it to Final Tribal because I would have never believed I would of gotten to this point ever!

Final Tribal is less than 2 hours away and it’s super scary. This is the last tribal council of the game and it determines who the winner is from the runner-up and second runner-up. I’m so nervous because if I mess up that means all the hard work I did was for nothing. I want to be able to look back on this season and know that I played a good game and kept fighting all the way to the finish. I’m extremely proud of myself of getting to the point of where I’m at now, I’m praying for Final Tribal Council to go smoothly.

EnDuRaNcE cHaLlEnGe FuCk Me Up!!!!

Okay so I am kinda pissed about this last tribal but I am keeping my head. I am going to admit to Sam I brought his name around and own up to that. But I am not saying I was wrong to. Leah leaving was a strategic move on their end because they though Leah, Amanda and I were some kickass f3. When the truth is that Leah and I barely talked until like last week. And those talks never went farther than It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia. So nice going idiots. You didn’t affect me at all. I still have an idol. And I am thought to be one of the least likely people to have an idol? That is what Linus says at least, soooo hopefully I can kick someone’s ass this next vote. Because I am pissed.

I hate having to do this, but I am totally throwing Amanda and I’s relationship into the fire right now. I am telling Tommy I trust him more and telling Linus I still really want to work with him, both are semi true. But Amanda is still my ride or die. But I just cant see myself being able to move on so far with someone who only comes on right before tribal just to hear a vote that people are saying and vote with that. What if one day that vote is me? I just don’t know what to do. I think Tommy is buying and I hope to god Linus is. Because it is true, we need to get rid of Sam, and I know they know it. I may sound like Jay right now, but I do have a feeling that Sam is running things in that small four who voted our Leah. I just hope they understand that He will turn on them the second he has the chance.

well fuck me the only way i can win this is if somebody else drops their tile tower

I’m just frustrated because I feel like I stayed up for nothing. I guess my only shot is top 3 and try to get something from the cave. Other than that, I’m actually fucked.

I just dropped my tower again, and I’m a little upset a lot. I was just watching tv too closely and let it go. I actually got to 18 without messing up this time. The max I can do is 53 now, which will not be enough to win. I can try to see if the cave is a possibility, but I’m losing hope very quickly.

as if it wasn’t clear before, I have no shot at winning this thing. Maybe I’ll rally up one just so I don’t get zero as a final score, but I think I’m done with it. It’s just not worth doing anything challenge-wise. I’m going to have to rely on the same foursome to stick together, which means we need to convince Linus that Amanda and Ashley have no interest in taking him to the end, which sounds very sketchy on my part because then, who will I say they want to take to the end? Some kind of plan needs to be formed so that Linus doesn’t flip.

you know, this is a big test. for this entire game, I’ve been trying to play differently. Before, I was somebody that reveled in chaos and was a rogue kind of player. I liked to look out for me, and that was it. Now, I feel like I’ve gotten as far as I have because I’ve been able to offer things to allies and to others I’m supposed to vote with. I interacted with people that I wanted to vote with me MORE than what was necessary. I didn’t drop them after I heard that I was going to be okay. I changed the way that I played this entire game, and I relied more on social harmony than just creating discourse. If I can get past this next vote, then I really do put myself in a good position to make it to the final three (ideally with Tommy and Ting Ting). If I can do this, I think I can really be satisfied that my social game has come full circle, and that is something to really be proud of.

however, being distraught is an understatement. Like always, it’s time to go to work.

So this tribal is going to be interesting. Tommy is immune because he is the only one of the 6 of us who has no life and could stand to send a message EVERY GODDAMN MINUTE. My tower fell after 30 tiles and I decided that I loved myself and stopped. Apparently Amanda didn’t even attempt it, and Ting Ting was kind of in the same boat as myself. With Tommy having immunity, I am hoping he will feel better about voting with Amanda and I again, where he fucking flipped last tribal. If Sam had an idol he definitely would have played it last tribal, sooo hopefully he finds nothing in the cave when he goes and we are still safe tonight to try and take him out. I am NOT taking a fucking leadership position in the vote again because knowing this idiotic tribe they will just want to target me because the are fucking blind to the fact that Sam has them all wrapped around his finger. If I feel as though I am getting votes tonight I am playing my idol, and Amanda and I will personally vote his ass out of here.

i literally just told tommy that dan gheesling is me cousin-in-law and he’s like believing it so basically we’re too loopy from this game.

