#mishsays

please don't feel bad or guilty anymore. you are a great writer no matter how much you post or how fast you work. even if you haven't written in a long time, that skill is still inside you and nobody can ever take it away. you aren't letting anyone down, and you aren't a failure. you are just having a hard time, and everyone goes through that.

we aren't going anywhere, i promise. we aren't here just for the updates; we are here because we love you. we love your ideas and your heart. if you need to stay quiet for a while to find your spark again, then please take all the time you need. we will be right here waiting with so much love whenever you are ready to come back. and i know how it feels of you lack behind with your “i need to write” “i need to be more consistent” waking up and opening an app where you share your interests and you feel behind when you look out for other accounts

you said you want to find your "old self," but the person you are today is so strong for keep going. don't worry about being fast or busy. just try to find one small thing that makes you happy today. also this message might not be as comforting as your hart wants now and what am doing is not even close to make you happier but you deserve so much and please make yourself proud even if you never want to dive back !! i have never seen so transparent personality like you! and i love every single rant of yours 🫶🏼

i really wanted to write so much to you because i see myself right in your shoes and i can feel every bit of your feelings. no doubt you have so much talent and such a good soul. and it’s completely understandable even i you never want to post. 🥺😽

you said this message isn't enough to comfort me and you wished you could say more; if this makes sense, it made me cry and yes, it was so beautiful that I... im so grateful 🙏🏻

i honestly never looked at myself this way,, never considered myself as a good personality and talented, maybe never even liked myself before. i admit to fighting myself to learn the beauty behind loving and believing ourselves, the journey was hard, but I learned it anyway. still there is always a voice in the back of my mind that reminds me constantly that I'm not enough, and once in a while it breaks me down as well.

when I was reading this message, honestly, those voices started to get quiet and peaceful. i don't really know what I did to deserve this, but I'd like to know, so I can find a tara in my every lifetime and learn to be her tara as well.

i won't thank you today, that will be shallow 🙏🏻 I love you, my friend, and I wish you never change yourself. and I hope that me being inactive or just not doing anything isn't going disappointing you or anyone here.

same here 😔

dear tara,

I think I am a little emotional fool, because I'm falling short of words to reply to you, and I'm sure you have no idea what these words mean to me 😭

I admit to getting lost in self doubt sometimes which I don't appreciate but we all need to hear some reassurance once in a while, and today you just came as an angel to share your beautiful kind words with me. thank you so so much 🙏🏻💗

dear angel,

I feel guilty for the lack of posts yesterday. I was too caught up with the celebration to barely get time to write, and today I didn't feel like writing. I'm extremely sorry for disappointing you all. but I promise you that I will definitely post a little something tomorrow so please wait for me.

Writing prevents me from indulging in any negative emotion.

If I am really holding on to something I’ll usually take my pen to a piece of paper, or more recently my finger tips to my keyboard, and let it ALL OUT. 

Writing is euphoric. It allows me to be still. When I’m writing I’m not thinking of anything else. I am simply living in the beautiful now. I find myself swimming in the sea that are my words. 

It’s the most present thing I have ever practiced, aside from reading but that just comes with the job. 

The job. My job. I love my job. I write for a living and it’s fucking fantastic. 

Want some advice? Probably not, but here it is anyway: Do something that allows you to be present. 

It may not be writing, but you have to search for your niche, that one thing you’re good at that allows you to escape from this reality we’ve come to believe in. 

/əmˈbrās/

noun

1. an act of holding someone closely in one's arms. 

"they were locked in an embrace"

synonyms: hug, cuddle, squeeze, clinch, caress, clasp; bear hug

You’re telling me that guys can date multiple women as they “explore their options” but the second a female does it, she’s a whore? 

Yeah, nothing new there. Too bad, so sad. If I want to explore my damn options, I will do just that. No, I haven’t been specifically given shit for doing so, but society does a damn good job of reminding you. 

Women, the men aren’t the only ones shaming us. It’s you too. It’s most people, because they’ve been conditioned to think a certain way; and no I’m not trying to say I’m completely out of society’s grasp. I fall victim to conditioned thoughts too. 

The reason I’m even writing this is because I read an article that made me feel a certain way about ‘casually seeing a guy’, or two. I’m nobody’s property, and I report to no one but myself. As long as both parties know it’s not ‘exclusive’ there should be no expectations. 

Stop leading people on, but also stop expecting from those who don’t owe you anything. Start being open about what it is that you want, because you deserve nothing less than the truth. If you want casual that’s fine, but if you want more let them know. Don’t feel guilty about being honest.