#khan lore

Do you have any headcanons about specific relationships that you'd be willing to share? I particularly love Grace&Peter, Khan&Notkin, and Sticky&Murky, but honestly I'm just a sucker for any of the Termites being friends and hanging out

Smiles hiii welcome to #myblog. and oh my god it did just make it 4 years of pathoposting (got into it late 2021 when i was Funnily Enough working on bachelor's degree... bachelor meets bachelor. working on getting my second one rn so i'll be bachelor² and he'll just be bachelor. common meiri W over this guy. common lesbian victory). time flies when you're having fun.

and ☝ i do have plenty to say about those relationships. indeed i have already said a lot. and i will not lie to you my brain is currently full of cotton and working on autopilot for basic functions so if you get back to me in 6 months once i'll have digested the event (#myevent) i might have more to say. but for now there is what there is. what i'm going to do for you is dump all the relevant links and eventually repost some images in this for easy access so you have your answer. okay put your seatbelt on. is it on.

Grace & Peter

so since you're new here. clasps hands Basically i peterstakhe. this is the ship i did not made the fuck up because when i started posting it people were already cheering me on so i knew someone else thought it before But i'm a stable and permanent resident of peterstakhtown. i say this because i have a whole tag of for the grace & peter + peter's scary boyfriend relationship i call #loft family (from the loft. la mansarde for the ones who know) in which you will find everything i can currently think about saying for grace and peter. (and rubin is here too. but you can go through the information). i also have some stuff in my #grace lore tag but if you checked out my termites tag you might already have seen this. <- okay. now you read. (there's french in there. sorry jumpscare)

Sticky & Murky

indeed already have stuff. here's the essential i could find (again, you might've seen if you've gone through it already). #murky lore #sticky lore those already. murky has attachment issues. obviously. they come as latching onto (burakh), but can also be distance-based. i think she recognizes sticky as a Brother but in a very abstract way. she's not very affectionate towards him, and he not very towards her, but it's fine, there is love, they don't need to do family Other People's Way. especially considering the family they already have. la famille homoparentale de gorkhonsk. (well there's another one.) as far as siblings go, gorkhonsk only has nutcases. you got the twins, so codependent had they been born conjoined or one eaten the other in the womb they feel like they would probably have lived better lives. i like to personally me for myself read rubin as desperate for isidor's recognition as A Son (a mix of yearning for recognition/terrible and unrecognized self-sacrifice of P2 lore + foster/adopted son of P1 lore), so burakh his pseudobrother, and they got some Cain and Abel shit going on. and brother? rubin wishes he was Abel so bad. but if he's pushed he might just start Caining it up if you get what i mean. other siblings are tangled in the strings of political alliances and obligations, giving a terrible self-effacing and self-sacrificial and upon-the-self-misery-bringing-for-political-safety vibe to the party which do not apply to sticky & murky. as developed in the lore tags, they make two halves of a menkhu. they inherit from papa as a team, as a cristallisation of recognition of the value of community and the inherent cruelty of pushing fate onto one child's shoulders (something which the ruling families do with their respective youngest). only kids who end up well-adjusted & with balance in their life in the whole town are the orphans adopted by a PTSD-ridden organs-harvester in a homosexual relationship. and that's on that. cristallisation of the value of gay people as social pillars when the children born of heterosexual marriages (even apparently loving ones) are tangled in reproducing domestic contracts they should not be thinking of at their age.

Khan & Notkin

the people know i think they make a good pair(ing). the in-parentheses does not apply nor matter age 15 that comes later. but the people know i'm a fan of an aesthete and an earthy. a blue-eyed and a brown-eyed. a blue and a red. a black-haired and one who is not. friend to enemies to "he's a decent guy"[YOU ARE DYING] oh loves it. the fact that if you ask, notkin will say they're enemies, but if you call them friends upfront, none will correct you. loves it. fact that notkin at death's door extends a reconciling hand to khan and khan asks if the girl who would share the unpleasant loveless future in the cards for them is fine, for she is a mistress as his sister is, and the whole thing of the marriage is so the oldest siblings, including the most powerful mistress whom a marriage would tame and dull (as it did her mother) are spared the terrible task of mending the broken (blood)shed that was hacked as they grew up. loves it also. patho's thing is that the children mirror the behaviors of adults, with their hurts, their social and domestic miseries, their wars, their affiliations. they're very burakh & dankovsky mirrors in that way. i love a mirror regardless (hence why i like an opposites thing, as stated above). and the people know what i think of burakh & dankovsky. also as someone who came out at 14 and fell in love something stupid age 15 (we did not pull knives on each other. aww missed out) of someone who never learned about it i can't say i've fully been there. but i've been adjacent to there.

