#last move

I’m holding on to the last piece of hope I haveIt’s time to make the final moveI’m not the loser, neither am I a winnerPart of me is slowly giving upThe other part keeps fightingI don’t think this is a battle she’ll winThere’s me, my conscious and my tired heartI want to help, I doBut at whose expense?Lord, please let me do what’s rightI whisper and sighMy throat is as dry as my flaky bonesI…

I’m someone who is, to put it  mildly, comfortable in routine. Set in my ways, stuck-in-the-mud, your choice. So when my cult owners told me they wanted me out of my apartment, where I have lived for 13 years, it felt like a throat-punch. They offered me a settlement to break the lease. Naturally, I countered and after a few shuffle steps, they agreed. Now I’m kicking myself -- they would have gone much higher. Still and all, a low five-figure bonus for me.

But then there’s the problem of where to go. My apartment has been decorated and furnished over the years to resemble a Field & Stream dream cabin. Very comfortable, and did I mention it’s huge? Three bedrooms, 10 foot ceilings, hardwood floors, the typical Montreal charmer.

So I started on the internet search and quickly became dispirited. Small places, half the size of mine, priced at 50% higher than what I’m paying. I visited about a half-dozen and got more depressed with each one. I decided to walk through my chosen neighbourhood just to see what’s available but not listed. I sat on a bench in a small park for a rest and what do I see? A stately grande dame of a building with a sign on the door. I figured ‘nothing to lose’ and dialed the number.

Long story short, I went to see it today and signed a lease within ten minutes. It’s probably even bigger than  my current apartment, lots of character, same high ceilings and hardwood, in a great neighbourhood, with a heated garage space complete with remote control, all for an extra $100. I underpaid the market rate for about the last ten years, so I guess I can live with it.

The Inner Command Says Move Again- Seamus Heaney.

  Seamus Heaney

“Even if the last move did not succeed, the inner command says move again.” Seamus Heaney

Move again, failure is not the end,

success must be the end;

respond to a positive inner command

and not the voice to quit;

wear positive self-affirmations as an armband

the worst is over, it can only get better from here.

Ostatni ruch | Last move 

Last Move by Domenick (Boy in the Rain)

*sighs* I totally posted in the wrong place.