#mom problem

So this past weekend once again on a frantic search for a job and a new place to live. Why because me and my mom again are one the worst terms. Every time I come back and live with her, cause she forces me to, its okay for a short time, then it falls apart again. My mom apparently is on some new Christian bit, broke up with her girlfriend, yet still has her living with us , cause she will forever be a deadbeat who can't keep a good job and can't afford to live alone. Problem here is that I'm a Satanist, though I keep it to myself in my home, I don't have an alter or anything, but I did wear the sigil of baphomet around my neck. So my mom decides to argue with me and tell me I need to be Christian, I obviously am going to refuse, I feel as though there is nothing there for me. I respect of the matter that , this is what she wants to do for herself, my issue here is that she is trying to force me to, and also snatched my sigil off my neck and scratched up my chest. It also processed to get more physical , she says that I'm gonna go to hell, and I am trying to explain to her, I don't feel as though that is her place to make that judgment, I'm remotely happier as I am now, than I will ever be as a Christian , that's not who I am, and I'm  my own person, whom of which has the right to make the decision of my own religious views. I usually don't mind Christianity till someone gets in my face about it. My mom is so stupid and ignorant to the  fact that she went as far as to call the Star of David a demonic symbol. I honestly want no part of what ever the fuck she is trying to do if she is stupid enough to say such a misinformed sentence. I am hurt that my mom cannot accept me as I am now finally happy due to her desire to only do what's good in her eyes, for herself. I have been through so much shit to get to a confident place, and content place as to where I am now. though I have an observation as to at any point in my life have a reach this point, or remotely near is, she  finds someway to try and break it down. She's gone to the extremes to tell me that I need to try and go live with my dad and finish school there. I refuse to let her run me out till I'm done here just so that she doesn't have to deal with me. I am in fact going to leave Pensacola, but right now is not the right time. I will leave here one day and never look back. I fucking hate here with a deep firey passion , I and I hope she comes to understand , it is much more than this. That it is all her fault that I have so much resentment for her.  Please message me and tell  me how you feel about this.

My mom found out I bought something from internet...!!!! Actually, she won't angry if I buy something from internet... But she'll be angry if... 1. The thing I bought cost more than RM50 2. The thing I bought is kpop related thing She might burn my First Sensibility album!!!!! Why? Bcoz she hates kpop. She's an anti.. Yes, my mom is anti although her daughter is one of the most hardcore fans in her school... Ok, i admit i'm quite a hardcore fan bit that's not impprtant... WHAT SHOULD I DO NOWWWWW!!!!????? ><

Mom: I made you

Joey is always so good with his naps... Unless we're at my parents house. My parents have a pack n play in leu of a crib and they even bought the fisher price fish that we have to make him feel a little better and more at home. At this moment he's been crying for approximately 10 minutes. The minute I put him down he started crying. I'm so tired of it, just fall asleep already. You're tired, I know you're tired. I'm going to have a breakdown.