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Happy Anniversary Tumblr Survivor: Palawan! Here’s your long overdue DVD cover!

Top Row: Grace, Lexi, Nick

Hey guys! Tumblr Survivor: Palawan is nearing its one year anniversary. It was an amazing season and the hosts had fun hosting their first main season as well.

Palawan, Philippines was chosen because of it being the last frontier of the Philippines. It has incredible clear, white sand beaches and their marine wild life is stunning. But what if I tell you that a huge company is going to destroy it in favor of building a marine waterpark? Nickelodeon is planning on building a SpongeBob Squarepants waterpark on Coron, Palawan. It would ruin the marine ecosystem in Coron.

Why am I posting this? Because Palawan needs you. It needs you to save Coron!

#CoronIsNotBikiniBottom

THERE IS A PETITION GOING ON AND WE NEED SIGNATURES AND WITHIN 24 HOURS IT MANAGED TO GET OVER 100,000 SIGNATURES.

With it, it might stop the planning and construction of the waterpark and save the natural resources and the wildlife of Coron.

Before we bid farewell to Palawan, there’s one more thing to reveal: the hosts’ award for the Player of the Season.

After much deliberation, this award goes to...

Ok regarding challenges (because I know this is going to be brought up at least once...maybe not I don't know. I can't read minds) but I suck. It's not my fault I'm playing with the Usain Bolts, Serena Williams, and the Adam Morrisons (during his Gonzaga years) of the internet and flash games.Like I'm trying. I just have work and bad spatial reasoning skills. So like @hosts maybe  a sporcle quiz or a trivia challenge for your girl Grace over here. P.S. I do like these challenges just it's they're really hard. 

So I got the idol after weeks of trying to figure out what the quote was... But a simple google search helped me out so thankfully I have it. My only issue is i dont know if I should play it on Allie or myself. I dont think the vote will be me this week but I just told Allie I had the idol and she is taking a bit to respond to the plan so at the risk of being stupid, I might just play it on myself? But in all honesty, if she wanted to make it to the end, her best bet would be with me and that is what worries me. Her going back to Nick after literally everyone wants to keep him. That should seem sus to the average person but I guess I am the only one who see's it that way. Throwing the vote to Nick last tribal was my warning shot to him and this week I desperately need to get him out.... 

OKAY FINAL FIVE WHAT THE HECCKKKKKKK how i have made it here is above me. like honestly, i just wanted merge at least but like, i think i have a chance??????? MY MOVE AGAINST RHEA WORKED!? yay!! bu honestly rip rhea she was a fav. but she had to go but i was super P I S S E D when emily went last tribal because she was my ride or die. i was trying to protect her as much as possible. then rip i got a vote at that tribal, and I HONESTLY DONT KNOW WHO VOYED FOR ME. i couldnt even guess rip but now.... lexi and josh's plan is to split on me and allie okay sweeties okay me, grace and allie are all voting lexi! but letting them think allie or i are going! rip this better work because if it doesnt i might not win. and i need it. atm i wanna go to f3 with grace and allie! i think i have the best chances there and i honestly cant wait for the finals reguardless who is there! it'll be heated and fun. lets do it #PRAYTHATLEXISFANBLOGISFINALLYSHUTUP 

Tonight’s vote is critical. I need Lexi gone more than chocolate chip cookies need milk. Because if Lexi gets to the end, she will win. She is the underdog of this season. The Lakers to my Warriors, the Hoosiers vs. whatever team they played in the movie, and you get the point. A few days ago Josh suggested a final two alliance. While it’s not the best move for me strategically I have a better chance of getting to the end with him. And if something happens where we are in trouble, he’s a bigger target than I am. Tonight might be my last chance to get out Lexi. But she may have an idol. Which is problematic. My alliance chat with Lexi and Josh wants to split the votes between Allie and Nick. While Nick wants Lexi gone as much as I do, I had to somehow get Josh onboard. The goal is to get Lexi to vote for Nick, Nick, Allie and myself to vote for Lexi, and Josh to vote for Allie if Lexi has the idol from last night. Which I think she does because when I suggested picking our favorite pastries just to see what she would do she really went to town guessing. So either she or Josh has it. While we have the plan put together with Josh and Allie I need Nick around still so I’m going to switch and vote for Allie to get it to be 2 Allie 2 Lexi and 1 Nick rather than 3 Lexi, 1 Allie and 1 Nick. It’s a risk. Especially since I’m not telling Josh. But in a revote Lexi and Josh will revote Nick and then he’s gone. It could be bad for my jury management, but I’m willing to take the risk. I'm not so sure the numbers work out. I did have to post it note this whole thing. Voting strategy isn't my strong point. 

(Gifs) http://geekylaugifs.tumblr.com/post/121368431947 http://geekylaugifs.tumblr.com/post/121791448697 http://50-shades-of-fuucked-upp.tumblr.com/post/109700340316 http://geekylaugifs.tumblr.com/post/121059115082 Why can’t I have nice things. Lexi was supposed to go home. But no, stinking Ferris Bueller walks free again. I was banking on a final two. A final two between Josh and I (or Josh and me). So voting out Allie wouldn’t matter now. We would just get Lexi, then Nick and we’d be free to be at the end. But when the hosts dropped rights of passage I started seeing my whole season cave in on me. I haven’t done much, I’ll admit that. But I have avoided being a target. I’ve been sliding back and forth to different alliances, and have been halfway decent at talking with people (minus Lexi and Allie). But that all goes to waste if I end up in a final three with Lexi or Nick. I can’t beat either one. It looks more and more likely that I’ll be dragged to the end. But maybe I can put up enough of a fight so that I’m not a complete flop.

I really need to win this Immunity but you never know when to stop or when it is enough. In the past, these people have done little to nothing in challenges but there is always a worry. I fear Josh the most as he is  very good competitor so I really need to keep clicking away and hope for the best. But I have a bad feeling about this entire thing. Most likely, I will be voted out tomorrow. It happens. In the past couple of tribals, I have realized how..... stupid these people are. I told Allie I had the idol, and if she voted the way she should have, she would have had a better chance of staying. It would have gone to a revote and that would have been that. It really should have been 2-2-1 but of course, these people do not realize that the F3 is just around the corner. Nick has close bonds with half the jury so it would be the obvious choice to vote him out over someone that won't ever get a single vote and over me, who has pissed every single person (besides Callie) off to the point they probably will never vote for me. I just want these people to think.. but its just not realistic. God I hope I win immunity. 

Me looking at these final immunity challenges (http://yourreactiongifs.tumblr.com/post/124981539847) When I destroy my old high score on Casanova http://magnificentbonanza.tumblr.com/post/105097751214 And then when I know it probably won’t be enough to beat Lexi http://yourreactiongifs.tumblr.com/post/132857198126 Then when I win the first round of the live challenge even though I have no clue what I’m doing http://yourreactiongifs.tumblr.com/post/74712014939 Ok no more gifs that took forever and was hella annoying. (Forgive me for using the word “hella”). Anyways, the final immunity is my last time to shine, because this entire game I’ve kind of gotten nothing accomplished. I basically procrastinated. Like I tried to get stuff started but I couldn’t quite get things to fully work out. But regardless of who wins, I’m probably getting to the end. Joshua is my final 2 alliance so he’s taking me, Nick won’t take Lexi because she’ll win, and Lexi probably won’t take Nick because they keep targeting each other. So that works for me, I’m cool with getting dragged I would just like the victory though to show I did something other than twiddle my thumbs. 

I lost..... This seems to be a running theme with me but I can't believe I lost...... because I couldn't submit at an earlier time. That is what I kills me about losing so much, because I did as much as I could to win at least one part and because of that it doesn't matter. Its frustrating rn, because I made it a point to be completely honest with Josh and everything and time after time he keeps betraying me and refuses to even try and lie? It's disrespectful and as someone that will probably be a jury member, he is making it extremely easy for me to vote for someone like Grace. Even though she high key does not respond either..... I won't vote for Nick in any circumstance. He hasn't done a single thing in this game and for 3 people in jury to automatically vote for him, it's annoying and disrespectful. This isn't Survivor Best Friend. 

The worst thing about winning individual immunity is that I'm now popular. I don't like that. I wanted to electric slide my way into the final tribal council, instead I did the hundred yard dash and then blasted Beyoncé. I won final immunity, that's horrible for my game. Like yesterday I was saying how great it would be to win final immunity. Let me tell you Grace of the past, it's a horrible burden. Because in a way, the person I vote out, will blame me or will thank me for my honesty. My entire game I slid between alliances (slid because no one really called me out on it) and tonight we're at the culmination of my game. I worked with Lexi for only two or three votes and the last vote I was trying to blindside her. Nick and I have been back door allies the entire game. We haven't worked together each vote, but we've been together more often than not. And I can't forget Josh in all this. With the final three format he is harder to beat than with a final two, so he could still come in and snatch enough votes to win. This vote is almost deciding who I'm going to lose to. I have two good players to hide from. Lexi the comeback kid, and nick the charismatic Australian. With Lexi, I can say that she didn't have the social game and was constantly in danger and had to be saved with idols or with Callie's divine intervention. With Nick, I don't have the same leverage. I did save him a few votes ago, so he does owe me, but again this is survivor not the Girl Scouts and the actions I do today don't always require payment tomorrow. Then I get messages from both of them. Lexi saying she won't have that many votes because she pissed a lot of people off, and then Nick is saying the same thing about himself. Nick and I had a conversation during the last vote about wanting a returnee to win and I think he took that as a final two deal and he's bringing it up, and I don't do good with confrontation. Like I either go all April Ludgate on them or I just freak out on myself and then like roll over like a fainting goat. I have no fricken idea what to do. At least Logan's playlist from the loved one's letter is keeping me sane. I'm just gonna sit in a corner of the internet for a while and try to summon the spirit of all the past Tumblr Survivor Winners until I  figure out what to do. May Miranda and Bran be with me! 

Should I just mention now that Josh is also a huge threat. Like socially he is/was way better than I was. And like he did it all on a completely different timezone. Like it was mid evening at 9:00 where I am. Like dang, I'm surrounded by so many winner threats.

IM GOING TO CRY I HATE THIS when grace won immunity i was ecstatic COZ I WAS LIKE YAASSSS LEXI DIDNT WIN BYYEEEEEEEEEEE but then i get a message from grace saying she is torn WTF LEXI WILL DOMINATE THEM. THEY DONT GET IT. IF THEY PICK LEXI, SHE. WILL. BLITZ THEM. i have so many feels rn im just trying to convince them to take me and i cant have this if i make it to the end i will die. ive never done this before omg UGHHHH I HATE THIS

#FUCKYOUJOSH2016 http://prnt.sc/a8u7rj

Ugh after all my plans and schemes fail…. (gif: http://youmarriedelastigirl.tumblr.com/post/138832112390?is_related_post=1) (gif: http://youmarriedelastigirl.tumblr.com/post/137371324075 ) Like seriously I can’t get my stinking act together. Last night Emily whips out an idol…figures. Like why? Why? Can’t someone I target, someone I want to out, get voted out. Seriously! Emily, Lexi, Allie have nine lives. Each! That’s like 27 votes I have to get through before all three of them are out. And everybody is probably looking at this season, and wondering why the hell we don’t split votes and it’s because we have a bunch of freeloaders. I know! I’m one of them. I use this majority group to keep myself safe. And I can’t just start suggesting we split the vote, even though someone always gets idol-ed out, because then that puts the spotlight on me. And that is the last thing I want. I used Callie’s receipts from the Trace blindside to help get Josh on board with voting out Emily and I let him do the rest. By the time I talked to Rhea and Nick they were already on board. Which was great for me because if it went south; it not on my head. So the avoidance strategy is working because I’m not really a target, but its not working well enough because the people I want gone are still here and the people I want to work with (Trace, Callie, Rhea) are sitting on the jury. So at this point, I don’t know who I want to take to the end with me. I don’t have a resume I can wave to the jury. And I don’t know who I can beat. I can’t beat Emily. She’s like a 16th ranked team in the final four of March Madness, I’m even cheering for her a little bit. But I can’t take her to the end. And I don’t know how many idols she has left, or if she’s going to go on an immunity run. Its not looking good. Then there’s Nick. He’ll probably have Will’s vote. And maybe even Rhea’s. But I don’t know really where his head is at or what his game plan is so he’s a bit of a mystery. Allie an enigma. Like a unicorn or UFO her presence is exciting, shrouded in mystery, and yet we’re still not quite sure she exists. If I take her to the end, she could win for simply staying out of the way, but I did the same thing but I was more active and present and I wasn’t dragged to the end. Then there’s Lexi. She’s a bit more polarizing so I have that going for me, but like Emily she’s an underdog and she’s clawed her way back into the majority which is impressive.   Joshua is another threat to win. He’s dominating challenges, he seems to be well liked. He’s quiet but not in the invisible Allie way, and its only because he lives in a completely different time zone. Anyways I’m just trying through the next vote. Like lets be real. I’m a flop. And flops gonna flop. Hopefully I make a few waves though. P.S. (even though you won’t get this till the end of the season)  Logan, thank you so much for the music and the loved ones letter. I couldn’t stop smiling for about 20 minutes. It’s the best virtual $20 I have ever spent. And the playlist <3 it’s now a spotify playlist! Its so good. Thanks Logan!   

FUCK I WON IDGSFSGDG!!!!!!!!!! After last tribal council where my weave was taken off by the kind of really horrible movie on Emily's part, I really needed to ensure my safety and I love endurance challenges so this was perfect for me. I was a bit worried about Emily naturally but thankfully I pulled through so now all I have to worry about is her having 2 idols but I know it wont be used  against me so HOLLLLLLLAAAA. I would like to thank my fans for this win :D

ummmmMmmMmmm im basically fucked, i know it, lol, rip in peace press f to pay respects

I'm shaking. I'm so confused. I'm so angry. I'm so.... words can't even express it.

