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when your boyfriend lies to you for 4 months about loving you and then breaks up with you

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On one hand I am ready for the future. I'm ready to graduate, move to Arizona, and marry the love of my life. On the other hand I am terrified of everything to come. I have no idea when I'll ever graduate, if I'll even be able to getting my teaching degree in Arizona, how the hell to move all my stuff from California, or if my boyfriend will even come home from Afghanistan. I've become content with the idea that everything in my life is falling into place when in reality it's not. I'm making plans for 2 years down the line and it's finally hitting me that there are so many highly likely reasons all my plans can be ruined. I've been living with my head in the clouds, blinded by love and hope and dreams...I am just so terrified of what the future holds and at the same time I dont know how to confront this fear. I feel like the future that once seemed so promising and possible and real, is now dragging me down each and every day. I'm petrified to the point of numbness when thinking about the future, but at the same time part of me is still hopeful and my dreams still seem so possible...the futures just fucking terrifying man