I’ve been purging a lot lately and this time i will move things in a way that if they haven’t been used after 90 days i will decide how to get rid of them...
a little background story!
I’ve always been one to hold on to things in a way that if i got rid of something it meant that I got rid of everything related to it. Memories, relationships, just everything.
my current counsellor had mentioned how I’m someone that feels so much and make excuses for people and so on. Basically I don’t know how to deal with things because I hoard all these feelings and emotions.
I just recently got my own place. My first apartment ON MY OWN. (I have a daughter that is here half the time but you know what I mean!) When I got my own place all I moved in with was my clothe and my daughters stuff.. Immediately everyones first instinct was to help me get “EVERYTHING I NEEDED”... I had just left a good relationship, before that I had lived at home with my parents briefly, before that with my ex’s parents on the reserve in Montreal, before that me and her had an apartment, before that I stayed at some family friends and before that I lived with my parents in Timmins and before that a few places in Montreal.... My point is, although I didn’t move as much as a lot of people do, every time I moved there were things that were left behind, forgotten, lost... I was never able to bring everything I wanted and this time I was thinking to myself, Let’s start fresh! I have a roof over my head and health! That’s a damn good start if you ask me! People wanted to give me so many things! I got all the furniture I need and more and all the little things I wont necessarily need either...
Me and my mom were going through a big clean up. Selling and giving away all the things we don’t use anymore... the stuff that’s in storage and the stuff that’s just put away in the house... and that’s really when it hit me... When am I going to use this? Who am I going to show this to? All the memories and emotions that are attached to things will forever be in my heart and are in no way more or less with an object.
I’ve went through a lot of things a lot of times... and every time the keep pile gets smaller... currently I’m keeping only the things I know I’ll use and the things I would absolutely love to be able to show my daughter. The things I was keeping for myself will be in my heart only and with that, the weight on my shoulder has lifted!