Emily had the Idol, which Lexi tipped me off about. She played it and sent Rhea out. I'm just so pained right now. Rhea was my number one friend in the game and it sucks that she's out this early. *sighs*

But I couldn't pull a Connor and just cry and cry over my number one being out. I had to take action. I had a Final Three with Grace and Lexi, and considering everyone else are threats with Allie being a wildcard, I had to assure myself to Grace.

I connected with Grace and we formed a Final Two, and honestly this is really good! I didn't really get to connect with Grace that much prior to the past three Tribals, but she's an awesome human being and I love her to bits <3

Me and Grace then agreed that if Emily won the challenge, Lexi would go, and if vice-versa happened, vice-versa would happen as well. Hopefully we're both good this time!

The challenge though... ugh. It was endurance and I knew that Lexi and Emily were literal owls. You could open up an Owl City album and see Lexi and Emily's faces on the cover. But luckily, Lexi pulled through and now it was gonna be an easy vote.

So......... I lost? Am i surprised? No. I barely know English after 19 years so why did I expect to do well at Irish of all languages? But at least now I think I have options at this point with the people playing the game. After I blew up at them and they all ignored me, Josh and Grace seemed to have finally woken up to the fact that Nick and Emily are threats in the game. Nick has a great social game and Emily is probably the best at comps as an average  next to Josh and I so right now the plan is to vote out Grace and I hope it works, or else I will probably be sitting pretty in the jury watching the people I hate win this game. I don't like being the villain and it makes me quite sad to be cornered into that role but I refuse to play their game instead of mine. But I am proud of myself. This is my first survivor game and I managed to get this far so I am ok with leaving as I left quite a strong impression. (also i apologize for being messy with submissions and questions in stuff, i am a really messy person in general so rip me)

A confessional: In which Grace attempts to recap her game before she is likely voted out due to circumstances outside her control.   What is there to really say…touchy subjects reigned supreme. And people ate that crud up. I wanted Trace gone, just not that early. Like Callie’s, move was great. I was impressed. Just the timing wasn’t ideal. I wanted Trace around long enough to take out Lexi and keep any votes off me. Trace was an ideal shield. Then Callie’s idol had a completely different plan. Then Callie had some outside the game things and was voted out, and it’s just me from old Coron left. All the alliances during the pre-merge, the potential returnee alliances, the scheming, the planning, and now its gone up in smoke. And I don’t really know what to do next. If I am going to make a move, the time is now. I can’t play passively. I don’t have a shield, I don’t have an idol, and I don’t really have an alliance. But I have a plan, and I have the receipts. All I need is three other people, and I’m safe and Emily is gone. Which stinks because I like Emily, but she told Trace she wanted me gone and I can’t have that looming over my head. 

AAAAAAHHHH EVERYTHING IS CRAY RN soooo basically. i found an idol yayayayayayayayayaya and this tribal council is probably not as nuts as i think it is, i'm just paranoid and messy basically, i knew lexi wouldn't go home this tribal. everyone thinks of her too much like a goat. which i was like, ye okay, ill take this time to make a move. so i was hoping there'd be a few people that'd wantto get rid of grace or even rhea, maybe josh.... but nOOOOOOpe. everyone wants emily ughgughugh emily is my f2 so im not letting it happen so easily so OOO BASICALLY i  came up with a plan to save us both. (her for short term safety, and me for long ter safety) 1. i give emily my idol. 2. i get everyone to vote for emily, without seeming fishy 3. i make emily, vote out someone i want out. 4. THAT PERSON IS RHEA I FEEL BAD COZ SHE IS LIKE MY #1 ATM BUT SHE'S ONE OF THE MAIN PEOPLE THAT COULD BEAT ME SO IF I DONT GET BLOOD ON MY HANDS IT'LL BE OKAY!!!! 5. emily plays idol 6. rhea goes home HOPEFULLY. BUTTTTTTTTTT im feeling fishy vibes from EVERYONE and i think people could be targetting me so if this is my last confessional... kNOW THIS rhea or emily will win. and i'd be kinda happy to vote for them at the end yayayay RIP bye

Last Tribal Council definitely hurt. Callie was one of my favorite people in the game. She opened up to me, I opened up, she was a really good person to talk to. Unfortunately after the Trace boot, she was just a target and I had to ride the train and not risk drawing rocks. =/

Right after, I talk to Rhea, and Rhea mentions wanting Emily out. At first I thought it was a bad idea (as I love Emily), but then we eventually decided together that it would be a good decision and if we go to Tribal, it would be something to note.

The Survivor Auction then happened, and I honestly didn't win much. I tried my best to get the Skype Phone Call with Jessica because I want to win.

OMG Jessica <3 Jessica literally gave me a roadmap to the finale and I'm forever grateful. Her phone call was one of the best things I have ever heard and it was definitely a morale booster. After that talk, the more I was convinced to begin taking out threats one at a time.

I then won the Immunity Challenge, and then I decided to put my plan into action. I knew that it would hurt, but I didn't come here to make friends then give away the win. I want to make the win, give away friends, and then come back and get those friends back after the game =P

I approached Lexi and told her "listen, I'm not voting for you, we're gonna vote together". I then talked to Grace, and then after a few conversations, Lexi opened up a "yo yo yo" Final Three with me and Grace, further convincing me that this was a good move on my part. Not only do I have a Final Two with me and Rhea, me/Grace/Lexi are now a thing, which means that even if I had to take Lexi out soon, it was something good on my part and my game.

Okay so thank god I wasn't blindsided and they were actually voting out Lexi. We had to vote out Trace because he obviously would've been mad anyways so might as well get out a threat. We need numbers so as long as Rhea doesn't flip to the other side because she flips to whatever side as long as it's not her going then we'll have 4. I think it's in her best interest to stay aligned with us because on our side it's unclear who's at the bottom but if she flips then it'll be her on the bottom for sure no matter what they promise her... so... gtg! I hope we can flip Grace but if not then yikes. I wish we could flip Allie but no matter what her tribe does such as trying to vote her out numerous times, she still doesn't flip.... I honestly wish I could have kept the idol but if Lexi went then it would've been Josh/Rhea vs Trace/Grace/Emily/Nick/Allie with me in the middle and then who knows who Trace would've tried to tell us to do next and I don't like someone else dictating my game. http://31.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mari5uuyML1qdm9llo1_r1_500.gif Trace did promise me a f3 and I probably could have made it to the end if I kept the idol but with the people left they were a lot closer to each other and made it seem like they would vote for each other. I knew for sure that I wouldn't win against Trace. I'm a way bigger target now so that was the biggest downside because I know a lot of people are not going to want to take me to the end after that so I have to start playing hard and I can't pretend to be dumb anymore. We only had to play the idol apparently because Lexi told Nick to vote out Trace or something and Nick told Trace........... so Emily would have gone otherwise and we could've kept the idol. R I P I have a plan to get Grace onboard with me but I don't know if it'll work. I think sticking with the agutaya people would be signing a death warrant in this game because if you make it to the end with one of them, they have 3 votes locked up already because that's how tight they were. I need Grace to see that aligning with Josh, Rhea, Lexi and I would benefit her more just because we are the only two coron people left and we can swing one of them our way when the time comes before we can sway any of the agutaya members. I mean it is the truth but will Grace listen... http://33.media.tumblr.com/997567c36147b2f1f169cb6395aa4634/tumblr_inline_o23y5i7Q661tz4dob_500.gif If Rhea ends up flipping after all of this...... https://45.media.tumblr.com/1c07d2efb9927284df3b18b655b509c8/tumblr_nqmrdeSJJJ1u6xhsco5_400.gif I mean she might based on the fact that flipping would make it 5-3 and then Josh would do whatever Rhea wanted so 6-2 and then whichever of us, Lexi or I they wanted out, they could vote off. Then the next tribal, they could flip back to the one that stayed who would literally have no choice but to align with them because they'd be at the bottom of the agutaya alliance for sure and bring in Grace based on the fact that the agutaya people still have 3 so it would be 4-3. gtg!! I can't do anything until I see how reward/immunity turn out and then you better believe that I will do anything to flip numbers to my side!!!! Me during these few days... https://57.media.tumblr.com/0f624df0d701b6b8a70dbf211663875e/tumblr_n9bgr7XwzE1tvnqwjo3_250.gif

Me: tells people they have my vote 100% Them: we want to vote out Lexi Me: https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/564x/59/a6/c1/59a6c13fe18e891feab9e7a6c1052b4d.jpg Honestly, I think the agutaya 3 will pull in Grace obviously and then Josh and Rhea always just flip because they always think they're hopeless so I'm thinking they will split the vote between Lexi and I. I hope Josh would tell me though since we have a f2 and that I've helped him (even though helping him was actually helping me gtg!). I've let Josh believe that he's been playing the game for me so hopefully he feels like he can beat me and will try to keep me in the game. I could probably do the reward challenge but Lexi said that she'll do well so hopefully she can pull out the win and our 3rd idol collectively. I honestly want to really win immunity at this point because I don't think they would tell us how the votes are going to turn out anymore just so we don't idol another one of them out. http://33.media.tumblr.com/5379657d6fe1fa278ebc8725acafa16f/tumblr_inline_nxbw8i13hm1tr4u58_500.gif I have to really work on Grace and tell her that only we have each other's best interest at heart but at this point... she could easily lie to me and vote me out. I honestly believe that it's probably Lexi or I getting voted off next. OMG, I literally just thought out the best plan. I'm going to tell Grace that Trace told me that Emily wanted her out soon and that she said that Grace had a really good chance at winning, I think this may flip her to my side but you never know because this game isn't about revenge as soon as you can take it but more so waiting it out just soon enough and then taking them out just before they would take you out. She could always confront Emily about it but I can't just not try and also it could just look like Trace was lying to me and I wasn't lying to Grace so we'll see how that goes but I'll try after immunity results because I don't need to do something risky/directly if I'm not leaving. I will tell someone in my alliance to tell her about it if they're the ones getting voted off. I mean I guess we'll see... https://nypdecider.files.wordpress.com/2015/04/survivor-parvati.gif

wowzas, sorry couldn't bring ya'll a video, i have no excuse but this game is getting heated aaayyeeee last tribal, callie pulled a quick and played an idol on lexi, who everyone else had voted for. damn i was nervous but once i saw the votes for trace, i accidently started cheering in a way. because, trace i was only really keeping around as my meat shield. everyone viewed him as a target, and that was good, coz i feel like i've been playing to hard atm, so if i can keep that light on someone else that'd be NIIICE but he went, which was tragic, i think we definitely had a good trust thing goin on. bUT APPARENTLY, he was the one that told callie to vote lexi omg wtf, and its his own fault. but its okay, we can move on now i really need another sheild since both tribal councils, my sheilds are gone! an option right now is emily. she is pulling out good scores and is at exile atm. but i think people are stilling viewing her quite weak so that could be a risk i know rhea and josh are playing strategic games, but i dont think either of them are as 'in your face' as i am lmfao. (aka im a mess) i think the best option rn is actually callie or lexi they are huge targets to everyone rn. everyone is talking about taking one of those two out, so it might be smart to keep them around right now, whilst their targets are so big to take out someone i might view as a threat later on that was in the voting block that tried voting for lexi last time. i know i dont want that person to be josh or emily. i think they are good finals material atm. ily josh and em i really think rhea is the best ally i have atm, and to back stab her now would be the worrrsssttttt game move ever which leaves allie and grace. thing is, i dont view either of these two as threats. allie, has done everything ive expected her to do so far, including not submit something ahahah rip... butttt as long as she is here she can be trusted i feel yeee buttt grace, i dont really see as a threat. although, iDKK what deals she is making. how close she is to ANYONE rn. she is the person i know the least amount about in this game and i think that is scarier then someone who has played an idol and a strong social and physical game. because as long as i have an idea where their head is at, i can sorta tell what their gonna do. so maybe i might try switch the vote on grace next, then take out callie and lexi. either that, or actually have a strong convo with grace, i feel like its hard coz she leaves a lot mid-convo. but its okay, i understand that she is busy. she is so hard working, i honestly applaud her <3 so rn, im kinda stuck and dk what to do HAHAHAHAHAH so rip bye

No one is talking to me.... It's really depressing but at this point in the game, I am used to it. None of these people have a backbone and it sucks. Its not Surviving Friendships, its Survivor and they never want to vote someone out that is a threat to them. Callie and I have gotten out every single threat in this game and it sucks that we won't win because everyone wants to be in a majority with each other. Let me know when players like Rhea and Josh actually start thinking for themselves, when Nick isn't up Emily's ass, and when Emily actually starts to play the game I know she can play. If they were smart they would try to use me for a vote this week but they are too wimpy to do it. If Callie goes today, you can best believe that I am going to go after all of them guns blazing and I will become the villain they all expect me to be because I am done playing nice for people that could care less about me. Game on!!!

additional: after filming this i spoke to rhea and she told me everything <3 i new she was BhEA <3 anyway, no one told me shit bc LEXI and CALLIE -.- told trace i was after him and trace immediately found every reason possible to flush will’s idol WHEN HE DIDNT EVEN HAVE ONE WHAT A HOE and vote for me instead but last minute, josh and rhea saved me or some shit. but idk still find it pretty pathetic. im out for callie and lexi and trace now oh and allie ofc but like IDK i think i can trust grace to get rhea, josh, me, emily and grace to all take out callie. i mean, its probs not gonna happen but as of now, that is my plan :)

Okay so everything worked out perfectly and Will was voted out. :D When Will kept asking us to vote Trace out because “he wanted Lexi out” this tribal… https://d3avk9jiduss53.cloudfront.net/ikgkovt8icon.png Will thinking he was safe: https://d3avk9jiduss53.cloudfront.net/ikgf16rlicon.png I have so many different plans for next tribal but I have to wait and see how immunity turns out and if anything big changes from now until then. It’s going to be one of three people for me tbh as of right now but we’ll see!!!

