#mtft

I hope it's fake but the "me me me" while not even mentioning how infertility is impacting his wife reeks of the narcissism rampant in TIMs. And the bit about to him being a woman is about playing dress up and using the women's bathroom.

Hello; I’ve waited here for you everlong

I saw a shooting star and thought of you

I’ve got to tell you the truth- I’m sorry for the way I treated you

I’m stuck in my ways to just run

I need these walls for protection

Still, I’m convinced wondering “what if” is the worst thing there is

I’ve always been in love with you, you know

I don’t know what I want to be yet

But I can show you that I need this

And I’m out of reasons to believe in myself

Out of all the things I’ve done, I will love you better now

And I want you to know, should you want me to go

I’ve always loved you, held you high above everyone else

Oh, all these lines fall short of what I had in mind

A failed attempt to capsulize a feeling

So tonight let’s take that road that never ends

That we’ve been talking about for so long

It’s getting dark, and the highway’s clear

This time, won’t you please drive faster

Roll the windows down, open the sunroof

The cool night air is curious- Let the world look in

You can rest your head on my shoulder

Won’t you please grow older with me?

‘Cause all that you are is all that I’ll ever need

These are the moments when I know it and

The world revolves around us

Here I am standing up because I want to fall in love with you

‘Cause with you, I’m not broken anymore

I’ve been searching for purpose; I’ve been living

For tomorrows with you all my life

Tonight I want to fall in love all over again

You are the one who makes me willing to lose it all

You are the start of something new

There’s all these secrets I can’t keep from you

Like in my heart there’s this hotel suite

And you’ve lived there so long

It’s kind of strange to me that you’re gone

And now it’s been a long December of a year

But tonight there’s reason to believe

Maybe this year will be better than the last

Breathe out, so I can breathe you in and hold you in

I was made to keep your body warm

Steady my breathing, silently screaming “I have to have you now.”

Sing me something soft, sad and delicate

Or loud and out of key, sing me anything

And I wonder, as I sing along with you

If anything could ever feel this real forever

If anything could ever be this good again

To see you when I wake up is a gift I didn’t think could be real

I could look into your eyes until the sun comes up

And we’re wrapped in light and life and love

You are the earth that I will stand upon

You are the words that I will sing

Don’t say a word; just come over and lie here with me

Float down like autumn leaves

Our whole lives laid out right in front of us

To lie here under you is all that I could ever do

I hope you’re doing fine out there without me

‘Cause I’m not doing so good without you

I’m back here in Chicago tonight

Thinking about the way you loved me

Cold as ice, and more bitter than a December winter night

That’s how I treated you

And the things I thought you’d never know about me

Were the things I guess you always understood

I wish my car could drive to you tonight

Then I’d know everything is going to be alright

I could have lost myself in your eyes

And I remember that truth from a warm October with you

Your smile is forever in my mind and memory

Back to the time you were lying next to me

I looked across the bed and fell in love

Never mind, forget it, they’re just memories

On a page inside a spiral notebook

No denying- I’m so scared to lose you

I can’t remember all the times I tried to tell myself

To hold on to these moments as they passed.

Stay with me; you’re all I have left

I guess the winter makes you laugh a little slower

It makes me want to talk a little lower

About all the things I could not show you

Because when our colors mixed, we couldn’t fix

The way they wouldn’t blend

And sometimes I think it’s better to never ask why

We now keep that love in a photograph where

Our eyes are never closed, and our hearts are never broken

If you think that I could be forgiven- I wish you would.

I’ll surrender my heart and swap it for yours

Because I console myself that Hallmark cards are true

And if I had a choice, I’d still choose you

I wish you were here tonight with me

I want to hold your heart in both hands

I want to grab you by the arms and kiss you so hard

I can’t forget the way you looked at me

You meant more to me that anyone I ever loved at all

If I had the chance, I’d put myself right beside you

Tell me if I’m too late to make up for my mistakes

Give me a sign there’s something buried in the words

I remember how you kissed me under the streetlight back on Belmont

We could have spent the night, watched the sun come up

And you don’t hold me anymore, so I can’t heal

I know I let you leave, but how am I supposed to let you go?

‘Cause I can’t seem to hold you like I want to

And god it’s so painful when something that’s so close

Is still so far out of reach

Oh, because your love is all I need, but I can feel you falling away

Our scars make us who we are, you once said

Would you leave if I told you what I’ve done?

Or would you need me if I told you what I’ve become?

Somehow I know that I am haunted to be wanted

I’m letting go of all my lonely yesterdays

And I’ve forgiven myself for the mistakes I’ve made

I’ve learned that love is a verb, a doing word

And I’m ready to love somebody like you.