Final 6 vote is gonna be huge. there’s no way around it. I certainly don’t feel safe, which is why it’s imperative that the same foursome of myself, tommy, ting ting, and linus all stick together again. If we can manage to split the votes between ashley and amanda, then there will be a 2-2-2 vote, and I’m expecting 2 to be against me, so if one of them plays an idol we can still force a revote. if they both play an idol then i’m royally fucked, but if the split can still go down then I’m willing to play it that way. If only I could get Linus to reply to my pm’s though…

it’d be so dope to be in the final 5, with a decent shot at winning it all. aahhh!

“Would you rather be top three or fourth?” -Hayden Moss So I’m the last fan. Wow.. I’m honestly shocked that this somehow happened. I feel like this could all collapse on me though. I am arguably in the best position I’ve been in all game, but grrrr, I feel like it could all crash down on me with one wrong move. Last vote I was kind of on the outside of two groups and chose the side of tommy, Sam and ting. This round though things could get interesting :) . I feel like Tommy, Sam and Ting have a f3, so in considering making this an iconic 3-2-1 :P

So I just made an f3 with Linus, Amanda, and myself. The plan tonight is to take out Sam. Linus says the plan Tommy wants to do is Ting Ting and him voting me, and Sam and Linus voting Amanda. Not only am I pissed at him but I literally just wanna punch him in the face. So basically I sent Linus a message and told him about the f3 Tommy, Amanda and I had had before the whole Leah shit happened. I told him that Tommy left and stopped talking to us like the second we mentioned wanting Sam out and that I was concerned that they had some kind of an f2 going on. Linus agreed and figures that they would want to take Ting to the end rather than him anyways. So he agreed to an f3 with Amanda and I on the grounds that we promise l not to cut him off and vote with Ting if we got to the f4. Amanda and I are of course okay with this, we just want some stability at a tribal that either one of us could leave at. Although tbh I am playing my idol tonight because just in case Linus is a snake, I at least want to be safe. I think I am trusting him, but just to be sure.

I hate confessionals. They suck ass. I don’t know what to write and they take a while but WHATEVERRRRRRR. Anyways, Tommy came up with a genius plan for tribal that we split the vote 2-2-2, with 2 on ash, 2 on amanda, and then amanda and ashley vote however they want (probs together) so that if they play an idol it’ll go straight to rocks and then we can put the majority on whoever we want. This vote should go as plan but idk it’s ts and who knows what’s going to happen. Also i hate live tribals they give me so much stress. (@the hosts) like thanks for coming up with creative challenges but stahppppp they take so much timeeeeee <3

Omg I remember the very first time we tried to get Sam to go. It was before merge and he was supposed to be like first out. And Tommy was like “Eh, I think we should keep him instead of Gaston” and gave these really stupid reasons why but everyone went with it. Ugh THESE TWO HAVE BEEN TOGETHER SINCE LIKE THE VERY BEGINNING AND I AM JUST NOW SEEING IT. WE SHOULD HAVE FUCKING KEPT JAY.

YES THE LEAH BLINDSIDE WORKED! I BEAT MY ORIGINAL PLACEMENT! THEN I JUST WON IMMUNITY RIGHT AFTER! HAHA YES! This is starting to work out perfectly! Final 5 and Finale episode here I come. The only problem with this vote coming up is this vote coming up. I’m getting a weird feeling now that something may be off. We planned on a 2-2-2 vote to tie it up. I suggested Me and Ting Ting vote Ashley and Linus and Sam vote Amanda because just in case last second we feel Linus is going to flip Sam can flip and vote Ashley. Ashley is my target this tribal because she’s super smart, sociable, threat in challenges, and a jury threat. If she goes this round I think it almost guarantees me a seat at FTC which is amazing. I just need to keep pushing I’m almost there but I have to keep fighting all the way until the end to get my spot in the Final 2/3.  There’s a fire inside me, and I need it to turn into an inferno.  

tommy keeps sussing me out like this is our most important tribal of the WHOLE GAME LIKE DONT SAY ASHLEY HAS A PLAN LIKE THAT MAKES ME SQUIRMY we’re planning to split like i just need things to happen the way they’re supposed to and tommy is like implying i should flip but if it blows up then IM FUCKED i don’t wanna lose because of ASHLEY NOT TALKING TO HIM THATS NOT COOL

do these people know nothing about subtlety? at least I won't go on that immunity run like jay said.

So Jay is finally freaking gone. About time. I even got Linus in on the vote somehow. So that is pretty sweet. I am going to try and look into that relationship more because I definitely think something is there. I still have my idol. I was really contemplating using it but at the last second I decided to have some hope for once in my goddamn life. And look where we ended up! I am still alive!

