#mayanoms

I find this quote very interesting because it alludes to BSD Fyodor; he's also sickly and well-mannered like Prince Myshkin.

Now this makes me wonder, had Fyodor avoided marriage because of his weak body but also of his ability? Was this a form of mercy he carried towards non-ability users, normal human beings? Had he loved someone but then had to abandon them the moment his ability activated?

Now, this reminds me of a common Fyodor fanfic trope where the reader is forced to marry him. While the concept is attractive, I feel most of the stories are a bit cliché and not using the potential to the fullest.

But thinking about it more, had he married someone before he died for the first time, the horrors of the realisation that not only was he unfit to marry anyone due to his frail body, but now due to this sin — the ability. Did Fyodor take this as punishment for daring to marry someone, against his better judgement? A Crime against humanity, and now he shall die and live forevermore with Punishment.

This also made me think deeply of the trio’s dynamic: how Dazai facing Fyodor into psychological and intellectual battles made me see their differences even though they match intellectually. Dazai had mentioned that Ranpo sees more things that he can: this means that if Dazai trained more or hyperfixated into becoming a better detective, he could but he would still fall behind Ranpo because Ranpo is naturally drawn to details and nuances, he sees the pattern while Dazai sees the thrill.

This also explains why Ranpo dislikes playing smart games with Dazai and especially with Fyodor who is purely Autistic, where as Ranpo has both Autism and ADHD. Ranpo made a slip-up at the Cannibalism Arc because he put Fyodor into “default human” parameters and failed to see that Fyodor doesn’t follow societal conformity and won’t hesitate to use any means possible to reach his goals. Fukuchi is neurotypical and was fooled by Fyodor while was easily read by Ranpo.

Since Ranpo has been surrounded mostly by standard, mostly neurotypical people, he didn’t really have many things that challenge his brain, therefore his growth was slow, and since facing Dazai and Fyodor is a MASSIVE challenge, his ADHD side of brain easily gets agitated/frustrated and thus cloud his mind, only a little but it’s enough for the other two to trick him.

Since Dazai also doesn’t bother with societal conformity, Fyodor had to be careful at tricking Dazai, so he played on assumptions, which is why Dazai mistakenly assumed that Fyodor’s ability is related to touch where as in truth his ability has to do with death, Fyodor did a great job tricking Dazai and Ranpo. Although, I would doubt he knew everything, he also relied on luck especially when he took over Bram’s body.

Recently people suspect that not everything that Shakespeare published was his own original work, which I don't doubt. Copyright wasn't really a thing and because of that people shared stories and it's highly likely Shakespeare also attended some writer's club and got ideas there.

Similarly, in the first half of 20th century Japan, it was actually a trend to write stories based on people's diaries, so much so that people sent their diary entries to their favourite authors so they can write "story version" of their diaries. Dazai Osamu was big on this trend and had his fans send him lots of their diaries and even specifically emphasised that they don't want money or fame, just want to see their diaries to be recreated into novels.

While this might sound foul but it actually is an amazing idea, making novels more realistic and their problems, struggles and joys shared and empathised. Why force to write your own story if someone could do it well in your stead? Granted, there were also copyright issues where writers used diaries to write stories without their consent, Dazai's novel *The Setting Sun* was one of the cases (which makes more sense now because how raw and deep it is).

2026

Reid, Iain. I'm Thinking of Ending Things. New edition. Scout Press, 2020. [January, finished]

Dazai, Osamu, ja Juliet Winters Carpenter. The Setting Sun. Tuttle Publishing, 2025.[January, finished]

Dazai, Osamu, ja Sam Bett. The Flowers of Buffoonery. First edition. A New Directions Paperbook Original, 2023. [Feb, finished]

Pesonen, Joonas. Penisyklopedia: Opas Miesten Seksuaalisuuteen. 1. painos. Kosmos, 2025. [will continue later]

Christie, Agatha. Murder on the Orient Express. HarperCollins, 2017. [Feb, finished]

Lawrence, D. H., et al. Ljubovnik Ledi Tšatterlei: [roman]. Vetše, 2016. [will continue later]

Dazai, Osamu, ja Donald Keene. No Longer Human. [New edition]. New Directions Publishing Corporation, 1973. [Jan, finished]

Akiko, Yosano, et al. River of Stars: Selected Poems of Yosano Akiko. Shambhala, 1996. .[Jan 2026, finished]

Mori, Ogai. Puzyri Na Vode: Sbornik Rasskazov. Giperion, 2024. [will continue later]

Gogol, Nikolai. Karty. Netšist. Bezumije: Rasskazy Russkih Pisatelei. E, 2023. [will continue later]

Dazai, Osamu, ja Pekka Masonen. Koulutyttö. Mala Fide, 2026. [will continue later]

Izumi, K. (1996). The Holy Man of Mount Kōya (C. S. Inouye, Trans.). In C. S. Inouye (Ed. & Trans.), Japanese gothic tales (pp. 19–72). University of Hawai'i Press. (Original work published 1900) [26 March, finished]

Dostojevski, F. M. Idiot. MIF, 2024. [currently reading]

Al Husaini, Sara. Huono Tyttö. Like, 2023. [currently reading]