#kunselkin

so, of course, when we were like 15, zack was once out of commission for two whole days because he wanted to make his eyes glow for a full minute.

(and no, he did not succeed. he hit maybe 15 seconds, which was still impressive. and i know he would've kept trying if angeal hadn't given him hell for it lmao) -kunsel, ff7

i don't think i ever actually properly met the man, mostly just saw him from afar and was vaguely aware of who he was, but barret wallace can GET IT 👀👀👀👌👌👌👌 -kunsel, ff7

like. ok, after the plate fell, i hauled my ass down to the remains of the sector 7 slums because i joined SOLDIER in the first place to *fucking help people* so after a minor emotional breakdown/confession after finding zhijie to be alive and ok (... as ok as someone can be after that), i stuck around to help out the survivors from sector 7. and just kinda.. decided to not go back to shinra. because how the fuck would i be able to stomach going back to work there when they just killed thousands of their own citizens in one fell swoop.

and i would still get all the shinra update emails, whether that be about the movements of "the avalanche fugitives" (aka cloud's group) and the plans/orders to apprehend them or the president's death and rufus's subsequent promotion. and i would keep getting all these emails pretty until shinra crumbled.

like, granted, it wasn't like i announced that i was leaving or anything, i did literally just leave and not go back, but. after everything that happened with the 1sts, shinra kept a pretty tight leash on members of SOLDIER, so under normal circumstances i would have been, at best, dragged kicking and screaming back to the company.

so hey cloud (and company), thanks for being such a pain in shinra's ass that they didn't even notice me straight up deserting. -kunsel, ff7

and. why did they change the pronunciation of my name between 7 remake and cc reunion. did they just forget that it was already said out loud, or did they just decide "ACTUALLY,"

(for the record, at least for me, it was with an "oo" sound, like the nameless infantryman says in in 7 remake, not the "uh" sound that i say in cc reunion) -kunsel, ff7

not watching the state of play trailer bc square enix just loves spoiling major plot shit the closer to release their games get,

that said people on twitter aren't tagging shit from that trailer so-

WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN CISSNEI'S BACK?????? LIKE I'M SUPER HAPPY, I LOVE HER TO DEATH, BUT SHE JUST VANISHED FOR ME AND NOW IN REBIRTH SHE'S JUST ROLLING BACK IN??????? CISSNEI CAN YOU *PLEASE* JUST LET A GUY KNOW YOU'RE OK NEXT TIME I WAS WORRIED SICK -kunsel, ff7

i really like the new outfit, cissnei. it suits you. it's good to see you in something other than your uniform

legit i think i might be the only person that cares about him and it blows 😭 i've mentioned before that we were fwbs and also i was his squad's main inside informant on internal shinra business, but he was also genuinely one of the only people i felt close to, especially after zack disappeared. like, as far as people i went so far as to actually consider friends... it was pretty much just zack, cissnei, and zhijie. and of those three zhijie is the only one that didn't just up and vanish one day.

i... hope he knew how much he meant to me. i really don't know what i would've done without him. i remember him saying he'd like to take me back to wutai with him, once i cut ties with shinra and deserted. i remember thinking it'd be really nice to have a life with him there... we did really bad at the "no romantic feelings" part of the friends with benefits arrangement. i really love him. -kunsel, ff7