#marriege

The next day, still tired of spending the night crying and still with a hole in your heart, you put on your best smile and met Ginny and Hermione in an area of a Muggle neighborhood where there were several wedding dress stores, your plan was to buy it and take it to Diagon Alley so they could adjust it in the shortest time possible.

"Here comes the bride" Ginny commented happy to see you and Hermione smiling in the same way, you swallowed all the feelings you had inside and you put on your best face and tried to match their smiles

"Are you ready?" Hermione asked, to which you just nodded your head still smiling. About half an hour passed when they finally decided to enter a store after only looking at the windows, it was a somewhat small store compared to those around but it had an aura that caught your attention, as well as a very friendly manager, inside it you first found the perfect dresses for the bridesmaids, choosing a model that both of them and your sister fit well and in your favorite color, spending time watching how Ginny and Hermione tried on dresses made you forget a bit of your suffering, until the moment when they told you that it was time to find something for you, trying on various dresses of different cuts and designs, without completely convincing you, until you tried on "the dress", after the employee helped you put it on, you went out to the small room where your bridesmaids were waiting for you, you stood in front of the mirror but in the direction of where they were, extending your arms asking for their opinion, just seeing that dress was one of your favorites, but when you turned to look In the full-length mirror, your eyes widened in surprise, and you began to cry,the lady and your next to be sisters-in-law and friends, believed it was happiness, until they saw your face. Hermione made a small gesture to the lady to give them a moment alone, Ginny and Hermione approached from behind towards you, who now had your face in your hands, crying, they took you by the shoulders and guided towards a sofa to sit down.

"what's the matter?" Ginny asked concerned, making small circles with her hand on your back to calm you down.

"t-th-this is the dress with it you marry" you said between sobs

"I don't understand y/n" said Hermione without knowing what the problem was, you tried to calm down, wiping away the tears, taking a deep breath, you answered

"This is the dress, with which you marry, it is the dress you wear the day that should be the happiest day of your life, when you join the person you love the most in the world, it's the one you hope he sees, imagined his expression when you're getting ready, thinking what face he will make when he sees you walking down the hall towards him… this is it” Ginny and Hermione shared a look and then they fixed their eyes on you, sadly

“I know that my brother is not the person you imagined spending the rest of your life with, maybe that day is not the one you expected to be an ideal wedding, but I know my brother and I know that he cares about you, maybe you dont love him but over time things-"

"You don't understand" you interrupted, raising your voice a little "I know he cares about me, and I also know that he doesn't love me ... the problem is that, I do, I do love him" Ginny and Hermione looked at you with wide eyes while you, You would cry inconsolably again, the worst thing about a loveless marriage is a marriage when is just one side loves. It is not worth mentioning that you did not buy 'the dress' that was the closest thing to the imaginations you had when you were a child, instead you chose a dress, a nice dress like the one you thought a wedding dress should look like. After that, tired and sad you decided to go home, Ginny and Hermione didn't say anything, they just accompanied you, and you told them that you would go tomorrow to make the dress arrangements, to which they agreed not very convinced to leave you alone, but making sure you were okay, they left without asking more. Another day less than D-day, you were walking down Diagon Alley after leaving the dress for the adjustments that had to be made, not knowing where you were going, lost in your thoughts, until you could feel the presence of someone in front of you, at the fix your gaze you found yourself with blonde curls and determined eyes.

"can I talk to you?" Asked Noelle, without the energy to do it, but also without the energy to deny yourself and start a not very pleasant (by Noelle's face) 'talk' in the middle of the street, you nodded and followed her to what you imagined was her bookstore , moving to a small room that seemed to be the office she pointed out a chair for you to sit while she sat in one on the other side of the desk "you can't marry George"

"excuse me?" you said somehow surprised you had no idea she knew about the wedding, you didn't think George had told her.

