#kiptalk

"[intro]"

there's a long, sustained chord on an organ and some piano chords

edit: i forgot to mention the fact that the organ is usually a church instrument, further implicating christian ideology in the movie project hail mary

very awesome thanks christians 👎🏻👎🏻👎🏻👎🏻

audio leaks in from a high note on the piano

as someone who deeply enjoys movie cliches sometimes, it reminds me of when characters wake up all groggy and confused

it reminds me of when people wake up to the sound of a heart monitor

the note the second line begins on isn't really expected to be that note, and i'm thinking it's not actually in the key

upon further inspection, it's an accidental

it's a pretty common theme in the song, and it's kind of jazz-blues-y to me

it's a pretty common theme that grace isn't trained or cut out for space

reminds me of this post (please tag creator or share link if you know what i'm talking about [i can't find it]) where this person mentions how the other astronauts wear yellow uniforms under their jackets and he wears it on the outside, almost like he's literally wearing his heart on his sleeve

now that you (i) mention it, i think that post was on twitter

i don't have twitter

the only twitter i have is under my first name and is only to look at p!links or to metaphorically stalk people

anyway

the accidental note

i think it diminishes the chord? it makes the chord weird. and it soothes out so naturally over the course of the song

wow haha wow how the fuck did killers pop that bad boy out

"when there's no where else to run"

grace running away obviously

but also how they believed he had no real purpose on earth because he wasn't very important

makes me think about that post about the "you don't even have a dog" (@melandrops) like that proved that he hadn't a purpose on earth and that sending him into space wouldn't be too bad because of it

makes me think a lot about humanity and my needs and desire just to live as a person even though some people (millionaires, billionaires, rich people, the government, my boss) see me as way less, though still providing a benefit to them

what i mean is, ants are in my house. they don't do much other than take crumbs. i personally don't care for them because they're just ants. but the ants know that i provide their food, some of their home, water, and other benefits. the ants understand that i'm a person of means and give, and they probably know that i don't care about them

that doesn't make them any less of a child of god

not religious btw but i might as well ref christianity if i'm talking about a movie called project hail mary

"is there room for one more son? one more son"

so i've always heard this line is "sun" instead of "son," but it can work both ways

the note "is there room for one" starts on an accidental, much like how ryland grace's space exploration was not his idea and kind was an accident

on his part

it resolves in "one more son?" and continues to resolve in the second, more spoken as a statement than a question, "one more son"

is there room for one more son? for one more person on board? for one more person in the meeting? is there room for another of god's lambs? is there room for me, ryland grace?

is there room for one more sun? is there room to save our own? to save erid? is there room for the savior of the sun? for the saving of our sun?

is there room for the saving of our sun? of our son?

or must we eject him from our planet in order to save it?

will space allow an outsider, a science teacher, into their threshold

will astronauts count him as a man of discovery, science, exploration, and problem-solving? will space allow someone who didn't want to be there? will the international board meeting allow some dude into their conference to solve their problems?

is there pride in what he's doing? is anyone prideful of him? should he be expect congratulations and pride? does he know people are proud of him?

is he revered in the eyes of the people or perhaps the eyes of god?

does he believe he should be revered?

"if you can hold on / if you can hold on, hold on"

the beat arrives

welcome beat

i always heard it as "if you can't hold on, hold on," which, in my mind, meant to defy what you know you can and can't do in a way that reroutes it and aims for a similar goal

which is what grace does

if you can hold on, hold on

please keep me, ryland grace, close, humanity (people on earth [i do not want to leave])

please keep me, humanity (the concept of humanity and the qualities of a person), close, ryland grace

remember you are a person with a purpose

it's a little far to go home now, so might as well go shoot for the stars and kill their killer

definitely reminds me of him writing out who he on a white board was to wake him up from amnesia

"i wanna stand up, i wanna let go"

i, ryland grace, want to do for humanity what is necessary

i want to help the world and save people and save the world and worlds beyond my own

i want to let go of my cowardice in order to help you, world

"you know, you know"

1st "you know"

stratt knows she has to because she wants the same thing for the world and the stars

2nd "you know"

grace knows that this is a cause he lowkey believes in and he wants the same thing for the world and the stars

