#mariem

Well, you're right. The ride will end. The girl sitting across you in the train will leave at one of the next stations. She does have a life you know. You heard her telling her friend how her mobile got broken and until she gets it fixed, she'll call that friend from that number. She will go home. She'll make sure that her father doesn't need anything and she'll fight with her mother over this shirt she loves but which her mother absolutely hates. She will go to someone who could fix her mobile and while she's waiting to take it back, she'd think about her dream for so long.she'd think that this way it's part of her reality. Her dream that she never shared with anyone was to build a factory for toys. Her little brother, who died of cancer when she was twelve, loved toys so much. She never got over how she couldn’t make his world full of the only thing he seemed to love. She never forgot. She will take her mobile, fixed and she'd run back to her home. She'd open the television to the boy who lived. She would watch as eagerly as she was watching it the first time. She loves how close it hits home every time. How some days she feels like she is the girl who lived. The film will end, she remembered a task from work. She'll hurry to do it. She doesn't like things done in a hurry so she better starts earlier to take her time. In the middle of her work, she'd remembered her only friend. The only friend she ever trusted and to whom she barely talks now. She realizes it has been a few months since she thought of her. What her friend did was not easy though. You see, the girl sitting across you has loved before. Twice. Has been broken in consequence way more times. The first time, she said she was young and couldn't tell truths from lies. The second time looked so safe she didn’t want to not trust. She didn’t want to expect the bad. She wanted  to believe her heart not her mind. Turns out she should have expected the bad because that's what happened. Her friend called her a slut for that. For falling in love just like that. They never talked after that time. So e things just end this way, you know. The moment words can do no good. The moment no action can be of use. They never talked and she never said to anyone how she can't think she could ever love again. Seeing that people who have faith in live are called names, she didn’t want to try another time. She has been working ever since. Might sound stupid or childish but her life did change. Her spirits were never the same. It was not love taken away from her but the ability to do something without much thought. And just like anything, it did have its pros and cons. However, she's still figuring it all out. As by the end of the day, like every day, she'll sit next to her light bulb and she'd think what is in the change for her. She still hasn't figured herself out. In brief, don't talk to her unless you really want to know. Unless you are ready to be a part of.. this.