Still not entirelyyy sure if we were on the Lost Light, but the more we think about it the more it feels like home, so uh. Probably we were. And. I realized that. By being on the Lost Light, i was achieving my original dream from millions of cycles ago, back when i was D-16. Cus, yknow. I wanted to go on an expedition out in space and explore different planets and just. Learn more about what was out there. I mean, i also got to do that during the war to some degree, since we didn't always stay on Cybertron, but thats not quite the same? Because we weren't focused on anything other than the fighting. And. I dunno its making me really emotional. I dont have a good word for it, but its like. Bittersweet, sort of. Because i only was able to do it after millions of cycles of violence, after i had changed so much that im not sure id be recognizable to someone who knew me then. But. I was still able to do it. After everything, i was still given the chance to actually achieve that dream thatd id always thought wouldn’t be possible. I still did it even after everything changed.
I sort of wonder if that's part of why Optimus put me on the Lost Light. Was to remind me of the person i used to be and the dreams i used to have, and give me another chance at them after i had surrendered. I mean, it seems sentimental enough to be something he'd do. Im.. not sure whether he'd actually remember that about me, though, with how long it had been. Then again, we were Amica Endurae, so it wouldn't surprise me, exactly.
Anyways. Shout out to the Lost Light crew. You guys are great. I wish you all well out there. Remember that things can always get better, and you are stronger than you realize. Also, take care of yourselves for the love of Primus. Drink your water, eat three meals a day, get enough recharge, etc. Okay, that's all o7
