#loss protocol

insanely sexy of jb to make the zine available for free <3 thank u bestie

“I felt an abject unconcern that only comes when there is nothing left to dread, when you find yourself in a cycle of failure so inevitable that it might as well become deliberate. In the addiction literature I read later — desperately, begrudgingly— I learned this is not an uncommon feeling. I found there was a twisted delight in self-obliteration, a relief in the voluntary surrender. It was a shred of power, bleak but gratifying, the kind grasped for when a person’s only recourse against the absurd helplessness of living becomes the ability to destroy their life completely, willingly.”

Julien's Loss Protocol zine is back in the shop!!