Well I won immunity! This is a really nice feeling. I am guaranteed a spot in the f6. AND I STILL HAVE AN IDOL. I am screaming rn. Like on cloud nine. This shit is great. Hopefully next tribal isn't as freaking frustrating, which of course it shouldn't be; Jay is gone ;) Maybe targeting Sam? Maybe even Ting Ting. Cuz after looking at her moves with our last challenge, she definitely targeted Amanda and I, even before we were ahead of the rest of them, sooo I don't exactly know her business but I sure as hell am gunna get all up in it.  

YAY IT WORKED! JAY IS OUT! So now I just really have to rely on Ting Ting and Sam voting with me from here on out. I also have a pretty unique relationship with Linus and an alliance chat with Amanda/Ashley from the Christian vote. So this round I would ideally want out Leah because she's kind of a goat and if she doesn't go soon everyone will want to go to the end with her. Also out of everyone left in the game I feel she is the least likely to talk game with me.  Lastly, long term people will want to go to the end with Leah and nobody will be willing to take her out in a few tribals from now so they'll continuously not target her and that can be fatal to my game. Also Amanda is a much bigger target to keep in the game and keeping Amanda in will keep Linus more likely to vote with Ting Ting, Sam, and I which will work to our benefit.   My plan for this vote is to talk with Ting Ting and Sam and keep us all together but by doing that we have to keep the secret bond between Sam/I's bond to Ting Ting a secret from everyone else so none of us go and have a majority on the numbers come Final 5. So Ting Ting and I put in a plan that we can get Linus to vote with us by me approaching Linus and myself saying we need to break up the fearsome3some of Ashley/Amanda/Leah. I think this plan has a good chance of working out tbh. Leah going this tribal would be fantastic. If this plan works out Final 6 is Ashley/Amanda/Ting Ting/Sam/Linus/Myself. I would ideally want Ashley out next because she has won 3 individual immunities, has better ties with people than Amanda (especially Linus which is the most concerning), and her smart strategic plays, and social bonds. If we are able to pull of a blindside on her next it'd be great. We'd need myself, Ting Ting, Linus, or Sam to win immunity though. If that plan works out Final 5 is Amanda/Ting Ting/Sam/Linus/Myself would be left and ideally we want Linus to still be against Amanda. We'd need myself, Sam, or Ting Ting to win immunity. Then I think this would be the perfect time to get Amanda to vote for Linus and Linus to vote for Amanda, and cause a 3-2 vote with Linus getting the majority of the votes because he's less of a jury threat than Amanda and way better at comps and I think he can totally rock that Final Immunity if he can get there, if it's a Final 3. If that plan works out the ideal Final 4 is Amanda/Ting Ting/Sam/Myself. This way if we look at the jury Amanda has Steffen, Christian, Leah, Ashley, and possibly Jay which I think Ting Ting and Sam will be able to see by that point and consider Amanda a major jury threat and would win in any Final 3 scenario with us 3 remaining which would give us the reason to give her the boot. We'd just need for Sam, Ting Ting, or Myself to win immunity and cause a 3-1 vote with Amanda leaving which I think is possible. Final 3 I'd ideally want to be sitting next to Sam and Ting Ting whether that it's Final Tribal or the last tribal before a Final 2 because I feel I've made good connections with both of them and been so close to both through out the entire game. If it's a Final Tribal I feel I have an okay shot at winning next to them. Honestly, just getting to the end will make me relieved. For now I just need to continue on my bonds and plans and make sure people don't go after me, turn up the comp skill, and make my way to the end.  

Okay so I am immune and we have tribal in 4 hours AND NO ONE HAS SAID A THING. At the point I am just throwing out Sam's name cuz I think it is about time for him to go. I know I probably couldn't beat him in the end and therefore I kinda want him gone. I am taking a leadership role in this vote and I think I will hate myself in the future for it but shit needs to get done. It is like no one has the balls to say anything so they don't hurt anyone's feelings. Like come on. Suck my dick, get over yourselves and play the damn game. Also omg I think I am starting to like Leah because she is fucking insane like me and we are essentially the same human.

Trevor: *Sends confessionals link to tribe chat* Haven't gotten any!!! Me: Bish I literally just sent one.

