#loved.

not even halfway through but I just know that han sooyoung is the creator- the author- of it all. and with that knowledge, i propose the idea of joonghyuk with freckles and moles and kissed so lovingly by the sun. because think about it. han sooyoung created every part of yoo joonghyuk. his existence is literally created from her hand, her mind, the words she put in text. so imagine as she stares at him, noticing how under the sun freckles have begun to form, a flush she knows she never put into words, moles underneath his right eye and nape (and more, hidden under layers of black), his hair curling in a way she doesn’t remember writing. do you think she’d feel relief? do you think that her guilt- because I just know she shoulders it, even if I’ve yet to read it- would lessen by just a little? because even though he was born from her hand to serve the world, serve the damned, doomed, narrative, atleast some part of him is just. his.

anyway one of the best things that happened to me during the last 4 months was visiting hadrian’s villa in tivoli and thinking about “memoirs of hadrian” while walking through the ruins while listening to ‘jenny of oldstones’