#microneasian

I am mixed. My mom is white as fuck. But my dad isn’t and my grandparents came straight off the fucking boat- my grandfather literally.

I wasn’t able to know my fathers side of my family growing up so I have crazy racial imposter syndrome.

But when I was growing up I had no Southeast Asians or Micronesians to look up to so I always identified with the closest thing on the screen in front of me.

Sooooo….

Does anyone else who grew up mixed or impossible to be accurately represented in the media feel protective of other cultures they identified with growing up? Not to participate in but just to keep safe?

I get angry when I see people trying to appropriate other cultures as if they were mine personally but in reality they were just something that I was able to look at during my childhood and know it was important to someone. Like someone had what I wanted so desperately.

They grew up with a culture and community that ran deep within their blood. So don’t disrespect something you don’t understand what it’s like to lose.

I try not to butt in and I never comment about anybody else’s culture but mine- I think the best way to respect everyone is to listen what they have to say and I learn a lot.

I have no need to appropriate or “steal” like white people because I’m not culture-less. I am just unfortunate enough to not have any connections to a side of me I wish I could know.

I want to turn my envious sin into a righteous deed. Or some bullshit.