It happened…I can’t believe it, but we got Will out. And as awful as it was having to lie to him and give him a false sense of security, it was needed. Had he gotten to the end he would have won. I placed my fate and trust with Trace and it was a somewhat significant risk, because I had safety with Will, Emily, and Nick. And had it gone south I would have been next, because they would have known I was lying. I jumped out of Will’s alliance and closer aligned myself with Trace who was on the outs. But I have to be really careful, because now Trace is seen as the hero. Callie and I helped Trace get Will out, but you don’t remember who’s playing second and third fiddle , especially when Trace is now seen as the comeback kid. I have to keep Trace feeling comfortable, and I have to get him out soon, even though he’s been my ally since day one. Because now if Trace gets to the end he has a better shot than I do. I just have to make the first move and even more important, I have to time it right.

When people say we should vote out Lexi: http://37.media.tumblr.com/a46781dab2104dc6448340de000a8097/tumblr_n3zv4eaPST1rvn8p7o5_250.gif I won the reward challenge today, wow how much do I love sliding puzzles!!!!!!!!! I got the clue to hidden immunity idol and I shared it with Lexi. Basically, you had to figure out a 3 word phrase and then post your guess in the main chat so I pretended like I was making an edit and listed episode titles of Palau with the answer in it and asked people for their suggestions. I don’t think anyone was suspicious of it but you never know. Emily’s responses were kind of off so…. gtg! I have the idol so hopefully I can always get someone to tell me if I’m being targeted or if Lexi is targeted then I’d use it on her too obviously. I would hate to waste it or even worse I would hate to be voted off with an idol… Allie was acting so nice to me today and then she got medevaced by accident and when she came back and I talked to her a little later……………… she was acting so weird……….. She didn’t really want to talk to me and was acting suspicious like I was untrustworthy or something…… like what could have made her do a complete 180 in such a short amount of time….. https://45.media.tumblr.com/58d9f73fee932f30ed4ed3ee167c33bc/tumblr_nr3rzxng5w1u91yv5o6_400.gif I have to decide on who I want out next, I still have three people in mind (or Allie but… she’s so close to being removed from the game so what’s the point) but the thing is I need to think in terms of what would happen if each person was voted out and I have to make sure that whoever’s left wouldn’t turn on me and would align with me so I can flip again soon. This immunity is going to be so bad for me because it’ll show how I stand with people if we end up doing the cutting the rope challenge and so far I’ve been loosely aligned with everyone except Emily and Nick. Although, I’ve been really nice to Nick and acting all lost and dumb so he wouldn’t think I would target him but I lied directly to him last tribal about being willing to vote out Trace so… gtg! Basically, the order of cutting ropes will show how you stand with people and if you end up winning then you’re seen as a social threat so it’s a lose-lose situation. I’ll probably get Lexi to cut mine early a few times after we get out the people I’m unsure about. I changed some majority answers just so people won’t think I hate them. I put myself as annoying because the least damage although people will think I’m avoiding the question… it could be true though since I always act dumb and pretend like I have no clue what’s going on. I think I can explain to Allie that I put her for a lot of bad ones because people never get the chance to talk to her so they would just use her as an easy option. Also, I have Emily and Trace for bad ones, I don’t talk to Emily at all so… anyways… Also, Trace wouldn’t really take it personally in my opinion and I can always explain that it was because I thought how Will was “making him look bad” in people’s eyes. I don’t expect to win this immunity with all the answers I’m changing but it’s better to keep yourself in a good position rather than trying to win immunity that you’re not in desperate need of. When someone campaigns to you but you’re the one planning to get everyone to vote them out… http://i.imgur.com/hcXvxxD.gif

The challenge was so awkward, I should’ve just pulled a Rhea and not done it…….. I think I will finally be getting some votes this tribal because Emily for sure is coming after me out of nowhere so I feel like for the small amount of time Allie was evacuated, she must have talked to the people who were voted off or something and told Emily…….. it’s the only way it would make any sense. They’re both acting cold towards me and I think they would try to convince Trace/Grace or Josh/Rhea that it would be best to vote me off because I’m playing both sides between the coron and roxas people. Ugh. For the challenge I got “who would you trust with your life”, “who would do the best on real survivor” and “who is a ravenclaw”…… so that just shows me that people ain’t buying the dumb act anymore. gotta blast!!!! Nick put me as a majority pick for who would win at final tribal…… i- https://31.media.tumblr.com/006229c7f6e7daf8a83e86ddd7d14620/tumblr_inline_nndyzygwh91tpwy2m_500.gif No one would cut Emily’s rope even though they all “want” her or Nick out and Nick and Emily also got a lot of positive answers. I can’t help but worry that people are going to flip and I won’t even know and be blindsided. I have an idol so if I feel like people are voting me then I’ll just use it. I have to make Josh turn against Emily who then will tell Rhea to vote her out too and then I need Trace to not flip either and then Grace will follow what he does most likely so off I go to tell them that Emily was targeting them. :))))))))) If this all works out then I won’t get many votes cast against me and if this plan flops then they’ll try voting me out… https://57.media.tumblr.com/f4d79d865201af70a41b57c03803f5f8/tumblr_njh3qt23U31tf66h8o7_250.gif I am honestly so done, I know I’m going to be voted out soon. https://31.media.tumblr.com/4ac4d5b60c5bae77f6267e59f73471cd/tumblr_inline_nrsm6wqT1A1sdg6f3_500.gif

So a lot has happened while I was away rip. First things first, Will was successfully voted out last tribal so hooray!!!!! I felt kinda bad but he thought he was running everything so he high key needed to go at some point. This tribal however, is a giant mess!!! So Callie won the reward and was able to get the idol thankfully so we can last another tribal is this ugly tribe. With Nick and Rhea trying to play both sides, its getting even harder to figure out who is loyal to who and so on. At this point, I can only assume they are all against me with the information Callie has given me. Nick told Trace the information I baited him with last night. He tried to get me to reveal my so called allies but I have no one but Callie and I would never expose her especially at this point. Trace said nick wants me out this tribal so that is what “our” alliance is doing but you best believe I won’t be going home this tribal. Oh Trace….. you should have thought twice. It’s time to bring out my villain side huh?

I don’t know whats happening. Is it Trace, is it Lexi, is it me, is Allie going to self vote agin? Ugh…

ok everything went off without a hitch i'm so happy i made it to merge https://i.imgur.com/iLmnQj7.gifv

the colours we have to use for the flags are so ugly

When people were trying to guilt me into giving them the immunity necklace... http://oi41.tinypic.com/34ovasm.jpg This last tribal was crazy, the amulet switch messed up my plan. It was going to be Connor and Nick going first and if not Nick then Trace. (Sorry Connor! I just felt like you didn't really like me/trust me at the beginning, and I would put money on it that you probably talked bad about me to the other tribe members. asdfghjkl You did seem to be a little more receptive towards me recently though. rip! <3) Then the switch happened and I tried getting them to vote out Rhea on our side but they were set on Lexi or Justin so I had to cut my losses and make sure they were in fact voting Justin out over Lexi. Also, I'm pretty sure that if I stuck with the original coron that I would be at the bottom of that alliance so I obviously had to make a move before they did. Rip Justin & Elena <3 I knew that I could still try and get the rest of the coron people on my side for the next vote, and if no one else flips then we have the chance to vote out one of the old agutaya members, preferably Will. Lexi wants to vote out Trace though because Trace and Grace voted her out... but the thing is we can vote out Trace either the next vote or the vote after because NUMBERS! If we get rid of Will then it's Nick and Emily, Trace and Grace, Josh, Rhea, Lexi, Allie and me. Although, Allie has been acting a little weird recently whenever I try to bring up agutaya members... and Rhea floats from side to side and never wants to listen to the plan. It's all a little blurry right now but depending on the next immunity I think we have a chance to get Will out. I think Josh trusts me a little since I knew he was going and saved him by selling out Connor before Connor even said anything about wanting out Nick or Will. gtg! He did after he found out they wanted him out but they only wanted him out because :) Allie would probably want Trace out next and I know Lexi does too. I feel like Will/Nick/Emily would want me out.... or Trace. Josh changes his mind a thousand times but he always wants to listen to Will/Nick.................. like wyd. Anyways, I can take care of that. :) http://24.media.tumblr.com/716d0d7077916e3d6002161382948e0e/tumblr_mlttdeTFV31r1ptd6o1_500.gif Rhea.... who knows... she's always acting shady... gtg! Grace and Trace seem to want out someone from Agutaya so hopefully they're not trying to play me but I think we would all vote out Will. So as of now, it would be... Will/Nick/Emily > Me/Trace Josh/Me/Trace/Grace > Will Allie/Lexi > Trace Rhea > ??? I think I can try and convince Lexi... hopefully and I hope Allie doesn't side with her old tribe because they are all likely to win... and they've wanted Allie out numerous times. I'm thinking Trace/Grace/Josh/Rhea/Allie/Lexi/Me to get rid of Will and then after that it has to be... Emily or Trace. If we take out Emily then having only one member from that side left gives us all a reason to turn on each other... but even if we do then I feel like we all would vote Trace out first. But am I willing to take that chance? I'm not sure yet. If we vote out Trace after Will then we could always use Emily and Nick as votes to get out Rhea/Josh. Although, do I really trust Nick and Emily? https://57.media.tumblr.com/d685821e55dc2196901a2f7cd2e83a68/tumblr_o0vmy7Ohdz1ql5yr7o1_500.gif So at this point it has to be Will first then Emily then Trace... anyways, I guess we'll see! I feel like some people see me as more of a threat now, because I score high in most challenges and I campaigned A LOT directly to people this tribal (guess I can't play dumb anymore)... because before this point, I got other people to campaign against each other without ever mentioning me. ;) I'm not sure if anyone has caught on to my strategy in the game yet.... although I think the people we've voted off probably have... http://30.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m1eq4i904D1rnqlsvo2_250.gif

hey hosts sorry for not making a lot of confessionals i'll try to make more now my game is going very well so far, in fact i feel like with my alliance and the fracturing alliances on the other side i can make it to final 3 with emily and nick which would be great! trace is our only real concern right now, but I think we're gonna vote him off this coming tribal since he has no alliances now that connor and justin are gone. i'm getting really sick of allie though, but i guess now that we're at merge it doesn't matter as much and we can just keep her around as a goat since she doesn't do anything :)

I don't feel safe right now which could be because of pananoia... but I feel like I'd be a target if I don't win immunity and if I win immunity then I'll be a threat... Although, I feel like if I win this immunity, I could always still sway the target onto someone else. Anyways, Trace and Grace asked for an alliance with me and they want to go after Allie first... and I know Allie is predominately loyal to Will, Emily and Nick but I still feel like it would be useless to go after her. Trace and Grace want Will out soon because Trace thinks he has an idol, but why not go after Nick or Emily over Allie... ANYWAYS I want to make a plan and say we're going after Will to Allie so she tells him and if he has an idol, he uses it and then vote out Emily although Lexi wants to go after Nick so I can settle for that. I just need to sway Trace and Grace to go after Nick. I feel like it's going to be a little more difficult making Trace change his mind but I will try. I mean if him and Grace decide to vote with the agutaya members then they're basically going to be out soon enough. I feel like Trace could POSSIBLY be playing me because I did end up voting out Connor so we'll see how it goes but numbers wise, but it would be dumb for him to do so. Okay but when someone who doesn't have the numbers and is never here tries to tell me what the plan is for tribal..... http://media.tumblr.com/eae14d0d2ebfc9881f841d87fdddca2d/tumblr_inline_nctyohRj2x1qexbp0.gif But I love how they're assuming that I don't have any say in what goes on in tribal :D I. :) Will. :) Just. :) Play. :) Along. :) They could know though because they did ask me to talk to the rest of the roxas people... http://cdn1.theodysseyonline.com/files/2015/12/05/635849463563488508-1464914061_CSA-ygmUcAAXfbY.jpg

I'm debating on whether I should give up this immunity or not.... I mean it's making me look like a bigger threat... although, I am already somewhat of an obvious threat just based on the fact that it looks like I hold the roxas and coron tribes together at this point. gtg! Emily and Will are coincidentally doing really well at this challenge when they're the ones I want to target at this point... y i k e s. Also will got the clue to the immunity idol from the reward challenge today and people were saying he already had one so he could possibly have 2... http://28.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m345t0KanE1rnqlsvo2_400.gif I feel like I just need to make people see that they need me in the game and I need to make more personal connections with people on the agutaya tribe so I'll work on that tomorrow. ~Befriend your enemies before you blindside them. :D I feel like all this plotting is going to catch up with me but I'm already in too deep, what can ya do... When you're genuinely trying to explain a plan with the best possible outcome but people aren't having it... https://media0.giphy.com/media/Km4yzuT7rEzBK/giphy.gif and then you just feel like crying after the difficult conversations but then you basically just have to trick them into thinking your way. gtg! Me: https://49.media.tumblr.com/78d456ae349b4dda987e8d8b7522ccb4/tumblr_n7nsj6G8391sq7sjjo2_250.gif Me a day later: https://55.media.tumblr.com/f680ac3d44969958641227dcbdad3cdb/tumblr_inline_o0cndlThqp1txxv5w_500.gif

i'm glad i'm not taking this game so seriously cuz no matter what happens me and nick and emily will be good friends and pris talks to them too and that is nice :)

hello there i am typing a confessional for the first time !!!!! in a while! 