some #loreposts you might or might not have seen:

it all started from here

khan capella lavender wedding and marriage posts (relevant to notkin as well)

same piece new puzzle comic post

5 years later peace offering post (joke but true)

you've seen this one i think. political alliance but he's your buddy too lowkey

here are images i have in the tags which i think are relevant.

^ load-bearing screenshot of sorcha richardson's MV for we don't talk about it. that's it that's the whole relationship.

^ get acquainted with catnip and dandy i have whole lore for them to #mylore #makingitthefuckup

I don't think I've said much about it because it's kinda self-explanatory okay so the lavender marriage mention [that I can rember] is from le fameux "inheriting the earth" + 5yrs patho kids now adult designs & lore post with both Khan & Capella having "[material] wedding ring, purposefully mismatched as a sign of lavender marriage". for the uninitiated a "lavender marriage" is a type of marriage of convenience that one (or both) party/ies enter to conceal their homosexuality and attempt to reap the social benefits and personal safety of being in a heterosexual marriage. it can happen with both spouses being gay and using the appearance of a heterosexual pair for reciprocal protection, or only one of them being gay and entering the marriage for protection, the non-gay partner may or may not be aware of the other's homosexuality. if both spouses are gay, they may typically lend each other freedom to see other people.

in khan & capella's situation, a marriage of convenience is decided upon early [cf. Capella's lines] for the sake of "bringing the families together" (political alliance). Oh I have sooo much to think about how the older generation (in that case Maria and Vlad Jr) expect the one after them to rub off their blood and rebuild their shed (pivotal element of pathologic anyways [cf. Burakh]) but that's not about this rn. anyways yes marriage of political interests.

anyways now this is where I'm real I think they're both homosexual. capella knows this about khan because she's clairvoyant. khan knows this about himself. he knows capella knows when she gives him her little bunny smile and he remembers she's clairvoyant. he learns later [this is still pre-wedding] she is too and is like oooooh so we fundamentally can't love each other. thank god I just thought it was a me problem. Capella had been taking theatre classes and she learned to do a theatre-kiss [move the mouth to the side so the other kisses cheek, head angle important] for the wedding day. They shamelessly lie to the population to explain why they, bit by bit, stop living together very quickly after the wedding ("we need separate blankets he keeps stealing if off me" "we need separate bed she has such cold feet it's giving me the shivers" "we need separate rooms he snores" "we need separate houses my presence is draining her of her powers"). Maria knows that's not the truth, she's clairvoyant. Whether she feels anything for the brokenness of the ruling families having been pushed onto her brother as a teenager I haven't decided yet. Katerina knows because she's clairvoyant. Basically all the kids know they don't like each other and a select few adults do (not about the gay thing they just think they're in a normal loveless marriage of convenience like is unfortunately really common [a lot had own parents in one] just slightly happier about it)

In my mind's eye (in my eyes' mind) they both have their own lives pretty separate. Khan fucks off overseas, goes to boarding school, and travels, sends back copious amounts of books. Capella gets the telegram installed into the town and he sends short updates on his travels. She stays in town for Mistress Purposes, reads plenty of books and orders khan to go fetch some in obscure londonian libraries, carries the new administration on her shoulders frankly. the marriage stays as a constant reminded to the oldest siblings and the rest of the adults that it is their bullshit that created this unnatural and uncomfortable situation which reflects poorly on the town with how free both "spouses" live their lives. Capella goes dancing with the girls in the warehouses. Khan routinely goes and hang out with [gestures] this one guy who we don't know what their problem is or if they even have a problem anymore. nobody will let them divorce because that would force the town to reckon with its massive political mistakes and fundamentally broken systems. Capella had gone dancing with the girls in the warehouses on her wedding night and khan had found himself there also because he wanted to tell off notkin for running his mouth during the "speak now or forever hold your peace" and insulting the oldest siblings for cf. like 2 paragraph above and when these two begin jokingly asking what capella is even doing here in this dress she goes "it's my wedding day!!" and they make faces and pretend to be gobsmacked and khan says "and I wasn't even invited??" anyways yeah. very funny to me.

