soo my mom participated at an event by LINE and long story short i got some sweet plushies of Brown and Cony from her so yeey
but i think it's just how i am now that i can never be 100% happy anymore
especially if it is something of real stuffs
welp my overthinking pathetic ass is thinking about how to take care these plushies. if it isnt from the event, the real price of these plushies are quite damn expensive
as far as i could remember i always have a too-much strong emotional attachment with my stuffs, worst when i was a kid
so yeah like every new stuff especially cute-looking stuffs would be like a new hella trial for my emotion / mental part hahah
wish i could just learn to get over it maybe or something idk
maybe it's more like how i just dislike with this concept in this world where things are temporary (it's good for the bad stuffs being gone but on the contrary come on), things may happen when something of yours are taken; welp
God, i always think too much do i hahah
well but that's pretty much one root of me losing interest in living in this planet