 ~ trace is beginning to get on my nerves even worse than he was before. it's becoming a huge liability to keep him around longer but the same with allie too ~ this challenge was rly hard but i just wanted to win something for once bc i never win anything! ~ im gonna sleep for 25005 years

the main thing i'm thinking about right now is how much of a liability trace is to my game if we vote him off now, he can't vote with us in the future and it isolates me, nick, and emily as a group; if we vote him off later, he's gonna whine at us that we didn't include him in yet another vote (unless we vote off lexi for some dumb reason) and he becomes a liability on the jury because he's annoying i think it's ultimately best to get him out now but i guess we'll see what tomorrow brings also sidenote: i can't tell if i should be actually worried that i'm a target to take out or if i'm just full of myself

I'm so paranoid right now. Everyone is acting weird and they're talking to me differently. I feel like there might be a plan to get me out. Trace approached me (and I obviously don't say anything until the other person does so I have receipts on them :))))))) -- although everything just ends up thinking that they're masterminds or something because I don't ever say much... anyways!) but he told me his plan and it's exactly what I wanted to do. :D He said we can't trust Will and that he has an idol so we should vote him out but then I suggested making it seem like we're voting out Will so he plays his idol and do Nick instead so he agreed. I also told Trace that Nick said he wanted to go after Trace so hopefully this isn't some fake fight... because everything seems a little sketchy right now. Anyways, it's undecided in my alliances right now but it's going to be either Nick or Will unless Rhea pulls her random crap where she wants to vote out someone who would be useless to vote out............ like bye. Lexi told me that Trace proposed an alliance of them and Josh and Grace... okay WOW Trace... thanks for not including me! https://49.media.tumblr.com/ff9d2284659e73debf1fcb87edeb3bb6/tumblr_o0tq6mAsgQ1ue7aj6o1_250.gif Okay but seriously this is great because then I can know if Trace ever ends up targeting me since Lexi would tell me and possibly Josh would.. The worst case scenario for this tribal would be if Trace and Will both had idols and Will played it on Nick and Trace on himself then there would be 0 votes unless someone throws a random vote which is super risky and I could potentially get voted off. But would Will use an idol on  Nick? https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/originals/50/b8/6c/50b86c282790a9ec0c8c3e0e6ad5b445.gif Josh is thinking of the most obnoxious plans, he said he just doesn't want to do something everyone else came up with. It's like ummmmm I came up with it but you don't need to know that :)))))) He even said that he just had a random thought and that maybe we can use the votes and just vote one of our own out.................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................... I CANT BELIEVE HE MADE ME READ THAT WITH MY OWN TWO EYES?!???!!?!!?!!!?! It's too early to get rid of one of our own numbers.... like wyd?? Anyways... If the plan works out? Me: http://33.media.tumblr.com/b917a71a7106ba729f698439f2b2adac/tumblr_inline_o1yipt2r8r1tqt1sa_500.gif

So........ This week...... Oh wow its really something huh!!! So I am on vacation for #birthday and yall ask me to do photoshop and an endurance??? With Texas wifi???? Anyways!! So Will won (it was..... not deserving tbh!! FUCK THE JUDGES) the reward challenge and Emily won the immunity challenge. Woo hooray happy for them whatever you do you. But now the entire tribe is going crazy and its just annoying??? http://prntscr.com/a16s6g This is basically what is happening rn ^^^^^ and yikes..... it honestly feels like a giant trap but they are doing it to everyone so what is the truth??????  but anyways, callie wants to do nick so we are doing nick. if that is not meant to be then whatever it was a good time. just know..... im not my fanblog!!!!!!

i have hatched a scheme to split the votes in case of trace having an idol which is a very good point that josh brought up i feel weird having to be organizing all this stuff and doing all the talking because obviously this puts a target on me as being a leader-type person, but if no one else does it i gotta obviously!!!

Wow, this has been an absolutely crazy couple of days. Once we merged, I knew I needed to do something to secure my place in this game, because Will and Nick are clearly on a vendetta against the old Coron tribe. So my first plan of action was to try to befriend the Roxas people and see if they would be interested in teaming up to try to get out Will. The first person I talked to was Lexi, and she agreed with me that this is the smartest move for both of their games. Then, out of nowhere, Callie makes a group chat with the old Coron's, which is perfect for me because those are two guaranteed votes. Then, Callie comes to me and tells me that Will approached her to write my name down!! (!!!) (???) what ever happened to having my back will!!! If I've made anything clear in my time out here it's that I don't like LIARs!! WHAT THE FUCCK. Anyways, Will and Nick are dead to me. Apparently they even made a big group chat about how I have the idol, which I don't have lol. It's funny because I'm pretty sure that Will has the idol anyways.So, my reaction was to make my own group chat, which I named "EXPOSE THE LIARS". Then I heard that they're planning on splitting the votes, so I'm hoping that Will is sent home in a landslide vote. Crossing my fingers!

Okay so we had established that it was going to be either Will or Nick. I love how I just have to act like I'm not doing anything all the time and just hint at who I want out and everything falls into place :DDDDDDDDD Acting dumb, really works out huh? The only thing is people are going to assume I didn't do anything if I do get to the end. gtg! Anyways, Will made a chat with everyone but Trace and Allie and told us to split the vote. Grace, Lexi and I told Trace so he made a chat without the agutaya people and as of right now it looks like Will is leaving unless he plays an idol then it's Trace and if they both play one then it's Allie. I mean if Will is so confident that he wants to split votes, I'm pretty sure that Trace has the idol. He also kept asking how they were splitting and who was voting for who so I mean he's making it obvious that he has one and if he doesn't, he's acting suspicious so... gtg!!!

My Tumblr Survivor strategy is really simple…don’t rock the boat. I put on my life vest…and I want to float as far as I can. And I can make it work for me. I attach myself to other people and I let them do the hard work. I don’t align myself, other people pick me and just drag me along and when they get voted out I let myself get dragged by other people. Its great! It keeps my hands clean, its safe, its pretty simple, but it’s not bold enough. I’m not a bold person, but I can’t just float myself to the end. The amulet of abduction and all that went down showed that. So tonight…Will goes…hopefully. That or I just look like an idiot. 

The community has spoken, and we will now announce the Fan Favorite of the season!

In Third Place, we have CONNOR

In Second Place, we have GRACE

and with that, the Fan Favorite of the season is....

EXCLUSIVE GAME TALK WITH THE SUPER FLEEK AGUTAYA THREE-K (Nick, Will, Emily)

[2016-01-30, 4:38:19 PM] Elena Molnar: I feel like we have a chance at winning 

[2016-01-30, 4:38:36 PM] Justin Temple: Tru especially with josh doing well too 

[2016-01-30, 4:38:44 PM] Justin Temple: Who knows about Lexi like wtf 

[2016-01-30, 4:39:03 PM] Callie: i hope we do well edtrfygk 

[2016-01-30, 4:40:24 PM] Elena Molnar: yea Lexi is like slightly sketch lol

 "slightly" HAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAAHHAHAHAAA maybe if both of you got your head out of your ass and actually talked to people besides the people in your ugly alliance, then maybe i would talk to you (kiss) guess elena is getting out soon huh? 

im a mess at this game and life so i cam up with this pretty good idea to send trace to exile, hoping that he would pick one of the corona three that are still here and we could get the idol clue and catch up with him, but in order to do this we need callie so we could have the majority of the tribe voting for him. so we bring it up to callie and everything is going pretty good, then i decide to say “yeah! and trace has already gone to exile so thats how we could justify it!” TRACE HAS NEVER BEEN TO EXILE please remember this as the best plan in survivor history, btu also having the most flaws and negative outcomes. i am not good at this game and if i make the merge it will be a miracle!!!! :):):)

ok WHAT to quote elena: “first we made a plan, then we fucked up, then Callie completely ignored our obvious attempts at doing something, then I made a half assed excuse and Lexi bought it. what a night” this is whacko

THE TRACE EXILE PLAN WORKED I AM SO HAPPY

so i guess these people think this video is just going to work its self out? none of them are talking, giving input, asking stuff or anything. like??? what????? how are they like this what dont they understand

No lie…the moment Trace tells me his I’m his biggest ally in this game and that we are on the outs is the moment he gets dragged off to exile…figures

I’ve lost faith in this tribe.

The corona slayage has come to an end yall. It’s a sad day tbh. The bright side is I have the amulet of abduction again but my question is like how?? ??? I spent maybe an hour on the reward challenge bc I’m trying not to distinguish myself as too much of a challenge threat or whatever but I still had the highest score so I’m really not sure what these fools are doing. As for the immunity challenge, my tribes sad music video shockingly lost (it was so bad rip). I twerked for it though so not winning that one really put me in a low place fam. Pls keep me in your thoughts 1 like = 1 prayer thx guys. It’s weird though, we lost for the first time and I’m unreasonably nervous. I was able to lock down a vote for Lexi with my alliance of Elena, Connor, and Callie, and I even talked to Josh and Rhea and they both seemed eager to vote for Lexi. So in theory, this should be a super easy vote. She’s sketchy, she didn’t really contribute to the challenge, the list goes on. But she did go to exile with me and although the odds are slim she could have the idol. I just have this nagging feeling she has it and she’s gonna use it and vote me out (because even though when we found out we lost everyone was scrambling, she didn’t message me at all and I don’t think she messaged anyone else to my knowledge, which worries me with how comfortable she seems). Idk y'all I’m probably just too paranoid but if that’s how I go out I would be v sad. And we can’t even split votes because that would expose the hell out of my alliance and estrange Rhea and josh who we’re def gonna need at the merge. Idk if emojis show up on here but this is me rn (and most of the time tbh) 😩😩😩 it’s the grimacing emoji in case it doesn’t show up :)))) my friend told me he thought it was an orgasm face but I told him he needs Jesus so that’s that bye fam

I have tried to get my ally to build relations on one side of the tribe since I’m on another side but her side isn’t open to the idea of working with her… http://33.media.tumblr.com/bd7d400ec176d11829998317946431e7/tumblr_inline_o0cyht7K6y1tg2rwy_500.gif Soooooo, I guess I’ll try and play all sides at the moment. https://45.media.tumblr.com/1c07d2efb9927284df3b18b655b509c8/tumblr_nqmrdeSJJJ1u6xhsco5_400.gif The best option for Josh and Rhea is to align with Lexi and pull in one more person so they can vote out a threat since the merge is coming soon. Also, Rhea should probably not align with the returnees after the merge since they ended up leaving her last at the tribe pick. I feel Elena has the most connections overall in the game. I think she’s close with Justin and Connor obviously but she also gained the trust of Rhea and Josh and they’re also voting the way she wants. But then from the other tribe, I have this feeling she’s close with Emily since the first day and obviously Trace. She’s also great at challenges and will be harder to beat at individual immunities just like Justin who is also very social. I don’t want to vote out Elena since she’s one of the few people that has made an effort to talk to me and align with me but she’s like that with everyone and that’s too sketchy for me to get behind. I need to get closer to Rhea and Josh and see if I can make an alliance with them and Lexi. I hope after we merge that our tribe can stick together because I don’t think we can trust Trace to come back on our side. I think it’ll be Will, Nick, Trace and Emily as a core alliance with Grace and Allie on the outside while on our tribe it’ll be Justin Connor and me, while they try to get Trace and Grace back on our side…. http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-739jhIEFYwY/UyHyossvQUI/AAAAAAAATnk/TkyIq0ATLgo/s1600/tumblr_inline_n2coes209a1sb6luy.gif Also Lexi and me are obviously together while Josh stays on our tribe side but not having any strong connections. Rhea, I’m not sure about… she may try and align with the returnees again. So, it’s not looking great at the moment for my side but I’ll have to work and try to flip people once the merge comes. Possibly Allie, I know that her tribe would’ve probably voted her out if they went to tribal this time and she HAS to know that she’s at the bottom of the tribe. I feel like we should ban together and get rid of the returnees but I don’t think Emily would abandon that side and Justin and Connor seem a little too trusting of some of the returnees. Anyways, my tribe is set on voting out Lexi tomorrow but we have different plans. :) We tried to convince Josh but he just goes along with whatever the tribe wants even though he has better odds at making it far with a core alliance of himself, Rhea, Lexi and me. Josh, if you think the other original Coron have your best interests at heart then… https://33.media.tumblr.com/2e66fc2744d0adc217f1e450845bba93/tumblr_inline_ntt06oG21x1syus9z_500.gif I’m exhausted at this point of trying to plan everything and make sure I’m good with everyone. I’ve been playing really dumb to everyone and I think they’re actually starting to believe it. https://38.media.tumblr.com/a82865f2bf7776a01d101f3d2b1db7ca/tumblr_n32ri5lTWx1rj04xho2_500.gif Well, as long as nothing happens at the last minute. I think everyone is voting for Lexi and her and myself are voting for Elena and she’s playing her idol. Sorry Elena, you played too hard too fast. :( http://38.media.tumblr.com/e91b6092d6f01d292712d0d6192a7080/tumblr_n3vgagJT2S1ql2ui0o4_250.gif ily though. <3

(IM SO FUCKING AWKWARD IN THIS CONF LOL BLAME THE DROWSY MEDICINE I WAS SICK) Okay, so we had a Tribe Swap determined by the Reward Challenge due to the Ayan quit. I instantly tried to foster tribal unity in the event we would be split, but honestly, the biggest nightmare happened to me during the challenge - my laptop broke. Apparently the Survivor gods have bestowed another challenge for me, not only do I have a time difference to fight with, now I gotta deal with a computer problem too lmao. This is getting off topic but basically it’ll be seven to eight days, (five days from when I send this) and it’s gonna be tough. Surprisingly, even when I just crammed my challenge score, I did pretty well placing fourth. It would’ve been really good if I got it but oh well. Anyway, I got dumped on the Coron Tribe and I’m reunited with Elena/Justin/Callie along with Lexi and Rhea. And Connor’s there too I suppose. I’m ECSTATIC at this tribe because these people are people I wanted to work with prior to the tribe divisions happening and I am EXCITED to finally work with them again. However, it’s obvious that Coron are all challenge threats who will definitely go deep in the game. I want to trust them, but not too much. As the favorite quote of Ciera Eastin says: “Trust No One, but you have to trust SOMEONE.” Instantly from arriving in the Coron tribe, Elena/Justin/Callie were excited to see me again. I’m definitely anxious of Connor right now, because he’s the only one of these people I didn’t get to form a bond with, but I guess that’s what I’m supposed to do now. Elena however, gave me some important info. Apparently, Will from Agutaya, who was a returnee from Ireland, aimed for all the returnees during the Tribe Swap except Rhea. I instantly tried to seize the moment of opportunity to protect Rhea in a way by saying that maybe the returnees (sans Rhea) are working together and that we should band together to get them out. I think this is the best course of action right now, because right now, I know I am swimming with physical threats. However, physical threats are ultimately nothing compared to strategic threats, and if I want to go deep, I have to start throwing people under the bus and working my way through this tribe.

