#mod maz

-Thank you!

Hey anon! You have enough trauma to cause DPDR. You have enough trauma to cause dissociation. "Extreme trauma" is such a vague term that it's borderline useless.

Not only is there no way to rate and rank trauma (as everyone reacts to trauma so differently that the same experience can be another Tuesday or life-ending to different people), but there is especially no way to rate if your trauma is "enough" to warrant something.

Doesn’t everyone put their feet on the ground, sort of feel the ground, but you don’t feel like those are “your” feet and the sensation feels blurry and meaningless? What do you mean “no”?

Same with only getting schizophrenia stuff when looking for psychotic/ delusional stuff. Like yes! But... no?

I’m not sure why the former is the horror trope when the latter is so much more terrifying.

I’m plural. Many. More than one. However you want to say it. But I do genuinely think of that as “I get to have friends in my head”. Barely a disorder at all. The actual debilitating parts of my dissociation are everything else. Like, just yesterday I spaced out hard enough that I lost track of my surroundings and hit my shoulder hard enough to break skin. Today I had to do the annoying work of trying to study for my exam while feeling extremely unreal and like I was going to dissolve into the floor. But no one talks about those things when talking about dissociation/dissociative disorders. Why not? Because it’s not aesthetic? Because there’s no spectacle to it?

Maybe I’m looking in the wrong places. But it feels weird to search dissociation and only get plurality/multiplicity content. I’m glad I found this blog. And I feel bad for the dissociative singlets who really really don’t relate to most “dissociation” content.

(The crying can be saved for over a month later when you get dressed, realize you’re wearing the same shirt you wore that day, and have a total breakdown. Fun.)