So this afternoon after lots of thinking and soul searching I have decided this blog is now not mainly about my whole life but specifically about babies. About miscarriage, trying again, our journey, us and hopefully our rainbow. I have found the online community here and amazing help and I want to help others by being honest open and recognising miscarriage. Changing the stigma and recognising it. I will write honest blogs and updates as well as the usual everyday life stuff. But this is where I want to take this, I have gained comfort in talking and expressing how I feel. I hope this helps me as well as others. I don’t have any specific conditions diagnosed I’m just a 33 year old woman trying to get pregnant after the heartbreak of losing our first baby. I feel something should come out of the loss of losing pumpkin and this for me is it. It’s ignited something in me I didn’t know was there. #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #blog #miscarriageblog #raisingawareness #togetherforchange @tommys_thebabycharity have inspired me to do this with their campaign. I felt like I had nobody to talk to and I want this to change

Good morning all. So I feel like a walking analysis. I’m analysing everything my body is doing. There’s a chance my body could ovulate anytime since our miscarriage. Yes we wanted to try again straight away. We said it as soon as we were in the private room after hearing the news. It was instinct we just New in that moment we wanted it so much. Iv been tracking my temp, signs my body is making since I stopped bleeding and well iv never been so in tune with my body. But will it work? Can I predict when? We will see but oh my goodness I just want to be pregnant again. So badly. Life goes on but I’m always watching what’s happening and I have four apps to help me out. #missyou #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesucks #ovulation #fertility #gettingpregnant #iwantababy #pregnancyafterloss #keeptrying #staypositive #analysis #lifestyleblogger #blogger #blog #blogging #miscarriageblog

The most wonderful time of the year... unless you are grieving and cry every day... The Holidays could be especially hard for grieving parents. I am sharing my take on our first Christmas with and without Noah, our first born, who was supposed to be born exactly one month from today... *Link in Bio* . . . . #Christmas #grief #grievingparents #death #Jesus #miscarriageblog #pregancyloss #angelbaby #miscarriagesucks #angelbaby #babyloss #hope

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Day 31 of the #pregnancyandinfantloss #photochallenge : Today’s night sky: it’s a quiet night. It’s Halloween. This picture was taken from what was supposed to be Noah’s room. How I dreamed of rocking him to sleep night after night... Now I am just hiding in this place, hoping not too many kiddos come to our door asking for candy... ... grief is hard... . . . . . #awareness #miscarriage #14weekmiscarriage #captureyourgrief #angelbaby #latemiscarriage #iam1in4 #grief #Octoberchallenge #loss #pinkandblue #miscarriageblog #miscarriagesucks #pregnancyloss #bornintoheaven #pail #miscarriagesurvivor #shatterthesilence #halloween #nightsky #night

Remembering my baby boy while vacationing on the spot we got engaged! #BrysonCity #DeepCreek #14weeksmiscarriage #miscarriage #pregnacyloss #miscarriageblog #miscarriagesucks #engagement #latemiscarriage #Repost @estefiroberts ・・・ Dear Noah, This is where daddy proposed to mommy three years, 9 months ago (we carved our initials somewhere on this bridge). I always dreamed of bringing our babies here one day. I am so sad you'll never get to see this place with your little eyes. Daddy got down on one knee and we promised each other to be together forever, in the good times and bad times. We didn't know what was ahead of us... you have been the most beautiful and most painful time in our marriage. I was always grateful for saying "yes" in this place, as it got me to marry your daddy... today I am so much more grateful for saying yes, because marrying your daddy ultimately lead me to being your mommy. And that, Noah, is the greatest title I will ever have... "Happy" two months baby boy... 😇💚 (at Deep Creek Tube Center & Campground)

My baby boy: Thank you for bringing such beautiful melody into my life. Noah Eliot, you keep my song in tune, I love you! 💚🎵🎶 #14weeksmiscarriage #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesurvivor #miscarriage #latemiscarriage #miscarriageblog #miscarriagesupport #pregnacyloss

New blog post! As we slowly move towards “normalcy” (what even is that) after #hurricaneirma I am so excited to share more about the story behind this blog. So, take a break from the news—and the awesome dude translating into sign language—and learn about another type of storm, the storm of death, and grief… Hope you enjoy! #14weeksmiscarriage #miscarriageblog #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesurvivor #miscarriage #blog #latemiscarriage #thelittleprince #hope