#mooging62

Noah has Blue’s back 110% of the time and we all know it. 

But thank you! It also SPEAKS TO MY SOUL PARTS! God, Gansey tries so hard to keep it together. He was taught from the beginning that extreme emotions are unpleasant and inconvenient and he’s been folding severe trauma into that since he was ten. TEN! He was so young! He is still so young! And he looks at what his friends are going through and he thinks that his trauma is somehow not valid because theirs is happening now and his happened so long ago. Except it wasn’t so long ago! He was ten! And trauma doesn’t have an expiration date! AND HE LITERALLY DIED AND FELT HIS HEART STOP BEATING AND THEN CAME BACK FROM IT. HE KNOWS HE’S NOT INVINCIBLE. 

Kids should be allowed to feel invincible. Kids should be allowed to process their fears and he never was, because he was taught that fear and anxiety are character flaws that should be buried. He is actually afraid that if he shows any of this to the people who love him most in the world they’ll decide he isn’t worth the effort. Because why? Because his parents telegraphed to him through their actions that his fear was a burden to them? Because the other people who love him most in the world couldn’t handle it and they’ve had so much longer to deal with it than his friends? Because keeping up appearances is so much easier when your appearance can be polished to within an inch of its life and trotted out for campaign fodder? 

Certainly! :D

Marius is a lawyer from a big city back East. He's just supposed to be stopping in Amity with the stagecoach and then continuing on his way, but as he's getting out of the coach he trips on the steps and pretty much lands on top of Cosette and ends up sprawled on top of her in the dust.

Grantaire is part of the entertainment, I think--not in one of the shows, but maybe he plays the piano in a lounge or something, being a lounge pianist seems suitably Grantairean. JMB and Jehan are probably also performers, probably in a more perform-y capacity. Bahorel, Courfeyrac, and Cosette are doing events coordination of some kind, Combeferre is an EMT, Eponine and Feuilly work at onboard restaurants, and I think Enjolras is a lifeguard.

Grantaire is always merrily flouting the rules--going to the pool guests use as opposed to the one for the staff, playing songs they don’t have the copyrights too, and Enjolras approves of some of it on principle but he’s also aggravated to the extreme by it.

Even if he really enjoys the view when Grantaire comes to lounge at his pools when he’s off-shift.

Auugghhh. *claws at her face*

1.

Grantaire spills his coffee the first time he sees Enjolras.

He's holding it up to take a sip, and Enjolras walks in, on Combeferre and Feuilly's heels, all ridiculous hair and determined expression, and Grantaire's elbow slips on his table and he winds up dumping the whole cup in his lap and making a mess.

It's probably not the best first impression.

Of course, getting in a shouting argument with him about the impossibility of ethical consumption probably isn't either.

2.

Enjolras actually inhales coffee in indignation the second time they meet, in the middle of Grantaire (who isn't even serious about it) saying something about Ayn Rand not being all bad. It's a low blow, really. He can't blame Enjolras for being upset.

He can blame him for choking so badly it takes almost five minutes for his eyes to stop watering.

He feels kind of bad about it, but the way Enjolras keeps giving him betrayed looks for the rest of the meeting is definitely worth it.

3.

The third time isn't even his fault.

Having to pay for Enjolras's dry-cleaning bill when it was Bossuet who knocked into Grantaire's side in the first place is just unfair.

Of course he does it anyway, and is surprised when Enjolras actually smiles at him when Grantaire returns his favorite red coat.

4.

Grantaire honestly forgets he has a coffee in front of him until he takes a sip and makes a face because it's gone that special sort of sludgy lukewarm that only mediocre campus coffee can do when left unattended for too long.

Enjolras, seeing his face, takes a sip of his own coffee and looks just as disgusted as Grantaire feels. “I didn't realize we'd been talking that long. I'll buy us a new round. You take yours with sugar, right?”

“Right,” says Grantaire, a little dazed, because Enjolras has certainly never bought him coffee before, but before he can offer to pay Enjolras is up and away, off to refresh their coffee.

5.

The first time Enjolras kisses him, Grantaire drops his full cup of coffee on the sidewalk and it explodes all over their shoes.

“I'm never going to drink coffee around you again,” Grantaire says when Enjolras pulls away to laugh. “It always goes horribly wrong.”

“We'll just have to keep trying,” says Enjolras, and kisses him again.

the one i want to write is a sort of post-portal au, where enjolras gets out from aperture the way chell does in portal 2, and finds grantaire basically camped on the doorstep, waiting in vain hope for him to wake up. grantaire having been rattman in this au, he’s very happy enjolras made it out alive, if mute and quite traumatised. they bond, make up their own rough sign language, get to know each other, etc.

now for this to progress, i’d want to get a better grip on the half life games because that’s in the same universe as portal. but i’d either have to play them or watch playthroughs because reading the wiki wasn’t really helpful at all. but phase 2 of this au would include the amis finding enjolras and grantaire completely by accident and being very excited and then sad because enjolras was one of them but his memories were wiped before he was put into the course by glados so he doesn’t know who any of them are. :( he was a black mesa employee sent by them to basically infiltrate aperture but he had the bad luck to be there when shit started to hit the fan, and he never got out again.