#lawri

...Anywways meet my bartender guyyy. He runs a bar similar to the Baratie but it like floats around the New World and moves locations a lot. And most of his customers are pirates

Yeah idk go forth enjoy some doodles

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Every Day She Makes Me Read Words: A Love Language For The Weirdos

it makes sense to me that when im saying things they're literally thoughts from my head just whatevers going on there.

which is chaos

so i don't think im always good at making words with my mouth idk

it's the anxiety that controls the lack of impulse control so i might try many times until i find the right way to say it?

and that's the one good thing my anxiety does for me

unfortunately im not anxious right now tetrahydrocannabinol my beloved<3

but i think i have this dgaf attitude too and that's another weird thing about me

so like i want people to not be scared of telling me what's what

but maybe that doesn't sound like believable enough because

people lie

and i dont wanna be too black and white about it

because there's different types

but i literally never think about it.

like this is why I'm naive because i will literally believe anything from trusted people like why would they lie what's the motive right

no not be an asshole in the name of Brutal Honesty i think there's such thing as being kind? gentle? tactful? diplomatic? but

still straightforward as in

i cannot read between the lines. in fact i don't know why anyone should have to. i mean it's not a "ok here's a hint do you get me" like, thats something completely different in my head

can you imagine how much easier it would make life like cmon i know its particularly bad in this godforsaken island but why it be like that who's got the time i can barely read the lines lmao

like,

the opposite problem when something is obvious to me but somehow not obvious to others?

like it's always better to know something so you're not left wondering? questions? in your head? even if the thing is not good news?

yesterday after a long conversation alex says what the real problem is, ok, got it, sorry. if he'd said that earlier it would have saved us a lot of trouble lmao it's an unmovable object baby

anyway

this is just something I would call common sense

why we upset each other if we can just. not. help me understand you. i can help you understand me.

why am i the only one who thinks and behaves this way

what can I do so that this isn't a problem for me