"He didn't tell me, obviously he doesn't want it to be known" ouch that hurt a bit "but since he contacted me to help him find a way to break an unbreakable spell, and everything that happened afterwards, I just had to connect the dots, I've never seen someone so desperate to get out of something" ouch again "yesterday was the last time I saw him so desperate for not finding an answer"

"Is he still looking for a way out?" was the first question that came to your mind, after everything that had happened and the time that you had been together, he was still looking for a way out of the situation

"Did you know?" She asked a little confused, to which you nod "well, yeah, we are still looking for a way but there has been no luck" you nodded again looking at the wall behind her, holding the urge to burst into tears in front of the small and beautiful woman "The days we've spent together- I know I could make him really happy, that's why I'm asking you, don't marry him" you swallowed trying to undo the lump you felt in your throat.

"I can't do it" you said even without looking away from that stain on the wall in the shape of a cat, or maybe a duck, the tears that accumulated clouded your vision a bit, "you know, right? I can't break an unbreakable vow, no matter how much I want to do it, I can't" you got up from your chair and finally looked into her eyes "if I could do it, I would have done it since I found out about all this" without looking at her again, you left the place, before reaching to take the doorknob you heard a squeak from the chairs

"Still you are not going to separate us, I know that even though it was the product of an unbreakable vow, you do love him, I can see it in the way you look at him, because it's the same way that he and I look at each other" you flinch at her words, leaving from there without looking back, quickly appearing in your home. When you opened your eyes you were in the small kitchen of your apartment, you let out a breath that you did not know you were holding.

"where were you?" startled you turned to the voice that spoke to you

"Merlin, what are you doing here?"

"what? Can't I visit my fiancee?" George answered you with a wink, you just sighed closing your eyes, you didn't have the strength for this, you approached the kettle to make yourself a tea, although maybe a beer or wine would be better.

"Do you want tea, coffee or something? You asked without looking at him, you felt how arms went around your waist, and as George began to kiss your neck, closing your eyes you moved uncomfortably away from his grip. "Im not in the mood"

"Ok" George said nodding and putting distance between you, you passed him a cup of tea and went to sit in the living room, he following you and sitting next to you but putting distance between you both on the couch. "Soooo- how have you been?"

"You don't have to do that" you said looking at him from the corner of your eye"do what?" he asked with a frown"That" you made a vague gesture with your hand "look, don't you have to stay and pretend that- that you care?" George was still frowning at you "you're here for the sex, I don't wanna do it right know, so you don't have to waste your time here" you closed your eyes leaning back.

"I'm not pretending" he replied softly, you still heard him but you didn't open your eyes or say more "I'm not going to lie, I enjoy doing it with you, but that's not all why I'm here, I really care, we go to get married, maybe it is not an ideal marriage, with love and stuffs, but I care about you and I want you to be well, and when you are not, I will be there for you. He brought you closer to him and hugged you "now tell me what's wrong?" you sighed.

"I'm just tired ... too many things to prepare before the wedding" you looked at him sideways and gave him a half smile

"I know, me too, I just hope this happens quickly"

"I guess it should be fun" you shrugged "when someone expects to get married look for even the smallest detail ... I don't know ... it must be cute" George replied with a little "hmm", "well maybe the next wedding will be different"

"We are not married yet and are you thinking of getting married again?" George said jokingly

"I didn't say that with you" you also answered jokingly

"So all this time the plan to assassinate me to break the vow?" he said pretending a little but a little serious too, you just shrugged your shoulders unable to contain your laughter, to which he also laughed afterwards

"Speaking of the vow ..."

"What about the vow?" You didn't know how to ask

"You ... you and Noelle ..." George looked at you with wide eyes waiting for you to finish "this time ... you? Is she with whom have you been these days?" you looked at everyone but his eyes, George frowned and replied

"Yes" you kept staring at nothing, trying to hide the pain you felt inside "I'm sorry" you shrugged "I tried, but couldn't find any way around this" you frowned

"what?" confused you asked

"Yes, we looked in every book, with no luck"

"Wait, all this time you were still looking for a way to cut the vow?" now he was looking at you with a frown

"Yes, I said I would, do you remember we both said we would?" you shrugged your shoulders

"Well yes, but I guess I didn't think as hard as you" you didn't know whether to feel relief, at least he hadn't said that he was spending time with Noelle in another way, well he didn't say it directly, but there is what she said, besides after everything that had happened, he was still looking for a way to avoid everything. You felt how the knot in your stomach twisted more, you closed your eyes and rubbed your temples with your fingertips

"are you okay?" he said confused

"Yes ... thanks for trying ... I guess" this last part you said in an almost inaudisible whisper that if George heard you he didn't say anything

"I guess we'll have to get married" George said after a while.

