#mmckinnon

just updated my dorcas x marlene summer of like au. give the new chapter a read here :)

It was late that night when Barty finally left his scattered teammates, crossing the crowd of drunken students to where he had been watching Marlene from the other side of the room. 

MARLENE MCKINNON

↳ 29 / nonbinary (they/them) / potion maker and apothecary / fc: zoe kravitz / taken

      and I saw black hell within my heart–

in your eyes, it’s all over, and it’s all been over for a very long time. but perhaps not in the way that one might think. because there’s no way this will ever truly end. history will keep repeating itself time and time again, and people will keep dying, more families torn apart by war, nothing will change, even as others insist that they’re fighting for good. you know that it’s all the same. and it’s not worth it anymore, not the fighting or the talk of revenge or revolution. too many people have already been lost, and all for nothing. your entire family was killed and yet that didn’t change anything. when is it enough? when can the violence and suffering truly be over? you don’t think it ever can, not while the causes continue. and so you removed yourself from all of that. you took in someone else just as lost as you, and that was the end of it.

or you wanted that to be the end of it. you tried to separate yourself from the others, took refuge in alcohol to keep yourself from thinking too hard about your family lost for no reason. but the past is insistent, and now more than ever it seems that everyone wishes to repeat history. you can feel it coming, the choice, the change in the air, and you’re afraid that this time not even you will be left alive at the end of it. all you can do is try to keep your distance, refuse to allow yourself to be pulled back into things again. but that is much easier said than done.

     connections

↳ Regulus Black – it was an impulse, ten years ago, that led you to help him, like so much of what you did back then was. you’re still not exactly sure why you made the decision, but you never regretted it. you can tell he’s getting restless, though, and you’re afraid he’ll be the thing that pulls you back into the fight.

↳ Mary MacDonald – once you were friends, back when you were only children, before both of your lives were destroyed by hatred. you think there could still be something there now, only you don’t like what she’s become, ready to burn the world down for the chance at revenge. you wish you could make her see that it wouldn’t change anything, but you’re not sure it’s worth it.

Several drinks deep into the post-Quidditch party with the night showing little signs of slowing down, Barty wrapped his Ravenclaw scarf around Marlene’s neck with a grin. “This color suits you.”