#min-d

work in a different place from where you typically relax. ex: i don’t study in my bed even tho it’s tempting bc i don’t want to associate my bed w/ work 

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Im reaching out to anyone who has fallen for someone... what is that deciding factor for you that you are worthy of feeling happy towards having interactions with another person? Or maybe even the thought of being allowed to think something from this person? Cause I am sooooo muddled TT I honestly do not know how deep i am in this hole ... but like TT theres this constant ... ah idk how to even explain it. All I know is that seeing him makes my heart goes *ba-thump* x10. And what makes it better? The fact that it is SO easy to talk to him! Like seriously, KIS, thank you so much for talking to me first. Even if you probably dont even really care bout me... you have helped out with my anxiety :-) I still do have my share of panic... but I do not necessarily feel that way anymore, especially towards you. I like.... i like thinking of the next time I get to see you and just making small talk ( ･ω･)ﾉ "hows your day so far?" "I hope you ate" (jk thats an insider with APS) anyways !!! Im sad I havent seen him in awhile but i mean :s thats ok. Theres always next time~ ah my heart. It flutters every time i think about him ლ(´ڡ`ლ)

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Wow. Yet again its been awhile since i wrote here, right? Oh, Kitty. You incoherent mess. How can you let this happen to you? I know you do not want to admit it, but you sure are being quite shallow. He liked you and you liked him. BUT you sure as heck KNOW he is not good for you so God let things happen that you HAD to break it off. Yet??? You're?? Still??? Hanged??? Up??? About??? Him???? What? Dear. DEar. DEAR. Get a hold of yourself! Yes! He is still hellah attractive or what not! But think about it... its all infatuation. He's ATTRACTIVE (sure). He's FUN (sure). He's DIFFERENT (sure). He's ADVENTUROUS (sure). BUT HE IS ABSOLUTELY A BAD INFLUENCE ON YOU AND YOU KNOW IT! He made you lie to your parents, spend more money (?!?!) and overall crumble a part of yourself just when you have fixed it recently (emotionally scarred, dude). Yes, I know its weird that he keeps making eye contact with you when he is working (dammit, why'd he have to work @the cafe you live at...) and seeing him today @school really made you feel things. HOWEVER, do not! I repeat... DO NOT SUCCUMB BACK. Come on, girl. You got this.

Ugh. Its so infuriating to know that he probably doesn't care when he replies to me but here i am being burdened on the thought that ignoring him will not solve anything. But then again i get angry thinking about all he has done .... or that i was too much to handle... that giving him a cold turkey just seems like the best thing. Like i really dislike communicating with him cause I always get my hopes up for nothing. Sigh i really just gotta stop thinking and just continue with the cold turkey... no matter what. Fighting , kitty! You can do it.

I have such mixed feelings. He is not the person that I like … but yet, when he dropped me (overall … being his best friend and etc) I kid you not … this is the first time I have cried over someone more than twice, even with a proper explanation as to why. Last time I balled over someone more than once is because I did not understand why??? But he called me and relayed the message and it just broke my heart. I would be lying if I were to say that I never could imagine him doing this to me … but it was just so sudden that my heart couldn’t take it. That one tumblr post where “that one person who would just make ur night no matter what condition youre in” damn, got me in tears again. I sure do have my share of friends … but he’s the one who I could count on for the stupidest stuff and he wont leave me alone until i address it. Sometimes , time cant even tell how close or how far you feel against someone. Even though its been a couple weeks since I have met him … damn, dude. I miss you already. I’ll miss our late night talks about our problems or just random stuff if were bored. I’ll miss those quirky things when we cracked up so badly because of the kakao filters. I do not think I have ever balled/ shed tears infront of anyone other than you and it meant alot that you were there for me then. Ive never met anyone who cared so much in so little time... boi, you literally called me back when i just said this phrase "ima just cry rn" ... like figuratively... dude, pls. I really hate that you had to say goodbye, but it is totally understandable that you picked him than me. I just wish that you didnt give me the high hopes that there was this possibility that we could be friends …but thats just selfish of me. Anyways, ill remember your sentimental hugs and the fact that were basically soulmates cause were the exact same person … just that youre the day while im the night. Keep smiling, dude. Ill see you another day and I hope then, ill smile back. I love you, bro. Be safe when you travel to Taiwan… say Hi to your mom for me (❛︵❛) (sigh… our little insider)