"no, you don't, you don't"

i, eva stratt, know damn well you are not fit for this (not like it'll stop me from launching you to heaven)

i, ryland grace, know that i am not what it takes for this mission and for this entire operation

you don't understand that i, ryland grace, want and need to stay down here

no matter how dedicated i am to this case, i don't want to go

find someone else please i'm begging you

but your begs will go nowhere ryland grace

"i wanna shine on, in the hearts of men"

i want to be revered for this

i want to be known, to be respected, to be praised, to be prided and proud

if i, ryland grace, have to go out to the world like this, i want to be remembered even if you, eva stratt, think i have nothing to my name

they need to know that i went down with a fight and with reluctance because they need to know that it was that big of a damn deal that they had to pick a teacher from the streets off his bike to throw into oblivion

they need to know that it was that serious and it will always be that serious

that the one human life, that the one individual vote, that the one kick to a stone, that the one gust of wind from that one butterfly,

it is all that serious

in the eyes of man, the 8 billion or something humans

in the eyes of god and his creations, his infinitely expanding magnum opera

"i want a meaning from the back of my broken hand"

i will fight for my right not to go

i will fight for this cause i'm being kidnapped for

but, like i, ryland grace said, i will not go down without a fight, whether it be the process of being ejected into space, the pride, purpose, and progress that one human can achieve, and the representation of that (in spite of people who think they have the right to send you to space because you comparatively have much less going on and much less to give and benefit bigger corporations, like Big Science or the government)

i will give myself a meaning and a remembrance and an honor even if i have to do it through blood, sweat, and tears

"another head aches, another heart breaks"

another star is dying

what will happen if you, ryland grace, don't go out there and fuck it up for earth

what will happen if i, ryland grace, don't go out there and fuck it up for earth

for the universe

people will get hurt and die

i, ryland grace, have to do something

i guess

i lowkey have no choice

COMMON THEME!!!

i have no choice, so might as well make it the best damn opportunity i'm given and do my best!!!

"i'm so much older than i can take"

i can't do this i, ryland grace, am literally just a school teacher

fahhhhh

doubt about his abilities

eva stratt, you see things in me that i'm not even sure are there

thank you, eva stratt, for believing in me so bad you put me in A Situation

"and my affection, well, it comes and goes"

i'm not actually sure?

aroace grace believers hmu i gues

i think of it as the ambiguity of what he wants for the world and what he wants for himself

big big thing in humanity to sacrifice a little bit for the greater good and the greater of those around you

also big in communism?

i, ryland grace, need to sacrifice some stuff for the greater good

i, humanity and eva stratt, need to sacrifice someone for this cause

please don't let it be me, ryland grace

i understand we have to send someone up, but please send someone up with competence

"i need direction to perfection, no no no no"

i need help

why, yao li-jie and olesya ilyukhina, must you leave me?

i need someone who knows what they're doing because i, ryland grace, sure as shit dont

maybe that's what we need: someone who doesn't know what they're doing

reminds me of how sometimes scientists find Ancient Stuff and they don't know what it is, but upon consulting someone of the arts, it becomes clear its purpose

much like this dodecahedron thing with prongs on it that historians and scientists believed was a religious item until an older woman used it to knit something

they need something not entirely fit for the subject of the matter for the sake of the other worldy experiences they have that can help them on their mission

too much faith in someone with not enough experience grace thinks

enough faith in someone we know got this (just enough) stratt thinks

"no no no no" and then straight into the chorus is like his process of being evicted into the shuttle

the last memories he had of going into space were of denial

"help me out, yeah"

i, ryland grace, am asking you to be on my side about this

i need you to help my case

i, ryland grace, do not want to go

i need someone in space with me

i need guidance i can't do this alone

hi rocky!!!

rocky and grace save stars

AND AND AND!!!

they together!! helping each other out!!! YEAH!!!

"you know you gotta help me out, yeah"

stratt says

send one person out into oblivion to save the nations

yes that one person had a good life and doesn't want to go BUT so does everyone else on earth

you have to do this for earth

its such a hard thing to verbalize as me, op, the juxtaposition between knowing you have to be a sacrifice to save your people and to want personal comfort and to life your own damn life

juxtaposition between the people's faith in you and your faith in yourself

you know what you can and can't do, and i guess some people also see things you can and can't do as well, whether you realize that you can do those things or not

"oh, don't put me on the back burner (nooo)"

they did put him on the back burner tbh

he probably interprets this as them not caring for his life and using him as a global savior however undocumented, not remembered, and not given credit where it's due

sympathizing with the other side, it's probably clear that this is the best they could do

obviously it doesn't feel like that because why did you send a teacher into space for some reason

but in the grand scheme of things, this was the right thing to do

"you know you gotta help me out, yeah"

rocky hi rocky

lets work together and solve this problem!