*lowkey don't care about this tribal cause I know the 7th place chat is lit and I would be content going there lmfao*

Ashley and Tommy like to laugh at me for sleeping too much when they wanna strategize. ITS NOT MY FAULT THEY WAKE UP AT LIKE 7AM I'm basically nocturnal I cant help it. At this point they should call me Sleeping Beauty and call it a day

Okay y'all this Sam vote has been too easy, I am feeling a little sketched but I am immune soooooo. I just don't want someone close to me to leave. I don't quite trust Ting Ting 100% because she targeted Amanda and I in the last challenge, and then Amanda mostly. So I am a little confused as to why. Linus might be close to Sam so we might have just risked Sam finding out. From what people are saying, it seems like the vote would be a 6-1. But is Fucking Sam plays an idol whoever he chooses will be screwed. So I am thinking someone might have to throw out a vote on someone like Ting Ting or Leah just to be safe. But I just have to find someone willing.

okay so ting ting told me that ashley is pushing for my name which doesn't surprise me. she has immunity so she's probably trying to call some big shots. i'm working on linus to try to get him, myself, tommy, and ting ting to vote for leah. if all works and there's no idols, i'll be in the final 6 for the first time ever! but anything can happen, so i'm going to keep doing all the work i can.

"No one mourns the Wicked! No one cries they won't return. No one lays a lily on their grave." -Wicked (2003 musical) So Jay is gone :( . I'm kind of torn on how to feel about this. Sure she was shady as hell to most people in the game and a huge flipper, but like, she was always honest with me about where her head was at. Now on one hand my closest ally is out the door, but on the other I think multiple groups are seeing me as a possible extra number for them. In the Challenge Ashley teamed up with me  (She made deals with other people too, but at least I think that means Im not at the top of her hitlist) and she also somewhat tried to revive the "The only goddamn trustworthy people left chat". On the other side I have Tommy who I talked to for over an hour with yesterday in a skype call who wants me to side with him. Right now my play is Im trying to solidify a final 2 deal with Ting possibly. I know shes lied to some people, so Im hoping the trust isn't misplaced on my part, but I think I can play it up like with Jay gone I'm just going to become her extra vote. As it stands I think this round Im siding with Tommy and Sam, and hopefully Ting votes with us. Ashley's saying she hasnt heard anything about the vote at all, which is usually a red flag, but with her you never know since she's said that to me every round until like 2 hours before the vote :/ . I really do feel like there could be a f3 deal with her, Amanda and Leah so I want to get to strike while the iron is hot. The biggest problem with going against them though is that it seems like Tommy, Sam and Ting would most want to target Leah. Getting Leah out is kind of a mixed bag for my game. In one sense, Im pretty sure shes been going for me for a while, and if I make the end I can say that I was the fan who did what none of the others could. Thats also the problem with it though. If I become the last fan standing (Get it, like the famous saying last man standing but with an f instead of an m, Im so funny) then maybe others don't want to take me to the end so much since it possibly increases my shot at the end. On top of that, Leah is clearly been the least influential player so even with her wanting me out there hasn't been a vote cast against me since the Steffen boot.

Alright first, alliances and such: Ok it just makes me laugh so much that no one knows how close Tommy and I are in this game. Like omg. We literally swap info daily about the going ons. Like he's close with Ashley and Amanda and I got Linus it's great. Also Linus is nice and he's in a good strategic position for the remainder of the game. Like if he swaps, then boom there goes a vote. Sam is cool. He's really good at comps so he'll probably get immunity for like the rest of the game if he makes it through this vote. Leah is chill, I definitely think she's more focused on BB which is cool. Ashley and Amanda like don't trust me which i'm like fine whatever. Next, this vote: So basically Tommy, Sam, Linus (hopefully), and I are going for Leah this round because there's that Ashley, Amanda, Leah like final three alliance going on that needs to break up before final 6. Like strategically having three people in the game that are really close is bad because that's basically a majority right there going into f6. Ashley thinks that it's gonna be a 6-1 on Sam and he's leaving but... ;). Anyways, my only goal is to get to f5 to figure out what that legacy advantage is (shoutout to Steffen). Hopefully i can make it there. 2 more tribals. Also the cave can go to hell along with the hosts because they are evil people.

ashley actually thinks imma vote for amanda i cannot wait to SHAKE her geez if this all works it's gonna be amazeballs.

my heart my heart my heart that was so awesome. so awesome. i just i omg that was amazing amazing. ashley left that chat so fast!

Well, I've never been on the bottom in an ORG before, so that's a fun development. If nothing else, losing all my allies except for one (Linus, shout out to you for not being a giant bag of small dicks) means I'll get to really flex my game skills. I'm going hard as fuck on the next challenge because if I lose, it's probably the end of me. But if I make it to the end, assholes, then thank you for putting someone who loves me on the jury.