I’m doomed. Trace is doomed. Because Pat told Brandon something he shouldn’t have. This is like Olympics 2.0. I’m on a kick but, hella awesome, super cool, just good tribe. Then a stinking tribe swap lands me on a tribe with sketchy challenge flops. During the One World portion, Trace messaged me saying that the returnees were planning on sticking together. And I ate that crap up. Stupid me. I don’t even know if he was lying about a returnee alliance at that point. Even if it was true then, it doesn’t matter now. All that matters now is containment. Because for some inconceivable reason Pat told Brandon, and Brandon told Nick, and Brandon a bit sketchy. The game plan is for the alliance I’m in (Nick, Emily, Trace, Will) to drop Brandon like a bad habit after he threw Trace and me under the bus. I’m a bit suspicious of my alliance, and my own awkwardness doesn’t help. Hopefully Allie doesn’t self-vote again, and Brandon goes home. Although if a vote gets thrown toward Trace or myself I wouldn’t be surprised. Hopefully everyone just sticks to he plan and there are no curveballs. I hate curveballs. 

I’m feeling better than I was last night based on the situation with me and tribe. I’m trying to get my head more clear. I’ve been thinking about a lot of things lately. I’m just really exhausted with these people. Based on my hunch there’s  only one more person to go and then we’ll split into tribes of two. But I do feel like these people are energy vampires and very negative. I don’t think I clicked with the people on the other tribes This game is just feeling really bleak I do feel as if I got a bad draw with my tribe I joined this game because I really do like survivor even though I’m new to it. I just feel a bit guilty because 80 people applied I do feel like I’m a waste of space in the game I just feel like all my passion for it has been sucked out by the mayo demons and I’m annoyed I also feel a bit strange because I kinda teared up and cried alot while writing my last confessional and I don’t wanna be a drama queen I’m just tired of this and I don’t think the rest of the game will get better. Like I don’t want to be ungrateful for getting accepted into the game I was so happy and that was such a big deal to me However lets keep it real This has been a terrible experience for me so far. Sorry but like, this isn’t the best. I blame casting !!!

All of my tribe is complaining about the reward I’m really happy about it because I’m sitting out and I get to watch them complain while I’m relaxing. It reminds me of how I was working hard in the immunity and asking them for help and they were ignoring me and talking about taylor swift in the main chat while I was up all night clicking rice.   

Pulling myself from the game feels like the best choice for me I do feel as though I was intentionally put in a position by certain people To feel uncomfortable And I’m just not about that and don’t tolerate that I feel very bad After wanting to go I would look back to the draft I would see that Shareef a previous winner drafted me and that was my main motivation for a little awhile I just feel it’s better for me to remove myself from toxicity

Okay fam so I got back from exile and the corona slayage continued without me yeeeee! As soon as I got back I filled in my alliance with the deets from exile (and Callie lmao) as to make sure they know I def don’t have the idol and to make sure they know I’m 100% with them. I hope I didn’t over share info but there wasn’t really much I could withhold without making it obvious that I did withhold info if they ever go to exile. Ugh it just complicated things so much but whatever, I just hope they believe me and don’t target me out of idol fear. BUT speaking of idols, trace told me about his idol escapades back at camp so even though he didn’t find it I’m feeling #blessed that he shared that info with me because I don’t think he’s told anyone else. Either way I’m panicked for this potential tribe swap so I gotta start hyping up corona strong or whatever so hopefully whoever I’m with will want to work with me wherever we end up. I’m hyped but stressed yall RIP Ayan btw I hope she’s doing okay with whatever might have happened

Okay, this week is gonna be pretty straightforward. We entered as a fun and #Confident solid five. We fought for the RC. Pat didn’t pass and Lexi’s score didn’t go through. We lost the RC and Lexi, the only challenge beast we had, got sent to Exile. We fought our best for the IC. I was honestly left to fend alone by myself at times, but all in all we lost. Considering I helped build us up a 30,000 grain lead, it was just soul-crushingly irritating. Pre-Vote, I obviously don’t want to vote for Lexi. She is carrying us in comps, and we really need her. So as sad as it is to say, Angel Pat is going to be banished to hell for failing to show up. The vote was supposed to be easy, but then I got shocked. Pat showed up RIGHT ON TRIBAL. This was pretty funny because its kinda like what happens. People don’t show up, then show up last minute to sway your mind. I was out for lunch with my family when Pat messaged me, and he must have been scrambling pretty hard because I turned on my phone, to like, Rhea telling me that Pat wants me out. What in the actual fuck? And the best part was, he called me Phil. WHO? IS? PHIL? Like WTF. Dude, your head. Where is it at? As my binge-watching of High School Musical 1-3 (and Sharpay’s Floppy Adventure) during the Immunity Challenge would say: “Get Your Head in the Game!” I then talked to Pat and apologised for ignoring him and asked him who he was voting. He then told me he was doing Rhea. I then asked Brandon and he said the same thing, that Rhea was worse at flash games, blah blah blah. I perfectly understand that Rhea’s no good in flash games, but she’s done at least on-par with Pat. And I honestly don’t think that I am inclined to trust someone who hasn’t talked game with me all week than someone who has. So unfortunately, I caught you Pat, and I am voting for you. Additionally, some thoughts, aside from Rhea, it seems like these two other people do not have logic. Brandon is loyal to a fault in the sense that he really rushes into things, and Lexi is just so hard to get a read on. But oh well, we shall see. I hope we make it. Fingers crossed!

Okay the vote was CRAZY. I got TWO votes and I started freaking out. It turns out Pat got Lexi to sway and vote against me, and considering I thought he was gunning for Rhea, this made it obvious that he was trying to make a 3-2 vote work with me and Brandon voting for Rhea and the three others voting for me. Unfortunately he didn’t know Rhea is my #1 BFF in this game and he still went out. Post-TC, I didn’t really want to alienate Lexi. Brandon told me that he was considering throwing the comps to get her out before the merge, and in my opinion, that’s a very much welcome thought, but considering we are yet to even WIN an Immunity, it’s totally crazy to even consider that at this point. But, like Brandon’s previous impulsive plan, it just might work in the future. I then confronted Lexi, and surprisingly, she confessed about the vote and apologised, even though I was trying to suggest Brandon or Rhea to her as the people who voted me. I guilt-tripped her by saying: “I was never 100% voting for you, so it couldn’t be you!” and I think it worked. Right now, we need her for numbers. Our best course of action is to stay together as a tribe for now…. but I’m definitely gonna be out for Lexi’s blood if we had to go to Tribal one last time. Time will tell.

I think I’m gonna have to throw this challenge tbqh because I’m not trying to create a huge target by being good at these challenges AND making it obvious who I want on my tribe by being the person to pick. I hope I’m not being too cocky but I’d rather be put on a tribe by chance and I feel good about hopefully being able to maneuver enough to survive a couple votes at least. I must be so boring to watch lmao I’m sorry y'all between throwing this challenge and not using the amulet 😭💀 oh well I also wanna make a disclaimer because I’m p sure I said something mean about Connor a few confessionals back, I’m only mean based on my interactions with people online like I’m sure 99% of the people on here are great irl and the more I’ve talked to Connor the more I’ve enjoyed it, he’s a nice kid (although kind of aggro sometimes which I love lmao). Anywayz das it we’ll see if I’m all lovey dovey when the tribe swap happens (probs not I’ll probably be aggro too xoxo)

it appears the original corona four will be a “was” for now. I’m very worried about being stuck on a tribe with just grace and Callie and them throwing me under the bus to the others about never talking to them about game stuff. I am also worried about the first 24 hours of the new tribes- it wa crucial to making our corona alliance and it’s what put grace and Callie out in the begging- they weren’t active, they didn’t talk, they just sat and watched. hopefully I won’t do the same thing.

Since the last IC, I have been giving myself more time for me. I can’t do well in the game if I’m not enjoying it. So slowly, but sure, I’m getting excited to still be a part of it. This most recent Sandwich Stacker game was a great change of pace. It wasn’t making me frustrated and I was enjoying myself on a challenge for once. I am so thankful for that. I ended up getting the hang of things too close to the the deadline. So I wasn’t able to get the best score. I know either Lexi or Josh have the highest from our tribe. I seriously hope Josh wins. I want our unofficial 3 person alliance to rule this game, and we do that staying close together. I just realized that if the 3 of us are in a tribe together, we’re going to do very well. There will be 7 people in the tribe. If we lose the IC, but all three of use are safe after tribal, we pretty much control the vote for the rest of that tribe’s existence. We then need to get some people on our side when it comes down to the merge. If we get three people to vote with us the first time, then 2 the next time, then 1 the next time (getting easier as we go along), then we will control every vote from then on out and one of us will win the game. AAAHHHH!!!!! =O!!!!!! So there are four tribal meetings all three of us need to survive. Then it’s smooth sailing…well that’s if the merger is at 10 people. I don’t know for sure.

Day 13 - Unfortunately one of the people I wanted to work with had to walk. This new tribe is great, I’m aligned with the old coron tribe members so we have majority. Although, I’m not sure how much I trust them. I have the one person I wanted to work with on my tribe and we have a f2 deal basically. She told me about the idol clue and that she got the idol…. https://d3avk9jiduss53.cloudfront.net/ijxwplqwicon.png Since she has the idol so hopefully we can use that to get far. The other new members, I’m not exactly sure about them cause Rhea could be aligned with the returnees to some extent. Although I feel like the people at the top of the returnees alliance are Will, Nick and Trace while Grace and Rhea are at the bottom. Anyways, Joshua on our tribe seems really trustworthy at the moment so I’m thinking about just flipping sides because Justin has been acting kind of sketchy. I’ve been wanting to get Connor out for a while now but I think Elena and Justin are stronger players, and I don’t know if I would want them at the merge. Although, if we keep up our streak of not going to tribal then by the merge I could be kind of aligned with both sides. Although, that could get messy. When old coron keeps saying to stay coron strong… https://ak-hdl.buzzfed.com/static/2015-07/6/11/enhanced/webdr07/anigif_enhanced-10540-1436198091-2.gif

So I got my new tribe yesterday…I’ll get to that in a second because the results for the IC came out today and I’m pissed. It wasn’t like last week where we could have won if Pat pulled his weight. Most of us tried really hard, got organized, and submitted our challenge to be judged. We thought it was good, apparently it wasn’t good enough. What makes me more pissed is that I have literally gone to Tribal every time there was one. This is ridiculous. Can I get a break for once. So anyways, back to my Tribe. I’m finally reunited with Emily which is great. I would say the same for Trace, but thanks to what Pat told me before he was voted out, I can never and will never trust him. He’s aligned with returners and no others. Can’t trust him as far as I can throw him. He’s also not as active as I thought he’d be. I think he’s active while I’m at work, but it’s not like anything happens in the middle of the day. Nick seems really cool. I like him and he works hard and is active. Grace comes on as soon as she can and puts forth 110% of her time and energy into things. I really like that about her. I think I want to start an unofficial alliance with Emily and one with Grace, as well as one with Nick. I don’t know about grouping any of them yet. That will be a discussion that I will let them bring up. Will is an incredible competitor and I don’t think I talked to him much at Open world, but I’m excited to get something going with him when he is active again. Allie needs to go. She didn’t even participate in our decision process for this IC and I have no idea if she actually found any links/ put effort into looking for enough. If she does not go this week, something fishy is going on. And if I’m going home, I’m gonna try and blow up people’s games before I’m booted. I think the only person who knows about Trace and Grace’s returner alliance is me…oh yeah grace was involved in that. Shit I shouldn’t trust her either. Well anyways…This will be interesting…also interesting having my alliance on the other tribe…ugh I better make it to merge or I’m gonna light a door knob on fire.

I have a list of targets from my tribe if we lose the next two IC after this. After Allie is voted off this week, I want to vote out Trace. He is not as active as he should be and almost had a strike on himself for not submitting an RC score. Next I might want to target Grace. It depends on if she is vengeful or not for getting Trace out. We shall see.

OMG TRACE I CAN’T!!!!! I have to make a video confessional for this one. He’s just too much.

