#mean james

four, five six. breathe, seven, eight, nine, breathe. again. one, two, three.

Regulus was counting. it was the only way he could keep up with the brutal pace of James' thrust into his mouth, pushing past his tongue, down his throat, making him gag every time he went in. James liked the sound of Regulus choking, he took every opportunity to make him struggle to breathe.

more than once has James held a pillow over his face while fucking him just to hear him gasping for air when he removed it.

it's the fear that does it for him, the acknowledgment that if James really wanted to he could kill Regulus. and Regulus loved having his life on the line, he liked the risk, liked the adrenaline rush. like how his heart was pumping as fast as James' thrust.

and it was more too, how he held on to his neck, pulled him up, told him just how fucking pathetic it was that he gets off on being treated like a doll. hisses out such vitreal and hate,

stupid bitch, useless cunt, needy whore and ao much more, it made his mind hazy, how he would bite his neck until it bled. covered his mouth when he cried. it always made him come so fast.

it was all so good but the after was the best part, when Regulus was shking, cold and oversensitive and James would wrap him up in a blanket and hung him close. keep from touching his skin but never letting there be a moment of silence, not when he had so much praise to give.

you did good baby, the best, absolutely perfect my love

Lance wraps his arms around Keith’s waist and doesn’t say anything. Keith really wished he could hear his thoughts right now.

“I have something for you.” Keith says letting Lance go and walking across the room. Keith watches Lance curl in on himself wrapping his arms around his torso. Keith comes back quickly with a little box. He gives him the box which causes a puzzled look on his face. Keith nods and watches Lance unwrap it to see, a key.

“So you don’t have to break into my apartment anymore.” Keith runs his hand through his hair nervously, “Do you like it?”

Lance smiles wrapping his fist around the key and holding it to his chest, “I love it thank you.”

“Just know,” Keith grabs Lance’s hand again, “You can come back. Anytime. I will be here.”

This time Lance is the one to pull Keith into a hug, “Thank you Keith, for everything.”

Keith pulls Lance tight, “Of course.”

They hold on for just a little longer but it is time for Lance to go, “I’ll let you know when I get home, you know,” Lance points to his head, “In here.” 

Keith smiles, “Can’t wait.”

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It is night time by the time Keith hears, I’m home

Keith smiles, “Good. How far away do you live?”

Like six hours by bus.

Keith stands up a little straighter, “Wait by bus? I could have taken you if you didn’t have a car.”

No no that’s okay. Lance sounded rushed, I don’t mind the bus really 

Keith sighed, “Ok but next time I am driving you home.”

A beat of silence, Well I have to go to bed now. Talk tomorrow?

Keith feels like he is missing something but decides not to push it, “Yeah okay good night Lance.”

Good night Keith.

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KEITH

Keith sits bolt-right out of bed, “What what happened?”

THEY’RE BACK

“What? Whose back?”

KEITH WAKE UP AND FOCUS MCR IS BACK!”

“What?” Keith grabs his laptop to check, “HOLY SHIT THEY ARE BACK!”

THAT IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN SAYING

“HOLY SHIT THIS IS AWESOME.” Keith is yelling now too.

I KNOW WE GOTTA GO SEE THEM WHEN THEY GO ON TOUR

“Don’t worry we will. I gotta go get their merch at hot topic.”

Ugh you are such and emo.

“Hey so are you!”

Yes but I hide it so well.

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Lance and Keith continue with their routine of talking every day and skyping at night. Occasionally Keith will hear Lance’s negative thinking in his head and always responds right away to debunk it. Lance doesn’t say anything about it but Keith can tell he appreciates it.

Keith is getting ready for his nightly video chat with Lance when he hears him, Hey Keith I can’t video chat tonight I am sorry.

Keith feels his heart drop, “Oh, why?”

A pause, Uh, my computer isn’t working so I can’t sorry.

Keith shrugs, “It’s ok, I know you would if you could.”

A very faint yeah is all Keith hears

“So how long do you think your computer will be busted?”