MARK IMMORTELL canonically. he has a cane canonically, now whether or not the game wants us to believe he uses it for real or it's an accessory... for real to me. in my mind's eye he has sciatica. it acts up on and off so sometimes he'll be prancing around like a goat swaying his cane like he's trying to hit people with it, sometimes he uses it for real, and sometimes he has a fanciful little wheelchair when the pain's too bad to stand on his two legs. in which case he still holds his cane for hitting people purposes. his cane is a constant thing.

Yulia... she also mentions Leg Problem in P2 so Joy the cane be upon ye. i think her deal is a repetitive strain injury of tendinitis in the knee & ankle, and she never got enough rest for it to heal properly, never did physical therapy, so now, like other types of tendinitis, it flares up from use & some movements/postures. as the rainy & cold season approach, she gets more and more sedentary because the weather makes tendinitis worse by stiffening the tendons, so it gets in vicious cycles of Stiff tendons from the cold -> even less easy to do some stretches to help with the pain -> tendons get stiffer from no stretchin -> even less easy to do some stretches... her cane is an on and off thing, but becomes regular as fall & winter roll around

Notkin as he grows up. in p1 & 2 his spoken dialog mentions (a) bad leg(s); considering his mom died in childbirth (likely His birth) in my mind's eye his bad leg(s) is attributed to having been pulled out of there Fucked Uply. mom didn't make it through a complicated birth and baby got a leg messed up when they hurried to get him outta here. adolescence and getting taller gets him apophysitis (a bone + cartilage inflammation/strain injury often seen in teens because the bones grow faster than the muscles around them) in his knee and he never gets to have the rest needed for it to heal properly so as an adult, while the pain is mostly gone, it flares up sometimes. he's way past giving a fuck what anyone might think about seeing him limp with a cane in hand so he periodically, but quite often uses one. also might use it to hit people.

Khan occasionally once he gets into his mind that it's not a big deal & if he needs it he needs it. he already has a messed up knee as a kid (p2 model bandage) but i'm still deciding how extensive of a wound that is. more than what that is i think this guy gets inflammatory arthritis as a plague residual symptom, and while most of it is concentrated in his hands, fingers and wrists, it sometimes, rarely, attacks his ankles & knees, which is when he gets on his legs wobbly like a newborn foal. while his coping mechanism for it is to lie down and suffer through gritted teeth because he still has in mind that showing pain is showing weakness and is undignified of a man of his rank (the imaginary kingdom he once had) he eventually, from being yelled at "hey moron CATCH" and thrown a cane at, gets into his mind that he should use one for such moments and not even his Mortal Enemy* will care. his own would be a fanciful thing, black-lacquered wood, silver rings, a silver dog's head at the end of the handle. too proud and proper to hit people with it but he can't say he doesn't think about it.

YESSSSS OMG #YASSSSSSSS I DO! I DO IN FACT! IT'S NEVER TOO NICHE FOR ME HONEY #THOUGHTSHAVER

since most of the population is right-handed, imagine that if i'm not mentioning anyone they're either right-handed OR i don't have any particular headcanons. + you get some handwriting headcanons as well, a "buy one get one free" deal

Dankovsky: right-handed, relatively neat writing when he wants, otherwise you're getting that Doctor's Handwriting

Burakh: naturally right-handed, but he trained himself to be able to write with his left hand when he sprained his wrist age 14. his left-handed writing is kinda fucked up and it's obvious that's not his natural dominant hand, but if you squint and focus it's readable

Clara: ambidextrous, but she has very rarely written in her life so she doesn't even notice.

