#mintp

fINTP kicked mINTP in the shin, stomped on his foot and shoved him off his chair.

-Stanley wakes up everyday at 6:30. INTJ and mINTP need an alarm clock to do so. 

A couple of days ago mINTP tripped and twisted his ankle. Because of how he fell on it, he also scraped a good chunk of skin off his foot and probably sprained 2 fingers. He didn't want to go to the hospital to get it looked at, insisting "I'm fine!" His family and I freak out at the blood and swelling. INFP sister bursts into tears just looking at him hobbling around, just bawling "mINTP! mINTP! mINTP!" (INFP was convinced he is gonna die from an ankle injury). The fact that he kept laughing it off reassuring us he would be fine DESPITE telling us that he is in so much pain was giving INFP and me anxiety. What an annoying a**hole. When he finally washes the blood off and we are able to assess the damage, it just looks worse than it actually is. He should heal in a couple weeks, but let this be a lesson to those of you who have INTP friends or family members. INTPs can be very difficult (possibly obnoxious) to deal with when injured or sick. We don't like for people to know when we are weak or vulnerable. This makes the few people who care about us worry like crazy. Despite thinking that we are the grand masters of masking what is really going on, when things get bad, you start to see cracks in the mask. We don't like people to fuss over us, but we often forget how much we neglect ourselves--physical, mental, emotional/spiritual health--running ourselves to the ground...don't give up on your INTP. We are terrible at caring for ourselves and recognizing when we might need help, but excellent at convincing ourselves that we don't need or want anyone's help. We do.

mINTP shows up at 2: 45

fINTP: I'm annoyed. INFP: What's wrong, fINTP? fINTP: When mINTP doesn't give me attention, I get mad, but when he smothers me with ideas when I'm not in the mood to entertain them I get irritated. INFP: "Smothered with ideas"? (0.o)? fINTP: You know, the feeling you get when someone just inundates you with information and ideas, tries to derail you into pursuing other ideas even though you've already made a decision, and totally seems oblivious when you seem disinterested at the moment? INFP: That is YOU...ALL.THE.TIME. fINTP: Really? Wait, so he's not wrong? INFP: (-_-;)

Im reaching out to anyone who has fallen for someone... what is that deciding factor for you that you are worthy of feeling happy towards having interactions with another person? Or maybe even the thought of being allowed to think something from this person? Cause I am sooooo muddled TT I honestly do not know how deep i am in this hole ... but like TT theres this constant ... ah idk how to even explain it. All I know is that seeing him makes my heart goes *ba-thump* x10. And what makes it better? The fact that it is SO easy to talk to him! Like seriously, KIS, thank you so much for talking to me first. Even if you probably dont even really care bout me... you have helped out with my anxiety :-) I still do have my share of panic... but I do not necessarily feel that way anymore, especially towards you. I like.... i like thinking of the next time I get to see you and just making small talk ( ･ω･)ﾉ "hows your day so far?" "I hope you ate" (jk thats an insider with APS) anyways !!! Im sad I havent seen him in awhile but i mean :s thats ok. Theres always next time~ ah my heart. It flutters every time i think about him ლ(´ڡ`ლ)

mINTP lied to me today about something small that he really didn't need to lie about...And I found out...accidentally. I didn't even think he was lying. I took his word and only when someone asked me an innocuous question, I put two and two together. I texted him about it and he finally admitted it. Am I feeling hurt? Am I angry? I don't know...I'm so emotionally confused.