Like two weeks at most.

“Well that’s okay hope you can get it fixed.”

Me too.

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Keith is going crazy not being able to see Lance. He misses seeing when he laughs and his eyes and just him okay.

Which is why Keith decides to do something reckless. He is off work for a few days and decides to drive up and surprise Lance in his hometown. Lance did it for him and it was the greatest thing to ever happen to him and he knows Lance would appreciate it. He packs a small bag and makes reservations at the local hotel and begins his drive to Lance. He keeps the conversation going as normal as he can to not give anything away.

After a very long drive he arrives in Lance's hometown in Oklahoma and stops on the way to pick up some flowers he know Lance will like. He pulls up to Lance’s school that seems to be letting out.

He sees Lance walking out and he doesn’t notice Keith right away but seems to be looking around. A group of guys walk up behind him and Keith figures they are his friends. He watches one of them grab Lance and another-

Keith drops the flowers and runs toward the group. He pushes a guy to the side and sees Lance laying on the ground seeming unconscious. Keith sees red.

He grabs the guy who punched Lance, “What the fuck man let me go!” The guy in his arms shouts.

Keith is furious, he pushes him to the ground, “Nobody hurts Lance.”

The guy scoffs and stands up brushing himself off, “See that is where we differ. Now move out of my way.” He tries to push Keith out of the way.

Keith blocks him, “Get the fuck out of here.”

James raises an eyebrow and scoffs, “Oh I know! You must be his soulmate.”

Keith crosses his arms, he hears Lance groan, good, “Yeah I am.”

James gives Keith the once over, “Guess loser down there was right.”

Keith grabs James by the collar of his jacket, his friend move closer but James raises his hand to back them up.

Keith is furious, “If you ever go near Lance again you will wish you had never been born got it?” Keith lets go.

James straightens his jacket, “Whatever.” He looks to Lance who is still on the ground but his eyes have opened, “See you around.” Then the group leaves all laughing.

Keith gets down on the ground, “Lance are you okay?”

“Ribs hurt.” He mumbles

Keith looks Lance over and notices some cuts and bruises, “Come on, I still need to check in at the hotel. He picks Lance up off the ground and carries him over to his bike. He somehow gets him sitting while still holding onto him and gets starts driving.

Once there Keith checks in and takes Lance upstairs, “Where does it hurt?” Keith asks calmly.

Lance points to his ribs and Keith asks if he can take off his shirt and Lance gives a curt nod wincing when he has to lift his arms. When the shirt is off it makes Keith is angry all over again. Not only is there a new bruise forming from today but there seems to be bruises healing from other incidences and even some scars. Keith looks at Lance face and sees a remainder of a black eye, “You computer wasn’t broken was it?”

Lance shakes his head.

Keith does the best he can cleaning Lance up, Lance says nothing.

“You wanna go down to the pool?” It might help?”

Lance shakes his head.

“Come on Lance you love swimming please talk to me.”

At that Lance looks up, “What are you doing here?”

“Well I missed and seeing your face and-”

Lance stands up, “So what you just show up unannounced?” Lance yells.

“Yeah you did it to me? I thought you would like the surprise?”

Lance crosses his arms, “That’s different.”

“Why?” Keith questions.

“Well you have your own apartment and a job and-”

“Nobody is beating me up?” Keith cuts in.

Lance curls in on himself again, this time falling to the floor, “I didn’t want you to know about him.”

Keith sits down next to him, “Why?”

“Because,” Lance wraps his arms around his legs closing in on himself, “I didn’t want him to ruin this too.”

Keith sits down next to Lance on the floor, “He wouldn’t have ruined anything.”

Lance scoffs and stands up, “Yeah right. I have known James my whole life. You don’t know him like I do.”

Keith gets up standing taller than Lance, “I don’t care how long you have known him and I don’t care what he has said or done. I am here for you Lance and now that I know I am never leaving.”

Lance rolls his eyes, “Yeah sure.”