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A black and white photo of a ceiling lamp.
actually i'm curious
does "jun" come off as a masculine or feminine name
masc; i know chinese, japanese, and/or korean
masc; i do not know any of those languages
fem; i know chinese, japanese, and/or korean
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reblog for larger sample size etc. etc.
speaking of my dumbfuck school they did an all white production of once on this island π
And here's (quite some time later) a design for Firefoot that is in more my style.

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Between Orgasm And Death Anxiety
What about not treating existential dread as a philosophical problem to be solved as almost every kind of psychoterapy and religions do? Death anxiety is an evolved affective state. That changes everything. Consider orgasm. Nobody asks, "How can I permanently remain in orgasm?" We would immediately recognize that as misunderstanding the function of orgasm. Orgasm is an intense regulatory signal. It evolved because it increased the probability of reproduction. It is powerful precisely because it is temporary. If it were continuous, it would lose its biological function and make normal life impossible.
Now consider existential dread. Perhaps we make a symmetrical mistake. We ask, "How can I eliminate it forever?" But why assume evolution designed it to disappear? Existential dread is another regulatory signal like orgasm. It is activated when the brain models mortality, irreversible loss, or the collapse of future possibilities. Like pain, fear, or grief, it has a function. It mobilizes attention toward the preservation of life. Both, the death anxiety and orgasm are the most powerful emotons mobilizing our attention toward the preservation of life.
If that is true, then asking how to abolish existential dread may be like asking how to abolish hunger or sexual desire. The more realistic question is how to recognize it, understand its function, and prevent it from overwhelming the rest of life. The analogy with orgasm becomes surprisingly powerful. Orgasm visits. It reaches a peak. It subsides. It does not define an entire life. Perhaps existential dread also visits. It reaches a peak and subsides. It is an event in consciousness, not the permanent background of consciousness.
Think, "It's fear, not death itself." That distinction is something neuroscience would endorse. Death is not an experience available to the living brain. Fear is. What the nervous system experiences is not death. It experiences predictive states generated by imagining death, aging, helplessness, uncertainty, and loss of control. That does not make the fear false. It means the organism is responding to a model of the future, not to the future itself.
Many philosophical traditions have treated fear of death as if it were primarily a cognitive error. "Think correctly and the fear will disappear." Many religious traditions have treated it as a theological problem. "Believe correctly and the fear will disappear." Many self-help movements treat it as a mindset problem. The fear of death is demonized, socially persecuted, in some circles saying the word "death" is like a life-threatening taboo. So, treat existential dread as a natural biological process that has a beginning, a peak, and an end, just as other evolved affective states do. It is neither denial nor mysticism. It is regulation.
Maybe ther is one thing to modify in this analogy. Orgasm has a relatively clear biological endpoint. Existential dread is more like grief. It may recur throughout life, especially with aging, illness, or loss. It cannot necessarily be "mastered" once and for all. But perhaps it can become familiar. One no longer mistakes its arrival for proof that something has gone catastrophically wrong. One recognizes, "My organism has entered the existential-fear state again." That internal narration is very different from, "O, my god, reality has become unbearable." The first describes the organism. he second describes the universe.
Finally, one psychologically profound thing. People distract themselves, have many children, or pursue countless projects because of fear of death. It should be assumed that the fear of death operating in the background of the psyche is the greatest motivator of various life endeavors. Much of culture can be understood as ways of negotiating mortality. The question is not whether people respond to existential dread. They always do. The real question is whether they respond consciously or unconsciously.
The answer is not to eliminate existential dread but to stop allowing it to secretly govern one's life from behind the scenes. In that sense, your idea comes surprisingly close to Spinoza, but with a biological rather than metaphysical foundation. Awareness does not abolish the fear. It changes the relationship to it. The fear becomes one more evolved signal, powerful but finite, rather than an invisible director of every decision. The existential fear is one of the nervous system's oldest regulatory mechanisms, deserving neither worship nor panic, but understanding.
The Lucidity (hopefully Joy) of the Finite: Predictive Adequacy on an Entropic Horizon
Every gain in information increases the organism's capacity to negotiate with entropy, but it cannot abolish entropy itself. This capacity to deal with entropy is pleasure. That is a subtle but important difference. You had a terrible stomach ache which turned out to be an appendicitis attack The operation for appendicitis succeeds. Entropy has not been defeated. It has been postponed. Cancer is diagnosed early. Entropy has not been defeated. It has become more manageable. Vaccination. Nutrition. Medicine. Education. Science. Every one of these is an informational victory that improves the negotiation. None of them however cancels the Second Law.