RIP I can’t really remember what I talked about in my last confessional :((( sorry if it gets repetitive lol. Anyways since this tribe swap, I’ve been lucky enough to find myself in what I think is a power position with my majority of 4 original corona vs. Rhea, Joshua, and Lexi. I made sure to lock down that Callie wants to stay with myself, Elena, and Connor and she seemed on board so its all gucci especially since she doesn’t like to talk to anyone else really lolz. Since then I’ve tried to connect with Rhea and Joshua a lil bit since I talked to them in the one world chat and it seems like we’re still on good terms~ and Rhea even spilled to me all the shit that went on between her and Lexi back on Roxas which was gr8 because I always got a super shady vibe from Lexi so it was nice to know I wasn’t completely wrong. If I had it my way, if we lose, we would all vote Lexi and based on what I know from talking to Rhea and Joshua (and from what others have told me) they wouldn’t have an issue with that. I won’t miss your weird skype emojis girl bye. I am slightly worried about the returnee make up of the other tribe and keeping Rhea around, but she has expressed her distaste of working with returnees. Of course I’m wary of that because she could be saying anything to save her skin, but hopefully with Agutaya losing that last challenge, their returnee numbers will be down anyways so it hopefully won’t even be an issue. IN OTHER NEWS I found a fake idol today wtf. Callie messaged me that in the Hozier tag if you go to recent instead of popular, there was an idol clue, and indeed there was (thanks girl <3 I knew forming a bond with her would come in handy “fkladsnvlkadsjf” - callie - me). I managed to guess the right “7th place female who only played once” (Jaime Dugan the irony) and got the “idol”, but after messaging the hosts about it, it became very clear that I found a fake ass idol which is so damn shady. My guess is someone on the other tribe made that blog because they’re returning players and they would know how hiding idols in the tags and shit like that would work, so someone is trying to make me look like a fool or try to expose me as being shady for looking for an idol or something? I have no idea but all I know is if I’m about to be voted out I’m sure as hell not making a damn fool of myself and playing it. I really wanna figure out who made that fake ass blog so I can clock them fr. The witch hunt is on y'all. Until then I’m j chilling with immunity xoxo das it for now

Heyo! So the last time I made a confessional I was pissed cause my tribe didn’t do anything and that was around the first tribal council…. Well that reality didn’t change when I basically carried my entire team at the Reward Challenge, and got sent to Exile Island. GOTTA BLAST! While I was at exile island I was hoping some of them *cough Rhea cough* would step their asses up and actually do something but no… we flopped so hard! I have never been so angry at players before in my life. I didn’t want to be the Ozzy of my tribe but it looks I have to huh! But yeah so I tried to save Pat cause we agreed to work together after our mess in another game and I knew he was a better player than Rhea in the long run. But no Rhea (ugh) had to flip and so Pat ended up leaving and I was sad. I didn’t get the idol and I didn’t get to be immune and I had to see a bunch of flops be happy… ANYWAYS!!!!

Yo yo yo!! TRIBE SWAP!!!!! This was the one thing I absolutely needed in this game after the yikes moment at the tribal council and I am so thankful for it! I hope to god that Callie and I are on the same tribe since I got to know her really well during that first night and I think she may be on the outs of the other tribe with people like Elena and Connor. So I am trying to hard to get the highest amount and I hope I can do it for us!!!!

I feel kinda bad with Joey but I do kinda feel like Shambo that one time with Laura B I did come to Joey when I had alot of stress with the Immunity challenge I did tell him I was sad and that I had cried because I didn't want to let the tribe down. When I told him that I felt kinda brushed off and not even support you know. Also you never knew where his head was at because he was never here you know....so.....Hopefully we can pull out wins and not have to go through tribal again

So tonight has been interesting. We had our tribal council and it went as planned. Everyone voted for Sean to be exiled. What was interesting was Sean's vote. He voted to exile me! What did I do to him...besides orchestrate the plan to get him exiled? He doesn't know about that. I talked to Rhea about that and she said that Sean had a completely ridiculous plan for someone who claims to be so great at the game. He was going to vote down the alphabet. WHO DOES THAT?!? Well, he's gone now and Joshua and I have a big move under our belt. So when it comes down to jury and I'm obviously in the finale (hopefully), this can be used in my favor as to why I should win. So the reward challenge was posted shortly after Tribal and it is a welcomed change of pace from the immunity challenge. we just have to rack up the biggest score we can and take as long as we want to get there. It's called Fishball and it's kind of fun. It gets a little frustrating trying to bop the ball around with the cursor. Sometimes the ball likes to go in the opposite direction then I want it to and it gets popped. Something else that will be frustrating with this game is knowing even less about how well the other tribes are scoring. We have to submit our scores directly to the hosts instead of posting them in the tag. This will be quite the min fuck.

Day 5 - I knew I was at the bottom in the tribe, and now Connor just out of nowhere asks me to sit out of this reward challenge. Ummmmmm, how about no. http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m33ebbhnmV1qcnzaso1_250.gif Okay, but all joking aside who is Connor to tell me I should sit out when I had the second highest score and he had one of the lowest scores. He said that since I had "a natural talent at these online games" I should sit out. Why not sit Elena out then since she had the highest score? In what way does that even make sense... winning the reward gives you a 5% increase at the next immunity... so one of the low scores should sit out... anyways!! If we win and send someone to exile, I think they'll pick either Elena or myself to go with them so they have a better shot at immunity. I'm pretty sure that Connor and Elena are aligned by this point. Trace and Justin still seem like they're playing the middle and Grace is being somewhat distant towards me now so it's not looking great for me. Hopefully, I get switched to another tribe because I honestly don't want to be on this one anymore and I really need an idol because my tribe will vote me out and the other tribes are probably strongly aligned together so even if I switch, I'm in trouble. I remember making some connections to people on the other tribes so hopefully one of them wins it and takes me from here or at least if one of us wins, I hope they use it and I get sent away from here. All I want is to get to talk to the other tribes, I feel like there's a few people who would align with me and if not then I guess I'll have to turn them against each other. :))))))))))))) http://31.media.tumblr.com/a82865f2bf7776a01d101f3d2b1db7ca/tumblr_inline_nw5as0r5Aq1tpozj8_500.gif

my favourite moment so far this season? ayan telling us about how if she holds a pee long enough she starts a timer; her longest record is over a minute

Yesterday, my tribe and I had a skype call. I felt so uncomfortable in it I am quite introverted but also they were sooo close to eachother I have come to the conclusion that if this season is based on worlds apart we have 3 more tribals until we split into 2 tribes of seven We have to win the 2 of the three for me to be safe. I'm really the lowest on to totem pole Last night made it painfully clear So....I have a plan I'm going to take my game into my own holds I don't want to rely on other people or solely on luck Out of the Agutaya 4 I feel closest to Nick If we lose the next immunity I'm going to Nick and telling him Will wants him out I want to gather Allie and we can vote 3-2 with will out I think Emily is more of a straight talker but with Nick I wouldn't want him to confront Will. That's the situation I'm dealing with. I told this to my mom and she thought I was an Idiot Do you get to the end and win without making big moves no There's a risk of acting of course but most people forget the risk of not acting at all If I win the Idol I'll idol out Will That's just how it's going to be...

Allie is so disrespectful I sent her a paragraph she sent me back a sentence and ignored my reply I am so fet up Like GIRL I AM TRYING TO HELP YOU I AM TRYING TO GET TO KNOW YOU BETTER SO I CAN TELL YOU ABOUT MY ALLIANCE AND SAVE YOU FROM YOUR DOOM AND MY DOOM RIGHT AFTER YOURS LIKE THIS IS GETTING ME SO WORKED UP She is not giving me the time of dday and avoiding my messages like the plague Like I am giving friendliness and kindness and opening myself up to Allie I am basically spreading my legs I'm shaving With cake Ii'm like Alllie take me Take me into your arms and lets work together Like I am reaching so hard for this girl LYK BYE All I am trying to do is save you from being voted out Like I think she's the biggest flop ever so far Like bye You're going Bye Bye Bye 

tbh I judge really quickly and I'm an aries so sometimes I am too rash and impulsive and act too quick Allie came back online and we're talking and she's such a nice person she really deserves to be here over Will A thousand present!!! She's really my ideal allie,..... ally/allie omg did you get that Anyways.... If we lose immunity I'm gonna make a big move and try to get Will out 

My psychic Aunt told me Will is intimated by me She told me after Allie goes I'll go and if I go and they lose the next one too then Nick will go She also thinks there is a slightt possibly emily and Will know eachother outside the game because she thinks they're very tight I'm certainley going to go after Allie if I don't take the risk of flipping Nick I'm also looking for an idol I would use it on Allie I looked through the hosts wiki's and everyone who has played with them wiki's I looked through their blogs Urls Who they reblog stuff from or the people in their ''crew'' I really need this idol wow There was a hint that the idol was in a net Hopefully I get it 

I am muslim but I'm not very religious but for this game I am turning to god and praying for an idol I have been praying 5 TIMES A DAY YOU KNOW Like getting up 5 times during the day to get up sit on the floor and pray I am starting to get really desperate for a idol My mom used to always tell me that at night the sky is ''open'' and things we say at night may come true during the couple mins or seconds that the sky is ''open'' I have a 12 hour recording of me repeating over and over ''I WILL FIND THE IMMUNITY IDOL''  I will play this all throughout the night and near my bed while I am sleeping I am pulling out all the spiritual stops

hey hosts the game picks this season so far have been excellent, looking forward to seeing what else we get to play! :) ok here's the real confessional tho: this game was hard as fuck it requires you to have extremely precise mouse skills and persistence as well, i could see someone playing a round of this game for an hour straight and racking up a score of like 500k and i bet you at least one person gets a score of over 100k. i could only get 80k so hopefully that helps my tribe because tbh their scores suck (sry guys when you see this in the future or whatever but really your scores for this game were total crap lol) 

pls no more endurance challenges like this rice one i don't like this

These past couple days got me fucked up yall. I got that Amulet of whatever because everyone else flopped at that fishball game (lol <3) but like I didn't even spend that much time playing it because I've been so busy recently so I'm confused why people didn't do better than they did??? ???? But I'm not here to judge :) that amulet will probably not go to use though. I'm sorry for being a boring flop you guys but I see no advantage to me using it, especially seeing as my tribe has basically already agreed to not using it so I would piss off my tribe and potentially lose an ally and gain an enemy. So nah. BUT THEN because I'm such a ~challenge threat~ (LOL btw @ the idea of me being a challenge threat on survivor) Lexi's bitter ass hauled me to exile with her RIP. It's been awkward af because as soon as I entered the chat all she said was "you bitch" and then like "poor me" or some bullshit. We both picked honesty for the idol clue which was nice and then I tried to open the door for her to like talk about LITERALLY ANYTHING (her tribe, working together, the fucking weather idk) but she's been completely silent since, so. Ima try talking to her again tomorrow but if that doesn't work idk. One person I can check off my list of possible allies I guess. Oh and I flopped at finding the idol oops. So here's Justin's to do list™ for the next few days: 

-convince my tribe I don't have the idol and offer the clue I got as a friendship offering or whatever 

-talk to Lexi (ugh @ the thought) 

-catch up with my alliance -play off my "challenge threat" status cuz I wanna make the merge at the very least y'all 

-go to church

So I haven't written in a bit because I've  been focussing on the newest Immunity Challenge. The Reward Challenge went well enough so that we weren't last. However, Lexi was taken to Exile Island so she cannot help the tribe claim victory. We are determined to win even more so now. Not only because we can't be the one tribe this week who has to exile someone, but also to prove to Lexi that we aren't dead weight and that we will fight to the end as hard as we can. I don't have work tomorrow so I don't think I plan on sleeping just so that we can have the highest score possible. Ugh that terrifies me.

I really dislike Will in my tribe When me and Emily had the same points he only Acknowledged Emily's score I said I was tall -5'9- and he told me that wasn't tall that was average Will is so passive aggressive towards me it's unreal I think he's jealous bcs im tall bye will

So I don't remember what the last thing I talked about was, but I'm so burned out. AND IT'S ONLY BEEN A WEEK!!!!!!! After this challenge I just want to quit. This coupled with my constant failure to win the immunity idol before the IC is over is really bringing me down. I will say that I will not quit, though. I will still try my best to stay in this game, but I don't care if I'm exiled anymore. I still think I'm safe enough this week, though. As of right now we have like 8 hours before the challenge is over and Pat hasn't pulled his weight yet. His score for the Reward Challenge was also not even submitted. So he's looking very good for going home. I think my game plan for now is to not give a shit and campaign to get out who I want out. I want to see how much I can manipulate people. I will rule like a ninja ^_^

I meant to post this earlier, but I'm me...so: I just want to preface my experience this season by saying this…I am not a social creature. Tumblr Survivor is a social experience. And those two facts are things I seem to forget each time I sign up to play one of these things. 

Of Course we lost again!!!! I tried really hard. I wanted to get over 100,000, but it was too much for me to handle. We would have been fine Pat did as well as Rhea and I did. Where were you, Pat?!? Geeze!!! There's no way he thinks he's safe. He done fucked us over and now he has to deal with the consequences. I'm gonna talk with Rhea and Josh because I think it's time to start an official alliance of some sort with them. We can only really afford to lose one more time before the tribe merge. That's when we'll eliminate Lexi, a fierce competitor. BUT WE NEED TO WIN!!!!!!!

I feel like the tribal questions are totally targeting my desire to rule this game.

