They say all men are dogs and indeed we are all dogs. But do you know what dogs do? They love diligently, wholeheartedly and unconditionally, it does not matter whether to them and I say if all us men are dogs then so be it. Us men have always gotten a bad rep for acting like assholes and jerks, women blame us or more likely criticize us for not thinking about how we affect others but they’ll never know how much we think, how much we analyze, how much an average man suffers and sure we also on the flip side don’t know how much women go through.
Any man who has ever been in love or at least tried to love knows how much we have to go through, I know I tried and I failed so many times and one can only fail so many times until they look around and give up. I didn’t give up yet but after so many times in the courtship of love I have to decided to work on this piece, I don’t know how much I’ll write but I know I have to write until my heart is satisfied for some moments.
Throughout my life I have had this idea that my love life has been cursed because of my parent’s marriage, no they are not divorced or separated it’s just that their marriage has been so perfect that I think to myself sometimes that the Gods of Love have given all their blessing to them and didn’t save us any. But this idea of blaming my parents is just another form of coping mechanism, the truth is I haven’t tried or sometimes I try too hard there is no in between because I can hardly control my emotions if I like someone and it becomes too obvious and in the end I end up giving way too much in a relation which didn’t even matter much to them (that’s when I know I tried too hard).
Let me give an example from my experience, a girl had a crush on me but we didn’t really hang out at the moment but it turns out that we share some mutual friends and end up getting introduced to each other and we immediately start hanging out. Then some times later I find out she has a crush on me and she knows that I know too and I think to myself HOLY SHIT!! This girl has a thing FOR ME?! Because mind you I am not a very good looking and I am of very average height and sure you might be thinking ‘Dude so what if she has a thing? It does not matter if you have feelings for her’. Well that is where everything went wrong for me, you see this ‘girl’ was different I still remember the night I met her oh man, the moment we got introduced I knew I stood no chance because she was way out of league. And that is exactly why I didn’t try in the beginning but now that I knew she has a crush on me I was so hyped, there is no way I could fumble this opportunity right? Right?
Wrong…. Fast forward after a month she told me she lost feelings and fast forward another 4 months I graduated and she is still in the same university where I feel in love with her and I am still in love with her maybe less but still in love. We did not even go for one proper date. So yeah I fumbled hard. We still talk to this day and just last week it was her birthday and I visited her, crazy right? To think I haven’t moved on yet, and that is exactly why all men are dogs.
