#maliciouslyyours

their laughters,

their subtle smiles,

their “i know” direct gaze,

their attention that doesn’t rip you off,

but instead calms you down,

its beautiful how people can become

your reason to smile,

and to help you believe that you are not half bad,

for how i seem so distant, so different from the world

he knows,

of how i speak up, and how i shout,

but what about when he sees me crying, weeping on the floor,

to know is to hurt,

everyone sees how the strong are strong,

but nobody can see how it aches to know,

oh he loves me right now,

because all he sees is the glitters around my cracks,

and the dazzle that i sprinkle every morning on me,

but what he doesnt see is the scream that i let out,

every morning i mourn what i have become,

to lose your innocence and find what the world really is,

oh he loves me right now,

if they have eyes of an executioner or a lover,

you let them walk towards you,

you let them take you,

because it has been a long time since you have been touched with passion,

human touch is a poison,

and so i turned numb,

but somehow the only constant of mine

is the horror of loving you,

it travelled to the other side

and now all i have left in me is you,