#mon posting

like i feel fine. this means nothing to me anymore. this is actually the best i've felt in a while, but i remember like technically my hands were shaking a bit ago and i have a lot of concerning poetry

but i feeel fine. and i'd be perfectly fine just going about my day. but i do that every time. and then i'm shocked like "why do i feel like shit all of a sudden, i don't even remember what's wrong"

[ID: animated art of melody! she's resting on a blue couch with a soft pink blanket and a steaming grey mug. melody has thick brown hair with yellow tips and hair-clips. she has dark skin, a light grey sweater with patterned sleeves, and orange sweatpants. she's surrounded by stars and clouds on a blue background, with brown, chalky line art, animated to wiggle between two frames. /end ID]

if i DO it has to be in a really small/controlled environment (like a 1 on 1 conversation, or a community or some random account that people are super unlikely to find)

this. is. really. annoying. holy shit. how do i fix that

like thinking about my ocs.....and drawing my ocs....and putting my ocs in distressing scenarios......and giving him longer hair.......