Andrey: naturally ambidextrous, has a left-handedness dominance

Peter: naturally ambidextrous, has a right-handedness dominance

(fun fact about ^ i headcanon that they always had to be sat together at school and for a while the teacher didn't understand why they didn't get any work done and then realized that's because the way they had them (peter on the left and andrey on the right) their elbows keep bumping in each other's so they just switched them around and it was fine)

Rubin: naturally left-handed but trained himself to be able to write/do other stuff with his right hand in case (it was for him a thing of like Discipline)

Lara: right-handed, relatively clean handwriting unless she starts losing it and scribbling

Grief: left-handed

Eva: right-handed, neat handwriting, likes to either embellish her lettering a lot or have very "dry", austere, almost worryingly simple shapes

Yulia: right-handed, a nervoussss writer, very tense grip on the pen, very low and slanted letters

Nina and Victoria: both ambidextrous

Katerina: naturally ambidextrous, her proficiency in both hands has been coming and going, and her morphine addiction has made her lose her grip and stability on her writing to the point it looks like chicken-scratch now

Capella: naturally ambidextrous, she uses mostly her right hand so far but will learn to use the left one more as well as she grows up + trains with stuff like sewing, embroidering, playing instruments,...

Khan: right-handed, relatively clean handwriting. it gets cleaner and more precise as he grows up because he goes on to go to college and learn languages, so he takes pride and effort into materializing the letters of languages other than his own like greek, arabic, any using the latin alphabet, etc.

Notkin: left-handed. he's barely literate because of his Shit Life Syndrome making his writing, when he tries, somewhat unintelligible. since he barely ever writes he has no muscle memory of how to hold his pen so his left hand doesn't smear the ink all over.

Catnip: right handed, clean and pretty handwriting, her grammar is kinda shit but she has an excuse. she's an orphan.

Dandy: left-handed, messyyyy handwriting, but his grasp on grammar's preddy good. paired with his sister ^ they make for Notkin's Redaction and Deciphering Team.

god do i. do i ever. the maria and khan dynamic to me hinges so beautifully on that post i cannot stop thinking about it. in pathologic siblings either cannot part/love each other saur saur much (clara & changeling for the "cannot part" one, both for the stamatwins) or have this growing distance between them (georgiy and simon, in their defense One is Dead [allegedly], maria and khan, vlad jr and capella...). i think maria never really wanted a sibling but Tough Luck baby girl. she liked having all of her parents' attention; she knew she was destined to greatness by blood, and having that blood be shared didn't sit well with her. khan is bound to be an heir in his own way, a "beloved son", "the family's hope" - maria wishes she could have all of this. but they navigate very different waters, the two of them. khan respects her - respects her because she can make herself be respected so easily, with such grace, whereas he still has to claw for it, even within his family (mostly by virtue of. being 15). she finds him a little cringe and like a little insect in many ways, but one ought to respect insects.

khan, within his own family is beloved in the way maria is feared - meaning he is also feared, and she is also beloved. they're both bound to heritage - whereas maria welcomes hers, and fully intends on filling the dark sky with her hair like her mother did before, khan is not particularly excited to become like his father.

living with nina was like living with a biblical angel, or a maddened night mare. she was feared, even by her own family members, and yet adored. they were never afraid she would like hit them or anything, it was closer to living with lightning, but a lightning that loves you, in its own way. i think she was tempestuous and groundswell-like with Maria, i think as a way to... incite her power to come through. earthquake-like to release the magma underneath... that didn't happen before her death (that happens closer to like day 9 bachelor route p1) but maria will be forever thankful her mom did that. it was like fencing... like Mensur maybe even. she was not like this with her son, because. well his ass is not becoming a mistress. she loved him dearly too, but might have been a little distant, engulfed in her Mistress ways, but always tried to stir up his fires for desire of power and greatness... and that manifested itself as he became a teenager.

victor's relationship with both his kids is... strained in the fact that he has neither the power, the fury, the fire or the hold that Nina had. his daughter is slipping away from him because she is molding a volcanic fire of her own, that he knew once in her mother but that he never truly understood, and his son he couldn't hold onto because he longs for freedom so much (possibly inherited from his mother). maria doesn't want his tenderness because she wants respect and knows herself to burn so much brighter than him, and khan doesn't want it either because he wants quite the same, but doesn't have the mistress inheritance, the mystery, the power that maria has inherited... so he has to forge his own.

tldr

women when they're about to become their mother: 🖤🗡️🔥🫀🫁🌩️♥️

men when they're about to become their father: 😬😟🙁☹️😰🫨😱