(This is a pasted reblog I made back in June where I wrote my own personal analysis of “Kinda I Want To” I thought it deserved its own individual post)
Before I get into it I’m gonna clarify right now pretty much all my interpretations on PHM are tied to how I view TDS narrative, so I’ll be referring to the protagonist and his girlfriend
I view PHM as a look into the protagonist’s relationship with his girlfriend during a breaking point where they’re at an on/off state in it, I see it as them making a personal “promise” to avoid each other to improve on themselves (because I think they both know they’re not good for each other, the protagonist especially) but they fail to keep that promise because they can’t live without each other
I see Kinda I Want To as them going back on their promise for a little bit and being sexually intimate, like both, the MC especially KNOW it’s not a good idea.
and I know it’s not a good thing, and I know it’s not the right thing, but kinda I want to to me, it communicates he badly wants her, he craves her and the attention they give to each other, even if it ends up damaging them more.
ALSO verses like kinda I want to, maybe just for tonight, we can pretend it’s alright, what’s the price I pay I don’t care what they say just pushes this further for me, to the protagonist, he knows it’s wrong, but if it’s just on one occasion, how badly can it hurt him and his girl?
(A lot actually, considering the song that comes after this is Sin)