you, grace, have to help me, rocky, out

you, rocky, have to help me, grace, out

we, grace and rocky, can do this TOGEHTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"and when there's nowhere else to run"

lol reminds me of grace's ship running away from rocky's

it also reminds me of them spinning together

that made me so happy

one of the greatest, most cinematic, most intimate things you can do with someone is to spin together and literally watch everything around you turn into a blur

and your head gets light and so does theirs

and you are reminded you are doing this together

"this" general statement for many things if not everything

"is there room for one more son?"

lol rocky invading his ship

"rocky my hand is up"

is there room for one more friend?

is there room for one more dog post mortem your previous?

is there room for a new spouse after being widowed?

is there room for skin to cover the wound?

is there room for one more sun?

is there time to save my, rocky's, sun as well?

is there time to save my planet?

is there room for one more adventure? with me, rocky?

"these changes ain't changing me / the cold hearted boy i used to be"

i, ryland grace, am still a person

i still have humanity live and thriving in me

yes i'm going through changes BUT have you considered i'm still ryland grace from earth and that i'm still on my mission to save the stars

reminds me of this post by @breya-etherium-shaper about being multiplied by 1 and being the same though a process has occured

cross-referencing tumblr on tumblr is such a chud thing to do

fuck

anyway

yes hes spiritually a different person BUT spiritually he's still the same guy

everyone is the same person they were when they were five

processes have occurred and maybe you dont look, act, or sound the same but that's still you!

it's you!

despite everything, it's still you.

from undertale

"you know you gotta help me out, yeah"

rocky you have to help me, ryland grace

ryland grace, you have to help me, rocky

no lead in this time

it goes straight to it

last time there was the denial aspect and now he's over it

i, ryland grace, just need help

it's too far to go back now, so i might as well get help from you, rocky

"you're gonna bring yourself down, yeah / you're gonna bring yourself down, yeah / you're gonna bring yourself down"

beat dies and repetition begins

oughhhh i love repitition

if i, ryland grace, am gonna get this done, and if i can't come back, i might as well die trying

i will bring myself down and tear apart what i have left of me to save this

fuck

maybe i will become a shell of who i once was

but i am still a teacher

i am still a human

i am still a dude

despite EVERYTHING, it's still me, ryland grace

reluctance

this is the absolute apex of the song

i believe this is the bridge

guhhhhhhhh

if you care to listen to the song, it begins as the lead singer singing quietly to himself almost

then people join him

this is people! this is humanity! its to come together for one great cause

regardless if youre a human or not!!! connection exists and can transcend race and species!!!!!

i am not cut out for this says grace

we can be not cut out together!!! says the world

beat returns as a gradual crescendo

if you care to notice, it's not even

one line lasts a measure, and there's eight measures of "i got soul, but i'm not a soldier"

there's two left at the end that aren't accounted for in a 4-measure phrase

the first of the two begins the next phrase

the second continues to draw and drag out

beat returns in the first and takes the lead in the drag after the second

the beat's return is what brings it back to the next and final chorus

might as well take your ineptitude and run with it because your ineptitude is what keeps you human

your faults and your lies and your fakes and your inconsistencies are what make you real

you are your own checks and balances

with the help of you friendly neighboring eridian we can achieve great things

this is all we need!!!

this is all we have!!!

we have all the time in the universe to figure this out yet we have to do things in such a constrained amount of time or fuck all else

30 years until the sun dies and such a limited amount of time until rocky's ship desintigrates

we have the truth, the answers, and the process to save our suns and stars

this is gettting kinda corny almost like it wasn't corny to begin with!!!!!!!

we know who we are!!! we have woken up from amnesia!!!!

we can do this!!!!!!

we have the love to motivate us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love you rocky

i love you grace

i love you earth

i love you erid

when movies do that parallelism thing where the events of the beginning of the movie mirror the end of the movie post-climax to describe the similarities and differences in the start and finish

agh i'm the same but a process has occurred

"over and in, last call for sin"

final stretch

we got this!!!! we made it!!!!

"while everyone's lost, the battle is won"

i knew we could do it

i knew you could do it says eva stratt

i knew you could do it says the world

i knew you could do it says erid

i knew you could do it says earth

i knew you could do it says rocky

i knew you could do it says ryland grace

"with all these things that i've done"

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