The following days passed in the same way, George and you began to spend more time together, more than anything having sex, a lot of sex, the thing was that it was not  enough for you, not only did you want to be acquaintances who have sex and are forced to get married, but you weren't brave enough to ask for more, you were afraid that if you spoke and asked what was this that was happening between the two of you, the bubble would burst and everything would be ruined again, and you were afraid with good reasons.      

After being together George would leave in the middle of the night or early in the morning, when you saw him he acted as if nothing had happened, being friendly and somewhat flirtatious, but you felt as if something was missing, obviously if he had sex with you it is because he felt attraction to you, but there was not that complicity and affection that you thought he had for you before the engagement party happened, yet you tried to send those thoughts to the back of your mind and focus on what you had, if this was the only thing he could offer you, you would take it with pleasure, well you thought that.      

One day you woke up with the sun coming through your window, you felt that George was still next to you, which surprised you because as you said before he was never there when you woke up, you closed your eyes enjoying the moment, opening them suddenly turning to see the clock that was on your table next to your bed.          

"Shit, I'm going to be late" you pushed the hand that George had on your waist and got up quickly from the bed, George only opened his eyes seeing you still somewhat asleep, when you wanted to walk your tired legs could not support and you fell to the ground, and all he did was laugh. "Shut up, this is all your fault" the night before you two had a drinks and went to bed a little late, and after that there was a lot of physical activity       

"Yes it is" he said with a cocky smile, sitting on the bed        

"Help me" you yelled at him and he got up rolling his eyes, you wanted him to help you just get up, but he took you in his arms bride style and took you to the bathroom       

"You need help here" he said with his stupid half smile        

"No" you answered blushing, despite all the things you had done it still made you nervous, you pushed him towards the door "you're going to be late too, hurry up"        

"Right, then we better take a quick shower" he said, lifting you from the waist and getting into the shower opening it, you still had his shirt with which you had slept and  he was only in his boxers        

"George" you screamed when you felt the water on you, he just shrugged and took off his underwear, you embarrassed turned to your back       

"You know you've seen everything right?" I ask you       

"It's different" you could feel your face burning and it wasn't from the shower water        

"Well, I'm going to turn around so I won't see you and you can take off my shirt, you don't want to be late" I was very close to you so that the water from the shower would wet them both so you felt when he turned around, you were very ashamed but if not you moved you would arrive very late to work, so you took off his already soaked shirt        

"Can you pass me the shampoo" you said, extending your hand towards him, after a moment you felt the bottle in your hands        

 "soap?" George asked you, since it was on the side in front of you, you took it and passed it to him, while you were rubbing and removing the shampoo from your hair,          you could quickly hear him hum a song quietly, how could he be so calm, you thought, when you were going to ask him for the soap you felt like hands soaped your body,        

"George" you screamed again scared "you said you wouldn't look"       

"I lied" he said while hugging your waist and gently biting the skin of your neck, which made you shiver, you relaxed a little on his chest feeling his hands run over  your body "let's do it quickly" you felt his hand go down dangerously to your crotch which brought you out of the trance quickly separating you from him       

"We are going to be late" you turned to look into his eyes of course, if you looked at him in all his splendor you knew that you could not resist his pleas        

  "But we've never done it in the shower" he said with a pout which made you laugh        

"Another day, okay?"                    

"Promise?" he said to you like a small child, to which you laughed and nodded "fine, let's finish this super boring shower" after that everything happened quickly but before everyone went to their daily activities, George approached you "open your hand" he said extending his to you, you extended his towards him but you did not open your fist, looking at him with doubt "it's a joke? Are you going to put a frog or some slug in my hand?" George laughed slowly and shook his head, you opened your hand and put something very light on it, you looked at your palm and there was a ring, it was simple just a thin golden wedding band, it was still the most beautiful thing you had seen in your life, you looked at him doubtful what that meant, he just shrugged and said "So no one else will ever doubt that you are engaged" you smiled seeing him, you knew that he did not promise anything else, that with that he did not swear eternal love and that perhaps he did not have loving feelings towards you, it hurt a little more however nothing could erase the smile that you had all day on your face.                        