Will and Nick all of a sudden were sucking up to me when they saw my score. They told me they think I may be rewarded with an Idol omggg. That's why they're being so fake. I'm upset and disappointed in my tribe even tho we won. I did most the work. They would keep saying that they're ''hamming it,'' but then they would be in the main chat talking about Taylor swift. tbh we would've won with my score alone 

I think my tribe members tried to throw the immunity they were really slacking I just feel like I'm being treated really unfairly and stuff I'm questioning staying in the game. I just feel isolated I came into this game to have fun But I'm feeling really bullied and sad All I get is snide remarks and such. I'm really upset about this. I was bullied all the way from pre-kindergarten to the 8th grade and I'm getting really emotional and tearing up here but I just feel like I didn't sign up to be treated with such disrespect and to be ignored. I'm feeling really ganged up on and I just came here to have fun and I'm having and feeling everything opposite  of that I feel like I'm a really strong person but after awhile it just gets to you I didn't come here to be bossed around, insulted, dismissed, and ignored. I'm just kind of over it. I know this is just a game and so I don't want this to affect me personally. It's just hard to not let it....

HOLY CRAP!!!! This is so exciting. day 1 and I'm trying to get used to the craziness already. I'm loving the personalities of everyone. It's very lively and fun. I can tell this is gonna be a great time.

Tbh I'm a very spiritual person I believe in energies and Auras Earlier I was having a conversation with sean and I just don't like the way he was responding to me He was just not feeling me and I was throwing eggs, bones, hot sauce basically spreading my survivor legs to be like if you want to team up or look out for eachother we can. But the offer never came. I may comfort Sean, I just feel really disrespected by his energy and I'm a positive person. I'm not about it. He might need a checking  

holy shit i'm so scared i have to be friendly to all these people and add them and make a skype list and shit man i can't wait until i don't have to talk to so many people and can just chill with like 5 people and go to the end and win that would be cool wow sorry for lack of punctuation here this is stressful also i think i'm already allies with this dude named nick i gotta remember that because this is important

I'm starting to get the feeling that I am way in over my head. But at the same time I couldn't be more excited! We've got a good mix of ages, conveniently all of them being within the age range where nobody wants to take orders from anyone but themselves, and we've got vets mixed with newbies.I feel as if this game is going to be one of the toughest I've ever played, but since I'm new to the series I think I'll have an easier time adapting. The veterans especially are coming in with a fixed perception of how this game works, but with newbies who, from what I've observed, don't know much about the prior seasons... I say the veterans are coming in at the disadvantage. But maybe that's my wishful thinking. In terms of tribes, what do I think? Well, it's clearly not going to be a Vets vs Newbies thing. I think you guys would waste time letting everyone intermingle if that were the case (Plus, FvF3 was ~2 seasons ago, iirc). There's not an even enough spread for it to be USA vs The World or Over 20 vs Under 20 or Battle of the Sexes... I'm praying this isn't a Palau scenario where two of us don't even get to play. I've thought about this too much already. Plus, I have to beat 4th out. Augusto from Bhutan WILL have it rubbed in his face if I get fartehr than him. Trust me. Count on it. *Insert Drew Christy gif here* In terms of the cast, I like mostly everyone. Josh and Justin are two people I feel comfortable with, and Callie put her last name as KALANTAR, so she had better be as amazing as she seems. Trace also seems nice, but he's apparently one of the older castaways in Tumblr Survivor lore and probably feels out of the returnee loop. If i were Trace, I would talk to as many people as I could, and that's what I think he's doing. I like the guy, but I just don't feel like I can trust him. He gives me a weird vibe, is all. But who knows, he could surprise me. *fast forward 5 episodes, gets blindsided by Trace* Knock on wood, right? Alright, well, that's it for this thing. The amount of times I've told people where I live/where I'm going to school has been enough to last a life time. I'm already over this whole Survivor Honeymoon whatever. I'm ready to get put on a tribe, see where everyone stands, and work some magic. Maybe I'm being too eager, but c'mon. I haven't played a game like this since, like, 2014. I'm ready to go!

Hello ~it's me~ So the game started tonight and it was stressful af because it's the very beginning of the game so everyone's exchanging niceties because no one has any idea what's happening yet. So naturally everyone is messaging everyone so it was quite chaotic. Right now I'm playing up the role of "the loud gay who's just here to have fun" ™ and I think it's worked semi-well, I've struck up a few decent convos with some people that I hope will serve me will if I end up on a tribe with them. I instantly clicked with Emily over being generally shady/Nicki Minaj (<3) so I'd love to work with her. However, I have noticed that she pretty much gets along with everyone and is very active in the group chat so my relationship with her could mean nothing given her amount of options. I also talked a good deal with Callie, Sean, Will, and Trace, and I feel like out of those four I could most work with Callie and Sean because they both seem a little bit overwhelmed by everything and I managed to connect with them, so hopefully I would be their only option and they'd come crawling to me if we all landed on the same tribe. Either way, I'm just feeling things out for now and trying to remain pretty middle of the road so we'll see what happens xoxo

Just about to head to bed on this first day of kind of getting to know some people. It was chaotic for a while, but then it came down to a more tight knit group of fun conversation. I made a strong connection with Emily. Our minds kind of just follow a similar wavelength and I'm excited to explore that through the game. We kind of already have a loose alliance between us, but we decided to not make it official until we see how tribes are made. If we are separate then we will hope for the best for each other and try our best to make it to the tribal merge and really solidify our alliance. Trace needs to stop being so awesome or I'm gonna have a crush on him and I don't know how to handle a one-sided showmance online. He's funny, creative, and freakin' lives life as he feels fit. He's also pretty cute. I know at some point this confessional will be public, but I'm just gonna hope he feels too lazy to actually read it. From the group chat Will seems like quite the jokester and Elena seems funny and adorable at the same time, like Cat from Victorious. You can't hate on Cat..also can we talk about all her adorable cats? I can't. Last person I had any connection with was Rhea. I didn't realize she was 15 until I looked at the cast list. She talks like she's at least 7 years older than she is. She needs to loosen up a bit and not put herself down as much. I like to try and keep positive energy up and I do think she's cool. She'll just have to be my project this season. I want to keep her positive. Anyways I'm headed to bed. I'm so excited for this game and also excited to see all these confessionals posted in the future. I definitely want to put all of mine together in a google doc like a diary. I hope the posts will have the dates and times of submission. That would be nice. Now I'm really going to bed...I hope. Night!!!

Today is 100% batshit crazy. This is the first time I've ever done a live start for a Survivor and it's just so surreal. Seeing all the stuff pop out, notifications, and I actually like this cast already. Going in, I was kinda nervous to accidentally offend people (because I have seen the ugly side of Tumblr 999999999x already), but this group is actually amazing! It's too early to be talking game, but I have a bad feeling some game talk is happening, particularly from the returnees. It's just me being paranoid, but to be safe, I did some game talk with Callie and Sean, so I at least have some options as early as now. Although I'm nervous for the returnees, I actually think I've clicked with everyone in this game and tomorrow should be very VERY interesting. :)

There was lots of talking in the tribe chat yesterday. That worries me a little bit, not for strategic reasons but socially. I know I'm not the best at connecting with people plus I was tired to I kind of missed out on a lot of initial stuff. But whatever, social people are seen as the biggest threats, right? I'm growing more and more apprehensive about this, but I'm sure that's just the initial shock of seeing so much interaction the first night. Once things get going I suspect I'll feel more in my element... The One World twist and no tribes makes me think the tribes will be very fluid this season. Maybe like a swap every round kinda thing. Or maybe a continuous mutiny offer. That'd be cool. Though with the way things are shaping up I'd rather we just have solid tribes; if things are fluid you can slap some butter on me because I'm done. I wouldn't survive a game like that in a million years rip. The only games I actually do well in have really small tribes to start, and this is the polar opposite. I'm just being cynical. Anything can happen. Maybe I can be the new age Kathy O'Brien or Lisa Whelchel. That'd be a story.

Not much game talk has really taken place for me yet... Mainly just getting to know a few people but not much has happened yet! I've set up a 'pending' alliance with Brandon and I hope that I will have an alliance with Justin as well, we've connected quite well and I see us becoming really great friends regardless of how this game goes. Trace has also said he would love to work together and I agree. As for anyone else, I think I have made connections with Will and Nick, both returnees, and I wanted to align with Nick to begin with because of his castaway being Kelley. I don't really have any thoughts so far.. I'm excited to find out the tribes and see what the challenge is!

nick and I are really clicking. we are both very similar people and have similar interests. I could see the two of us working well together in this game

I feel like I have two people I can trust fully in this game. I have two other people I feel okay with and then everyone else seems like they're really close. I feel like there's a group of 3/4 for sure that talk a lot in the main chat. Also some people seem really shady because they literally seem like they're talking to everyone. I made small talk with everyone I think. I only had a few long conversations. I'm not feeling great about my position in the game at this time. I'm not in any alliance chats yet. This could be because I haven't really gotten to know a lot of people or because there's a rule of where you can't talk to the other tribe and since there aren't any tribes yet, maybe they're holding off? I would assume the returnees are going to stick together since there's less of them and it's an obvious thing to do. I can't wait until the tribes are announced. No one has really stuck out as an obvious target to everyone so hopefully I don't end up being the first one voted off.

amelia really really wants confessionals, i guess so the game is more interesting for the hosts lmao there's nothing going on right now chill!!!!!!

Terrified with the tribe divisions. I didn't really talk to any of these people so I feel like I'm screwed off the bat.

We just got put into tribes and all the people I got along well with are on the other tribes. Also, I feel like there are two people on my alliance that are close and possibly one other person. Then the one person I've talked to the most in the alliance doesn't want to commit to anything solid so I'm assuming he has other loyalties. And finally the last person is the only person I haven't talked to at all yet. I've tried talking to them but no one is really giving me anything so I guess they already have their alliance set in stone. This is literally the worst possible tribe I could get. If we lose, I'm pretty sure I'll be first boot. All I can do at this point is hope that we win and try to find an idol.

i'm really happy with my tribemates plus i love purple!!! ayan and emily have my back and nick has my back from when we talked yesterday cuz we're both returnees (i should probably check who else is a returnee on my tribe cuz that will probably be important lol) unfortunately i haven't talked to allie or joey yet-- okay as i was typing this joey came online so that's cool, so now i need to talk to allie and i'll be good! if she doesn't show up i'll be upset cuz it means we'll probably lose, and this is a double edged sword i guess cuz at least it's an easy vote but being down a player sucks a lot hopefully she shows up!!!!!!

Day two y'all So we got put into tribes today and there's gonna a double tribal council </3 I'm cautiously optimistic about my tribe though. I've had brief convos with all of them and it's looking like I might be able to piece something together with Trace, Elena, and Connor. The trouble is I don't wanna be the one to do it so ima have to nudge Trace to initiate this alliance-making nonsense cuz I'm not tryna put a target on my back. Also I'm pretty close with Callie but she keeps telling me she's having trouble relating with everyone else (which breaks my heart like ugh) so it almost looks like she might be on the outs. Which sucks because I wanted to include her in this alliance because it seems like I'm the only one she's close to which is great for controlling votes. My ideal plan is piecing together that alliance and me keeping Callie as a lil side option and targeting Grace first. We'll see fam we'll see as long as I'm not the first boot xoxo also maverickbird to diaf 

With my tribe I feel really confident. At first I was afraid because I had only talked to Will and I felt annoyed by Emily. But Will told me he has my back. During the 24 hours I really felt like Emily and Elena were a duo so it felt a little uncomfortable to talk to either of them. But late tonight I really got to know Emily as a person and I was so wrong about her. Maybe it's because she's separated from Elena now. But either way I'm really happy with our heart to heart. I feel like we truly bonded and maybe we can be friends after this is over. I'm not naive though, and I don't trust easily. Callie told me she was suspicious during the 24 hour mingling.

Tribe dynamics Joey, Allie, and who??? Nick?? Whatever, they're never around. Well they are from time to time. But not around like me, Emily or Will. In the chat we're like the only 3 that talk. This makes me feel great though, we might be the only ones that bond. Will told me he hasn't talked to them that much either. and as of yesterday we didn't even have them added -I lied about not having them added aswell-. The only anxiety that comes with this is the possibility that there might be a tiebreak if we go to tribal. I played a survivor tc once -which I never mentioned to the others-, I caused a tiebreak the first night and was sent packing. So I like Emily and Will but I'm not sure I like them enough to put my life on the line lyk that u feel me

My aunt is a psychic so she reads me. I read out the survivor players bio's and she reads them. She sees alot, personal stuff too. That makes me feel a little uncomfortable since I'm not interested in the personal lives of other players. I just want game.  I don't think she can filter it though, so I'm left knowing more than I want to know. She told me Will wants to keep me around, not anything long term but for the time being. I asked if Will and Emily have a secret alliance, she told me they were just bonding. She told me Emily was smart and really playing the game. I told Emily that my Aunt could read so if she needed to know something she could ask me. This puts me in a bit of a power position since I spoke about my aunt publicly I implied that to everyone. If someone askes me, I don't really have to ask my aunt. I could make something up. I told Emily my aunt said Will isn't coming after either of us Though this is true, my aunt did say this I chose to mention this so me Emily and Will stick together

I lied to my tribe and told them I have 19 points in the immunity challenge Truth is I have 0 I suck at this game. I need to get 19 or over I read on the wiki about a girl being voted out for not submitting 0 is the same as not submitting. I need to get good and hurry. I have been trying since 9 pm my ass is on the line and it's in flames 

It has been 2 days since we were put in our Tribes and all of a sudden Here come Allie and Nick out of no where. Both of them were on trips, Allie got back from hers Nick is still on his and has a bad connection And honestly no one knows where Joey's ass is at This makes me happy because if we lose Immunity I feel like Joey or Nick will be going. I would really prefer for Joey to leave because Nick's position makes himself vulnerable in the game.. If we lose I'm going to go to Emily or Will and be like I'll vote with you w.e you want let's go

I want to win immunity, but, at the same I'd like to lose. Losing forces people to scramble and that's when you get the real dirt and tea. I'm just gonna go with the flow and relax. If anyone says anything about voting out will or emily I'll run back to them to build trust. Most likely Joey will be an easy vote off. Where has tht guy even mean tbh Emily, Will, and I have the most points in the challenge so far I think it would be far to vote off whom has the lowest 

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So day 2 was interesting. We got seperated into our tribes and I was scrolling through the first two tribes and noticing Emily, Trace, and I were all separated. That scared me at first, but then Rhea and I got placed in the same tribe and I was beyond relieved and so was she. We started I guess what you'd call an alliance. I don't like using that word so early in the game. Let's just say we have each other's back. She also has a strong bong with Joshua and he with Lexi so it appears we'll have the say of what goes down in our tribe. Sean looks to be our first target if we don't win immunity. HE TRIED TO STAR A FINAL TREE PACT IMMEDIATELY AFTER WE GOT OUR TRIBE!!!!!! Who does that? I'll tell you, paranoid people. In a game like this, you cannot play so hard so fast. Every time I have seen this, they get on everyone's nerves and they don't trust anyone. They become a wildcard that needs to be eliminated. The only chance he'll have to stay is if he proves to be an asset for comps. We'll have to wait and see.

my tribe is kinda making me uneasy. not many people have had game talk with me, and the only person who has kinda said anything to me about an alliance is Trace, but there isn't anything official there yet so I am still on my own. the double tribal council scares me a lot, and i really want to do well and at least make it to jury. oh my. i get the best vibes from Trace, Justin, and Elena. They're the ones most active in the chat and seem to be good people. I don't know Grace or Kallie too much at the moment, which is :( to me.

