I think my quest over the last few years to beat sadness has made good progress.  Maybe my name on here should change.

But I feel very alone.  I love my wife and my life, but as I sit in a coffee shop and watch couples engage, I long to be touched and wanted.  I don’t get that.  I know she loves me and our family, but I miss that feeling of youth when your lover just needs to touch you, to feel you.  I mean we make love, but is she really that into me like years ago?  no.

My desires are blown off as just my being “male”.  I cannot believe how much my needs and wants are seen as not important.  Any other guys know what I am saying?

I am learning this is what life has dealt the middle aged guy.  Reduced to not important to the women they love. 

This feeling of lonely I cannot share with anyone.  It hurts. To fight it or to leave or to cheat makes me the bad one.  

We heard of a husband who left his wife and kids.  Everyone called him a jerk.  I wondered, did his wife fuck him with passion ever in the last few years?  But society wont let us ask that question at a dinner party.

if my wife was more into having sex with me I would be pretty content overall.

I realize after talking to a friend in same boat that if sex life at home was more robust, I could deal with a lot of the other issues that plague me.  

Yeah, I have some slight bi feelings, but when younger and getting laid a lot I never even thought about it. 

Satisfying sex seems to heal a lot of the problems of the world.