You know what sucks? Still being in the game but feeling like people are already campaigning for your jury vote.

since i promised this I MADE THE CHRISTMAS BREAK!!!! what kind of survivor magic you know as much as playing on the bottom sucked, I needed to figure out how to play the game differently. I used to just have this rogue-esque style of gameplay that never put me on the "bottom" because I was usually just thinking about myself and not my allies. now, I'm back in a majority (that is still very fluid), but I safely feel like I'm no longer at the bottom of a specific group. I feel like I've refined my game and made it more social, and I needed the experience of bottom-feeding to do that. I need momentum for when we come out of the break; it's time for me to start winning this thing.

"The best laid schemes of mice and men often go awry" -Robert Burns Well, that tribal sucked. What's running through my head right now is I must be considered such a non factor in the game to people that they just aren't attempting to play the social game with me. My reason for thinking this is because unless they are actually jury threats somehow, this vote was absolutely moronic for Leah, Amanda (and Ting if she's lying about her reasoning for the vote). The only person this helps at all is Ashley from my perspective, which means either I'm playing with idiots, or my perspective is way off. I feel from a strategy perspective for myself I have to assume the latter. Leah, Amanda and Ting need to get to the end with a goat from what I see, so why cut a goat when the goats could have formed a majority in the alliance once Tommy and Sam are gone? Ting's reasoning is that the vote was already in Christian and she just wanted to be in the majority (which is reasonable, I did the same on the Brett vote), and Ashley claims she heard about the vote 10 minutes before tribal. I am more prone to believe Ting on a logical level, but Ashley's story actually does kind of check out too since she was gone all day. The problem now is figuring out h approach to move forward. I feel like if I play my cards right I can stay safe, but I have to figure out if Amanda and Leah secretly are some social beasts or something and I need to appeal to a strategic mind, or if I need to make a serious call out post in the main chat and maybe wake some people up to their position in the game.

Linus is not funny but I'm not funnIER

i just typed a huge game confession and my internet went out happy 2017... i'll try again tomorrow

oh wow i won something! i'm not really sure how this vote is going to work out; i'm expecting that jay will have something to offer me tomorrow. that, or she'll try to blindside me so that i'm at the point at which i have to win immunity. anyway, it's dope to at least make it back to 7th again. but i'm not done. time to go to work.

okay apparently people are paranoid that tommy is gonna play an idol like I WANNA SEE THE CHAOS

LET ME IN I'M ALL ABOUT THAT SHIT

this game crackedt.

[1/4/2017 10:50:34 PM] Nigel (Linus) Silversides: How are you feeling on the vote? [1/4/2017 10:51:27 PM] Ashley Hudson: Ummmm I am really not sure because I dont really know where anyone's head is at [1/4/2017 10:53:15 PM] Nigel (Linus) Silversides: Yeah, people have been quiet :( . You're kinda the one calling the shots right now though so I was hoping you'd maybe heard something. [1/4/2017 10:53:31 PM] Nigel (Linus) Silversides: (Thats not meant as an attack on you for being in the power position in any way, sorry it was worded badly ahdfjlhads) Well... This is new. A power position?! Me?! How?! I guess people have been assuming Leah, Amanda and I are a thing but I odn't quite see how that would make me in a powerful position. Help.

So Tommy called with Amanda and I and told us that Leah ran to Jay before the last vote and told her that the plan was majority on Christian. Thankfully Leah didn't flip or anything, but just the fact that she told Jay about it before tribal is annoying as heck. Like idek if I can trust her anymore. She is in an alliance chat with Tommy, Amanda, Sam, and myself. So I have been trying to not talk much in the chat and work more with Tommy and Amanda. Amanda and I are tight still, I guess you could call it a F2. My second person I would say is Tommy. I really want to trust Ting Ting but all she is saying to me is that she will go with whatever I say which is kinda sketchy so I will be cautious with that one. For tribal tonight I have no idea what is happening, so that is cool. I think if people play their idols I might too. Might as well be safe rather than sorry. Jay is supposedly trying to pull in the ranks because she thinks that it will be her tonight, so if she does that, and if people fall for it, she could get a group together unfortunately. I however, don't think I will be the initial target they choose. Jay has suggested Amanda before and unfortunately she might again. So we really need to be careful. I can't go losing my biggest ally tonight. But I also need to keep an eye out for myself.

