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Desperate times call for desperate measures.

I really need to leave the house, asap.. you know it was cute when you first leave the cult you were raised in and decide to you know, live your own life perhaps (not to mention the process you go thru in order to acept your changed beliefs) .. and you keep hearing comments on how there is an evil force/spirit in the house, ( yup, that would be me) that causes all the bad things that happen in the house. The house is not safe or holy anymore, therefore the 'holy spirit' or god's energy is not with them. I really dont want to be in the house when something really tragic happens.. i dont want to be blamed for it. I have heard all this even before i came out as an atheist, whenever things dont fit, they blame the devil, if things are working, they give it to god. however, they never stop being victims/puppets of their own beliefs. if they don't go to the meeting / out on service cause it was late or no one seemed to care… tann's fault. "she has become wicked, therefore as a family, we are cursed."  I am going to make it easy for them and just dissapear. My friend liz msg me on fb, asking if i wanted to go live with her to Guadalajara, first month of rental for free plus help from her to get me a job. I'm really excited. I'm done with uni in december.. I can go right away, and just venture and see what happens. It cant possibly do worse than i already am. Really looking fowards to just be openly gay for once and embrace that part about me, not to mention the whole being an adult and have real responsabilities now. eek.

I've had enough.