#learnedoptimism

To give birth to oneself. I believe that's when you arrive at a point of self-actualization when everything you have allowed yourself to absorb arm you with the authority to decide for yourself what you want to be. And I say those words with all the gravity of their meanings. Decide for yourself what you want to be in terms of forming your mental helmets as how you define yourself in yourself. That whatever criticism or unluckiness the world may throw at you, you remain unwavering of who you are, taking no insults at these randomness. The mass mindset may not understand this but proving the validity of your view is just a waste of energy unless the view you need to prove serves a purpose in your favor. And we need all the favor we can get from people to wiggle through as rebels in this world of closed systems and soul-crushing mechanisms. The conflict you feel the most important to resolve is the conflict within yourself. You have learned that by cracking into this, you learn how to mirror yourself to and from people and you have learned close to accurate how this form of brain picking is, and you begin to comprehend the big picture of biological "robothood" and you understand the underpinnings of most human behaviors, which makes you kinder, much more patient, and most of all, humble. It's a form of freedom you have discovered to have the easiest access to. And you want to share to everyone this calmness and sense of oneness with the universe. 

Going back to common ideas of iconic religious men, it made me realize that this was what Jesus could have been talking about. How he is the father, the son, and the holy spirit had me speculating that your old self is the father, your self-actualized self is the son, and your cosmic sense of oneness with the universe is the holy spirit. I have always believed that these religious inscriptions were all metaphors of some kind of truth that the earlier people had a hard time to express because of the then-limitations of language. I believe Jesus alongside other religious men achieved this state of selfhood. 

But what happens next? You believe you need to spread this gift of thinking and living to people. But you just can't go out and babble words other people's consciousness are unable YET to comprehend. You would, of course, be labeled as mad. So like any other deceiving religious fuckhead, you utilize your knowledge of the world to "manipulate" people into seeing how you see the world. You use yourself as a mirror to them and this is  parallel to a form of crucifixion - you sacrifice yourself as a mirror in which other people can recognize their own humanity and hopefully improve themselves and climb higher the ladder of self-actualization.