#katerivan

No, but like, Katerina Ivanovna falls ill after what happened in the drawing-room (“She is crying, struggling ... hysterics.”), because for the first time since she met Ivan he finally openly talked about his feelings for her, and then he left in a hurry, deeply hurt, angry, and frustrated, and now she has to come to terms with her own feelings for him, because his are suddenly out in the open, there is no more pretending, no more "dear, kind, ever-faithful and generous adviser, the one friend I have in the world", this man loves her, and she's known this whole time (!), and she's been torturing him (!!), and she is too proud to admit that she loves him too, because she, in her pride, is utterly consumed by what she believes to be her mission in life (a mission to stay by Dmitri's side as his guiding light and his savior), but gosh, IVAN SAID THAT HE LOVES HER, and of course she is hysterical, because her savior complex clashes with all those feelings that she's been purposefully ignoring and are now breaking out of her chest, and her own pride and stubborness are tearing her soul apart!!