#maxiekin

I have very vivid visual & sensory memories as Pokemon Masters Maxie

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Can be seen as a vent? I'm placing this here, since my feelings are heavily related to my fictotype. Pokémon ORAS Cartridges have been known to randomly die or have issues that cause them to stop functioning, and I own a physical copy of Omega Ruby (my media) that I have played for 9 years now. It serves as a way for me to regulate myself, and to remain connected to something familiar. No matter how things may appear now, I still have something that mirrors home. While I do have the ability to backup my save file, and bring it over to a new copy via homebrew, it still geniunely scares me that there's a chance the cartridge could fail soon, if that doesn't seem irrational. I feel like a lot of people only see it as mildly disappointing, but for me, it's something that geniunely distresses me. It can be a bit alienating, with most discussing the cartridge failure as an annoyance, but it is geniunely my worst nightmare. It would take me months to get over, it's my connection to who I was. I noticed my copy is booting up slower than it used to, which is a large cause of these worries surfacing. I do not want to lose it.

I often think about Archie. I know I acted rather pridefully, and I detested his ideals, but I never hated him. We disagreed, but he was my dearest friend first and foremost. My ideal world always included him. To fight with him, for what we stand for, I wrongly deemed a must.