People I trust?: Amanda Tommy People I am unsure about: Sam Leah Ting Ting People I will be looking out for anything, and I mean anything sketchy: Jay Linus Maybe we will see a split vote tonight? Tommy Amanda and I were talking about it. maybe a 4 and 2? Like our most trustworthy people on the 4, and then the 2 could be like Leah and Ting Ting. In case they flip, it would be 4 and 4. However, we may have to make it seem as if Leah and Ting Ting are voting in the majority so they don't feel any urge to switch. So possibly lie to them and say Linus, then have the majority vote Jay? That could be messed up if Ting Ting or Leah flip, and Jay plays an idol... So tbh our ideas have cons and pros and I am not sure what is going to happen tonight.

My kink is being on the bottom, knowing I'm on the bottom, and still having to play nice. Like, I wish people would stop bullshitting me. Don't campaign for my jury vote before you murder me. Assholes. At least if I go tonight, it won't be a blindside.

okay uh now jay is brewing up some bubble bubble toil and trouble shit and saying that ashley is some kind of strategic mastermind?? I agree that ashley is in a good spot but I'm not sure she's the one calling all the shots over there. then again, I could be very wrong. I've been wrong before.

Well this is quite the yikes fest. I literally don't even know how to describe what's hopefully going to happen. So the overall plan is to vote Jay out. So I definitely know that we have me, Tommy, Sam, Amanda, and Ashley which is good enough to have a majority. But let me tell you, there are fireworks. Like it's the 4th of July out here. Bc first, Jay wanted to get me out, because apparently she doesn't trust me anymore, which is totally understandable, but like she thinks that I'm cocky and act above her and like always expect her trust, which I don't. But like sorry i lied to you, i know that sucks, but you've done it to me so... Anyways, everyone's worried I have something from the cave but like all i've gotten is scuba gear WHICH ISN'T EVEN HELPFUL ANYMORE, LIKE THANKS A LOT TREVOR AND OWEN. I just have the stupid legacy advantage which i don't even know what it is yet but like anyway Leah helped to get Jay to not vote me hopefully, so like go her love you. And then Leah and Jay were like let's go vote Tommy. And I was kinda like well shit how about not bc he's like my numero uno. So then Tommy like outed Jay to Leah and then Leah got paranoid so hopefully she changed her vote to Jay. So yeah. Also Linus' name was thrown in there by someone (idk who) so I kinda convinced him to vote Jay to keep himself safe in the upcoming votes. So hopefully all goes well. I mean if she has an idol then we're kinda fucked but you know life also kinda fucks you up too. It's all about the challenge brochachos.(also like i'm the only asian left. plz keep me in. all the asians of the entire world will love you 5ever)

okay so now jay is coming around saying "hey i've only heard linus and ting ting" like WHAT????? you were just taking to me about how you think you're going and ALSO you're pushing for tommy and you aren't even throwing out either name! i feel kinda bad for everyone they seem really like stressed and shit because jay has literally thrown out everyone as a possible target. i'm kinda lucky that i'm immune and i guess it couldn't have come at a better time but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ i still got the feels

Back from the break... I threw immunity to Sam so he owes me like A LOT! Like he owes me his life in this game. Amanda/Ashley/Myself talked about a target and we all agreed on Jay and I gave them tea that Jay was after them. So it's been a crazy turn of events Leah tried to vote me out by telling Jay to vote for me then Jay told Linus and Ting Ting. Jay also mentioned Ting Ting's name and I told her. Also Linus was messaging me about hearing my name and it all turned crazy af. Basically I went back to Leah and told her Jay told me that she was after me and Leah went bizerk, Ting Ting ended up helping me by using her paranoia (or so I think) to get Leah to think Jay was after her. Basically this tribal is just a train wreck and the only people I kind of trust are Sam and Ting Ting. If all 3 of us can survive until Final 6 I think we'll be good for a majority of the game if that's what they want to do as well. This game is crazy af and I have a huge possibility of going home tonight.... I really need Jay out this vote so everything falls into place. I'm just hoping nobody plays an idol on her and I hope I don't go home.

okay this is a call out confession trevor these tribal questions have such an ATTITUDE like WHAT??? i'm ready to fight

"Nothing to win and; Nothing left to lose" -U2 Well damn. It looks like the run of Linus may be coming to it's end, or at best I may be losing my number 1 closest ally in the game :( . If I go home, than Ill be disappointed I never made my big callout move, but I gotta go with the info I have and it looks like laying low is my best chance at not going. If Jay goes and is reading this after, know that I'm sorry and this isn't personal in the slightest.