I came back from work really late yesterday and had to use public transport. When I got back to my city’s train station, the trams weren’t running anymore, and it’s a two hour walk to my home. Not to worry! I’ve dealt with this before! The answer? Moped-sharing. After trying and failing to take the mandatory helmet out of the storage bin on the normal moped, I had no other choice than to take the 45 km/h one instead. I wasn’t about to get fined for not wearing a helmet. The thing is, it was only my fourth time on one of those things, and the last time I’d ridden one was 2022. So I was a bit awkward… Especially because my glasses were fogged and I couldn’t see. I sped up to 30 km/h and thought “shoot I don’t like this speed. I don’t like it at all!” and realised if I didn’t like that, I was NOT going to like motorcycle lessons. But my first lesson is in a few days, so I thought “screw it, give her shit.” And on the next open road, I did. And I was getting more comfortable with the speed I was going. “Yknow what? I think I’m going to love lessons.”

Got up at 4 am this morning, saw and shared the sun rise with one of the greatest souls I have ever known, and though sleep deprivation fucked way hard I felt very mentally and spiritually energized after that. It’s cool being so in tune with the rhythmn of nature. There’s a lot of change brewing in the air I need to grasp and stitch together like a motherfucker, but I have a great feeling about it. I’m very grounded lately, and though my mind have been racing a little more than usual, I feel like it’s just a pre-preparation to find shit out, get stuff done, for better times eventually. Applied for motorcycle lessons today for my birthday in June (! and I couldn’t be happier), gonna apply for a new university and study planology/climate management most likely this September, finding a gap to fill with a holiday getaway somewhere (whether by car, plane, whatever, just to get some fresh air to blow through my dusty brain), do some work abroad if it fits into the months I still got left, look into spaces to move into since college will be pretty far from home, try to spend more time with friends, get the temporary pizza delivery job I applied for, watch more movies (hell I’ve been out of this movie watching game for 3 years or so, I’m straight trash), read a book, keep myself mentally challenged (which I found out is INSANELY important for me personally), care for my plants and do some gardening, paint my nails, probably need to write more and create a creative outlet I desperately need, work out, cycle my ass off, maybe get into drawing or shit, do like a 1001 variations of evil Chinese dragons. Live a life like we are ought to do on earth and have hella fun.