I want a public apology from the guy who made Maverick Bird. Literally death. I want to rage quite. I want to whip my laptop across the room, into the wally, then scream, then light it on fire, inhale the fumes, and pass out. Whatever happens after that I'm ok with.

Today is the day for our scores to be posted for the immunity challenge. I proposed a plan to my tribe that would possibly manipulate the scores of the other tribes. A few hours before the deadline, we are postings scores, but not our best. We want to get the ball rolling and make people thing that these old scores are our best. That will hopefully lure them into a false sense of security and post their scores. Then when it's within an hour of the deadline we will post our actual best scores. If our best scores are actually as good as I hope they are, the other tribes will be freaking out. They will then try to beat their old scores, but it won't help. The state of panic they will be in will not allow them to perform well. To do well at the game, you need to be calm, and sure as hell won't be anywhere close to that. Oh God, please let this work. I'm currently not the strongest competitor, but I want to still be a great asset with these plans. Geeze I'm so nervous.

I think I might have formed something with Elena, Trace, and Connor today - feeling #blessed I just need to get that shit on lock forreal because right now it's just like whisperings.The issue is Trace has been so inactive that it makes me worry and imo talking to Connor sometimes is like chewing glass BUT if these are the people I need to work with, so be it, I'm not gonna turn away an alliance. My main goal now is to solidify it and continue protecting Callie cuz homegirl has my back as far as I know. Wish me luck y'all

this game is challenging but it's at least a good game like the hitboxes are very precise so you know when you fuck up it's your fault not the game's though when the screen is shaking and shit it's super annoying cuz i can tell it does it to the annoying electro music i had to mute but other than that gr8 game hosts my best so far is 34 and joey was able to get 47 so i'm very happy about that, i'm just hoping everyone else is able to get in their scores i heard that since nick is travelling he might submit a 0 score which would totally suck; he's an easy vote out if that happens but we'd be down a member and i'm supposed to be in an alliance with him cuz we're returnees!!!

There obviously has to be a majority alliance by this point in the game. I'm trying to get a high score for the immunity challenge and maybe they'll keep me around? I doubt it. Connor and trace seem really close and I'm just assuming Elena's with them by the way they all interact with each other. I tried talking to Justin about game once but he was hesitant so he could be with them as well. Grace isn't on as much and we said we would stick together but she's a returnee like Trace so there has to be some sort of alliance there too. This is probably the worst tribe I could have been put on since I bonded with most of the  people on the other tribes more. If we lose, I'm 99% sure that I'll be leaving. I've already tried looking for clues to an idol but I'm guessing it's probably hidden during a reward challenge or something. I'll still be trying though. I'm over this tribe already but it'll be awhile before a swap. Ugh

This game has caused me so much heartache and stress (tbh it's not even as fun as flappy bird) Like I am legit in distress over this game.\ I have done EVERYTHING to try to get over 16 points and I can't do it!! Out of my tribe I probably have the lowest points but no doubt to me have I played it the hardest and put the most effort and time into this fricking online bird. I have been playing from 12 pm to 9 pm -current time as I am writing about quitting- I am done with this I have had a breakdown and cried legit tears over this game and I am done with this game like Gemma was done in bbuk celeb  okok I don't think I'm the lowest on the totem pole but I guess I'm gonna be in danger. I'm just gonna go with the flow. I'm looking for an Idol. I looked through all the hosts blog and everything related to this season on wiki and I will find this idol.

ok i'm kind of getting sick of my tribe saying "rip" to literally everything damn kids 

what is the point of the intern host i don't get it

Elena, Justin, Trace, and myself all have an alliance we have named "the corona squad". i think it's a very good group that has a lot of potential to do well. Trace, Elena and I all do theatre, which is what drew us all together. it's a good group!

FUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We lost the immunity challenge by over 100 points. Some people were scoring 80s and over 100 in one go. WHO ARE YOU PEOPLE!!!! Now I'm stuck in a pickle. We got to vote someone out of the tribe. This is gonna be hard because Rhea is probably looking like a good target. She had the lowest score and almost had her score disqualified because she didn't post it with a date. I don't want her to go, though. I trust her and am aligned with her. However, it is week 1 and going against the majority without a solidified backing will get you killed. She and I talked about wanting to get Sean out because on day 1 he talked about a final three and that is not good. That shows signs of a paranoid player. However, he was one of our stronger players and posted correctly and on time. So It would be a lot more difficult to try and campaign to get him out. I got to start talking around and seeing where people's heads are at, but I also can't make people think I'm paranoid. Geeze this i gonna be hard.

"As a part of Tribal Council, I have a few questions for each of you to answer within the next 24 hours. You will put your answers in this tribe chat...Brandon: After an intense 48-hour challenge, how frustrating is it to be going to tribal already?" What I want to say: It's really fucking frustrating. It ruins my game that was beginning to form. Now I'll probably have to vote out Rhea, the person I trust the most in this tribe. What I'll probably say: Very frustrating. Don't want no one to leave.

WE WON IMMUNITY AND I AM SO HAPPY BUT OK i feel bad for the other two tribes. i don't wish i was in their position but having to get rid of someone, and the FIRST PERSON can't be fun. let the games begin.

Hello Palawan!! It's Lexi here (for the first time ever and possibly the last). So on the first day of the game I was too busy buying exo tickets to actually pay attention to the chat but I did notice that a lot of them seemed happy with each other so I am quite happy to be on a different tribe than them. However.... the tribe I was put on are fucking flops!! I didn't want to get the absolute best score for my tribe in the end but then I see a score of 19?!?!?!?!?!?! ARE YOU FORREAL???? an anyways era! Also I was planning on not talking to people and NOT having to go to tribal so now I actually have to talk to people cries!!!!! I have talked to Pat, Joshua, and Brandon but the other two.... i dont know her.gif Pat and I know each other from a Big Brother org but it didn't end well so I hope we can like each other in this game <3 As of now im voting either sean or rhea cause they suck rip

So I was scared for this vote coming up, but then my discussion with Josh took a turn for AWESOME!!!! we start talking game and we were on the same page with either Sean or Rhea. As I thought, he was the other person Sean talked to about a final three. So we discussed about blindsiding Sean by having him and Rhea tell the others of Sean's paranoia.  Hopefully this discussion works in our favor to save Rhea and eliminate the self-proclaimed Survivor King.

Mashed Potato Crew is a go!!! Our plan is working smoothly so far. Everyone seems to be on the same page. I think people were relieved that there was a target that wasn't them and were fine with following with Josh and my plan. I tried to play it off like I didn't already know exactly what was going on, but I know I could have tried harder. I don't want people to know Josh and I are working together, especially if they know we devised this big game move. But I think the week 1 jitters are covering up any doubts. I'm honestly so excited to say I was a major part of getting Sean out. He had the second highest score in our tribe, but it looks like we were able to convince everyone that he wasn't safe to keep around. If this works, I honestly want to hear everything that he's thinking. He says he's such a great player, but I doubt he sees this coming. Bye Sean!!!!

So we lost. Total BS in my opinion. Where did you guys learn to add numbers, from Skywalker? Smh. Anyways I seem to have secured a solid spot in an alliance between myself, Josh, and Rhea. My target is Brandon because I want to be Dr. Sean and vote alphabetically at least once. Sorry Brandon, blame your parents, they brought it to this. Other than that, I'm just patiently waiting to see what happens. I don't feel worried at all, oddly, which I don't know how to feel about that. Shrug. Whatever happens happens!

Day 4 - Before the challenge results, I talked to Grace since the others in our tribe were kind of hesitant to talk to me. She told me that she would look out for me and that she has talked with Justin and Trace. Hopefully, she's in as good of a position as she thinks she is AND that she's genuinely looking out for me. I feel like Justin and Trace could be playing the middle because Connor and Elena don't seem worried at all. I tried to do really well on the challenge today so we didn't have to go to tribal and so they felt like they would need to keep me around to help win challenges. Our tribe did way better than the other two tribes and thankfully we won immunity. I'm worried for the two allies I have on the other tribes, hopefully they have majority and aren't in any danger. I still need to find an idol, I don't feel safe by the way everyone in my tribe is acting. G2G!!

DISCLAIMER: SORRY AYAN IF I SAID YOUR NAME WRONG !!!

I'm in an alliance called the Super Core Agutaya Four with Nick, Emily,Myself, and Will. I'm really happy about this. Allie and Joey are left out of it so we have 2 tribals before we can panic.

http://prntscr.com/9sphta this IS the best alliance. know that

~Corona slayage~ Alright so my tribe won which is gr8 and all but now it's sort of dead in the tribe chat and whatnot. I'm not complaining because we earned a lil break but it seems like everyone on my tribe is v hesitant to discuss strategy, which makes it hard because I don't want to be the one constantly bringing it up and putting a target on my back. It just strikes me as odd because now we have this "corona squad" alliance with Elena, Connor, Trace, and I, but as far as I know Callie and Grace haven't really made any attempts to reach out to people to save their asses if we would have lost (besides Callie with me - she basically flat out told me she doesn't talk to anyone else lolz unless she's lying). I have no idea with Grace, and if everyone else I've talked to is telling the truth, they don't know what's going through her mind either. So her and Callie are either content with just seeing what happens without making deals or they are in some sort of alliance with other people without me knowing. I could be their target, who knows. So I'm glad we won and mother Nicki is smiling down upon us and we're safe but it just makes me nervous because I would love to see where people loyalties really are and I think a tribal would have been telling. Not saying I want to go to tribal though kthxbye~ 

[PS HOSTS THIS IS MY DAY ONE TRIBE MOVE IN CONF I ALSO HAVE A VIDEO BUT MY NET IS FAILING SO PLS USE THIS FOR NOW AND JUST INCLUDE MY VIDEO LATER TY] My first confessional was honestly written by sleep-deprived and coffee-less me, so I’m already apologising for any repetition I may say. And I’ve written this down as a transcript so if you get put off by my voice in the first 10 seconds (I can honestly not listen to my voice, I get so ticked off by it idk its just a weird thing I do and yes, I don’t curse on camera. Online though, I swear a lot so there’s that!) But anyway, game-wise, I got put on the Roxas tribe. First things first, Roxas is hilarious because if you google Mar Roxas, at the time I am saying this, he is a presidential candidate for my country. Mar Roxas is known for being a general dumbass as well as seeming to fuck up every step of his campaign no matter what he does. I really hope this isn’t an omen for my tribe! Second of all, I got put on a tribe with NONE of the allies I tried to make on Day One. Except Sean. So immediately, I thought, and said to Sean: “OMG WE ARE ON THE SAME TRIBE AAH *insert OTT scream here*”. And honestly, I think I connected pretty well with everyone because everyone messaged me saying the same thing. Now here’s where things got fun. I talked to Sean, and he said Rhea seems like a good third. I was kinda weirded out because this shit has only started for 20 minutes and he already wants to rope people in. I then told him yes, but don’t put my name anywhere, so that we couldn’t be exposed as a duo this early. Now the next thing happened, me talking to Rhea resulted in us two working together. And then RHEA told me that SEAN asked HER to form a trio with ME. What the fuck? I LITERALLY just told him to NOT say anything about me. I could have come clean that second, but I did what any sane person at the moment would do: Tell Rhea not to trust him. He then messaged me about being GOOD IN THE GAME WITH A GROUP CHAT HE WANTED TO MAKE IN THE FIRST THIRTY GODDAMN MINUTES and that was the end of it. I screenshotted the chat, and then told Rhea if we could form our own alliance, and I told her the exact same plan I did with Sean, especially the “duo fear” part. We would then agree to Sean, but we would 100% not be loyal to it at all. I then promised to be 100% loyal to her, and that we would compare notes before making a concrete alliance, as it was crazy to do it in the first hour. So just like that, my first day of Tumblr Survivor happened. I already threw my day one ally under the bus and I’m already a wreck LOL.

After the cast reveal, a couple of the hosts recorded a podcast about their feelings on the castaways of Palawan. They discussed the newbies and the returnees’ potentials, bet on winners and first boots, and asked some members of the community how they thought the season was going to turn out. We thought it’d be interesting to post it after the season was over and see just how right (or wrong) we were!