The next three nights George did not show up at your apartment which seemed strange to you since since the engagement party he had spent almost every night with you, but you had very little time to worry, your mothers filled you with questions about things for the wedding, more that nothing, who would be your bridesmaids of which you were already sure, your sister, Ginny and Hermione, but you still had to decide on their dresses and most importantly your dress, there was little less than a week left until the wedding day. So you have a lot of things to think about and you didn't want to stress about George's absence, he was probably busy with work, anyway you decided to go to his store the next day, when you entered the store you didn't see George anywhere, so you approached Fred who was supplying merchandise.                        

"If he's not my favorite twin" you said with a smile on his face to which he turned to see you                        

"To bad you have to marry the other dude" both of you laughed at this "are you looking for George?"                        

"Well, I just wanted to know if he was okay, I haven't seen him for a few days" you said looking at your shoes.                        

"He's been busy," said Fred nervously, scratching his head and without looking into your eyes, you were going to ask him what was wrong when you heard the door open and laughs, you knew those laughs, you turned your head and there were George and Noelle, you didn't know where they came from but it seemed like they were having fun, even if it didn't mean anything, even knowing that George had never given you any indication that he felt anything for you, but at that moment you felt like someone was crushing your heart and you started to feel like the tears formed in your eyes, you blinked to drive them away, you had to stop looking at them, it hurt too much but you couldn't take your eyes off until you saw how Noelle hugged his arm and he did nothing to separate her, you turned to where Fred who was also watching the scene in amazement,he shook his head looking at you in a way justifying his twin, you could feel how the tears began to come out of your eyes, which you closed tightly, Fred wrapped his arms around you and you felt how you two appeared in another place, how he sat you next to him in a couch and how he did not stop hugging you while you were crying, he just hugged you without saying anything until you couldn't cry anymore and you separated from him.                        

"Thank you" he just put a hand on your shoulder and smiled sadly.       

"I'm sorry" he replied and you shook your head and a smile that did not reach your eyes, you said goodbye with a wave and appeared at your apartment.                        

Fred came down to the store again, he thought George was really in love with you, in the last few days he had seen him smile more than normal, George had always been a happy person, but after the war he had become a little more withdrawn, when he heard the news of his marriage he was in a bad mood but now he looked happier like his old  self.                        

"What are you doing looking at nothing?" George's voice brought him out of his thoughts.                        

 "Eh?" was the only thing he could answer, to which his brother looked at him with a frown.                        

 "Was it my imagination or y//n was with you?" He said it in a normal way but there was a slight annoying tone in his voice, if it had been someone else he might not have noticed it but he knew his twin like the back of his hand.                        

"Yes, we talked a little" answered Fred and continue working in the store, George however was not satisfied and followed him.                    

"So, you usually talk hugging people" at this Fred just rolled his eyes and continued to arrange the merchandise.                        

"Well, she felt bad and stressed, she has a lot of things on her and is what a person does for someone they care about, you know, being there for them" he shrugged,                        

George turned ready to go see you but Fred knowing what he thought he spoke. "I don't think it's a good idea, she feels bad and said she wanted to be alone" George stopped and changed course towards the office behind the store, he felt very bad, have you seen him with Noelle?, yes he had been going out with her a little more but he had his reasons and it did not mean anything serious, yours was something serious, right?, you had never talked about it but it was something more than just sex, right?                        

You spent the whole afternoon at home watching horror movies that always helped cheer you up, but when you started crying the moment the demon start to stalk protagonists you knew that nothing could lift your spirits in those moments, so you just let everything out by looking at the ring that meant nothing to one but meant everything to the other. In the end you decided to sleep tomorrow you would have a busy day with Ginny and Hermione, tomorrow you would have the last thing you need for your wedding, for a life in marriage loving someone who did not love you back.                        

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