#kjswrite

I hope reincarnation is real, because one lifetime with you could never be enough.

Memories, like wine, can get better with age. Oh, but I guess even fine wine can be poison.

Can you miss someone you've never met? Long for something you've never had? Feel nostalgia for a place you've never lived? Regret a decision you've never made? Because I'd like to know what this is if you can't.

Ah, to fall in love with strangers, this must be what they mean by bittersweet.

I hope you never have someone look at you as something that was. Like the stars you walked on are now just broken pieces of concrete. Like the music of your voice is now out of tune. Like the brightness of your smile is now common place.  I hope you're never treated like you're not enough. Like you make the day longer than it should be. Like there's something better waiting just around the corner. I hope you never feel the way you made me feel. Like I was supposed to rearrange the stars but made them go out instead. Like I made the butterflies in your stomach die with summer.  I hope you know you deserve the world and every good thing it contains, even you made it clear that didn't include me.

I don't believe in soulmates or matches made in heaven.  I don't believe in true love or that it can conquer all.  I don't believe in happily ever afters or honeymoon phases.  I don't. I really don.t I don't, because I know none of that is real.  But damn if you don't make me question everything I know.

There's something out there. Something grand, something life changing. It's just within my grasp. I've just got to step over the ledge, into the unknown. I've never been much of a risk taker though.

Update + Apology