This brings us back to Spinoza. If he had known predictive neuroscience, he might have rewritten the scholium like this: When the mind understands the cause of its suffering, it acquires a more adequate predictive model of reality. This increases its capacity to regulate its future actions. Although the bodily disturbance may remain, the confusion surrounding it diminishes. The increase in effective regulation constitutes an increase in the mind's power, even if the organism continues to face finite and ultimately mortal conditions.
This is more or less the translation of prop.18, 5. There is one more point that is worth emphasizing. Suffering is not one thing. This example with appendix shows there are at least two distinct components. The first is the disturbance itself. The inflamed appendix, the cancer, the injury. The second is the uncertainty surrounding the disturbance. "What is happening? What should I do? Am I safe? What comes next?"
Spinoza saw the second component with remarkable clarity. Modern neuroscience explains why reducing uncertainty is so powerful. But we are stubborn and insist on the first component. Sometimes reality itself remains tragic even after uncertainty disappears. That is not a failure of understanding. It is a feature of living in a finite organism subject to entropy. That is the point where the above interpretation both preserves Spinoza's central insight and extends it. His "joy" becomes, in modern language, an increase in regulatory power through better prediction. Whether that increase is accompanied by happiness depends on what reality actually is. Sometimes reality rewards understanding with recovery. Sometimes it rewards understanding only with lucidity. Both are increases in adequacy, but they are not emotionally equivalent.
Spinozistic joy is not the guarantee of a happy ending, but the reclamation of regulatory power over chaos; when reality cannot reward our understanding with recovery, it rewards us with lucidity.
The Informational Shield: Civilization, AI, and the Deflection of Chaos
We have to distinguish thermodynamic entropy from information entropy, because they are related but not identical.
Thermodynamic entropy, from physics, concerns the dispersal of energy and the tendency of physical systems toward equilibrium. Information entropy, introduced by Claude Shannon, concerns uncertainty. A message has high information entropy when there are many possible outcomes and you do not know which one will occur. Information reduces uncertainty. Living systems seem to negotiate both.
A bacterium reduces thermodynamic entropy locally by maintaining its own organization. At the same time, it reduces informational uncertainty by sensing where nutrients are and swimming toward them rather than randomly. Humans do the same on a vastly larger scale. Suppose you hear a rustle in the bushes. Your brain immediately predicts. Is it the wind? A rabbit? A wolf? The prediction reduces informational uncertainty. Then you act. If the prediction is correct, you may avoid injury, find food, or save energy. Better information improves thermodynamic regulation.
This is why prediction is so important. Information is not collected for its own sake. In living organisms, it is almost always in the service of regulating the body.
Now consider AI. An AI system also reduces informational uncertainty. Given a question, it estimates which continuation is most probable. More generally, AI constructs models that make future observations or outputs more predictable. The AI however is not reducing informational uncertainty for itself. It is reducing uncertainty for the task or for the user.
Humans, by contrast, evolved predictive brains because prediction increased the probability that their bodies would remain alive. Of course people will build machines to help negotiate entropy. That is exactly what civilization has always done. A coat negotiates thermal entropy. A refrigerator negotiates food spoilage. A bridge negotiates gravity. Medicine negotiates biological decay. Agriculture negotiates seasonal scarcity. Writing negotiates informational loss across generations. Libraries negotiate cultural forgetting. Computers negotiate computational complexity. Artificial intelligence negotiates informational uncertainty. Seen from this perspective, technology is not something separate from evolution. It is an extension of evolution.
Evolution first produced muscles to negotiate physical challenges. Then brains to negotiate informational challenges. Then language to negotiate social challenges. Then science to negotiate explanatory challenges. Then computers to negotiate computational challenges. Then AI to negotiate informational complexity beyond unaided human cognition. Each step expands the ways organisms manage the constraints imposed by reality.
Civilization itself can be understood as a gigantic anti-entropic process. Not anti-entropic in the sense of violating the Second Law, because civilization still consumes enormous amounts of energy and produces even more entropy overall. Rather, civilization creates local islands of increasing organization by exporting greater entropy elsewhere. A city is an island of extraordinary order, maintained only through continuous flows of energy, materials, food, and information. A university is an island of organized knowledge. A hospital is an island where biological order is restored. An AI system is an island where informational uncertainty is reduced.
From that perspective, information becomes almost as fundamental as energy. Energy allows work. Information guides work. Without energy, nothing can happen. Without information, energy is wasted.
This is the deepest bridge between Spinoza and the twenty-first century. Spinoza thought that adequate ideas increase an organism's power to act. Today we might say that better predictive models reduce informational uncertainty, allowing energy and action to be directed more effectively toward maintaining life. In that sense, information is not merely something we possess. It is one of the principal ways that living systems negotiate a universe governed by entropy.