#mefirst

And most importantly you are human

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Doing things differently! My body is putting me on NOTICE more and more by the day and this is a start to wellness! #MeFirst https://www.instagram.com/p/Cp4imjDO1k4/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

My feed is so disorganized lol. Which kinda fits with the topic here! Time for an #instablog. I’m done with trying to prove myself :) I met with my lovely therapist this morning and we had a great discussion about boundaries, and how integral they are to self-respect. You don’t go back to the beast for hugs. Eaten or not, what does that say if you do. I had a friend who decided to call me slow at work and I got fed up, so much so that I left work to prevent anything further, but I realize now that that is not worth my energy. Why did I get fed up? Well because I felt there was truth in what she was saying at that moment, and because I feared that I couldn’t measure up unless I took her heed (mind you this person is six years younger than me), I snapped. And you know what, that was a boundary for me. That was a point where I should have just cut ties and let things move on for me. No? Forgiveness first? Forgiveness doesn’t mean you keep the beast as a friend. Forgiveness means you accept what happens and you find empathy for them. It does not mean admiration. And it does not mean putting yourself second. What I find hard to do is maintaining faith when I fall short, even though, if I am a Christian as I claim, God maintains faith in me even when I do long as I maintain faith in him. Screw it, I enjoy and am edified by Christianity but that is not the end of me. God is not postmarked; He is transcendent… Anyway, I believe that I must have faith that “I was born to exist”: a favorite singer of mine penned that line, look it up; it’s a majestic ballad. My time is running out on this 7:00 lunch break (I started at 2:00 and it’s just how the day lines up) so I have to close. But know your limits, know what will help you grow, and know who is there for your blooming. And as @terrycrews said, “There should be no limits in life but there should be a helluva lot of boundaries.” Have a self. I’m learning to. #selfhelp #selfpreservation #selfadvocacy #boundaries #religion #godsnotdead #personaljesus #breaktime #writersofinstagram #singersongwriter #poetsofig #artworks #mefirst #island #oneandmany #fatherstretchmyhands #keepthefaith #noless (at Belmar, New Jersey) https://www.instagram.com/p/CQuQINDAcOP/?utm_medium=tumblr

Stars are falling all around me Like a burden on my back I drag a broken paradise Faithless, I continue down this path Senseless, longing always to turn back A dance into the dark Blind my footsteps, went too far I soar on crystal wings that cannot last So fearful of commitment, yet fearful of new strife My home will always be your arms... But then my dreams shine so alluring From greener prairies so afar Away and veiled, beyond what was So here's the crossroads of our lives Stay or fly? Let me go, or be my graveyard! But this is it - our final dance For there's no point in living if you rarely feel alive! Can you not see? Where dreams have dragged us... Has never been what we sought out There’s sleepless passions all around me! That burst into a violent cloud of thoughts Immune to life, so bright and tangible around us There is but one last course of action - must let go Stars are falling! All around me! And with a brave but broken heart I sail to see what's left inside Boundless, I continue down this path And dauntless, I AM NEVER TURNING BACK! A dance into the dark Tired footsteps, where to fly? I soar on broken wings but they'll suffice For now there's no commitment - welcome, strife... ...My home will always be your arms But then my dreams... Are so alluring -S For M.