FEStival Fiasco
Part 6
Phecdaâs little safe house was near the outskirts of the exam site. A simple apartment building with walls neatly decorated as though a prince lived in them.
âMaybe thatâs why he picked that host,â thought Centaurus as he made his way down the halls and towards the lobby. Everything was far too pristine, far too unnaturally beautiful. It wasnât unlike the buildings back at Terras, home world. This place was probably familiar for an Elite like him.
EliteâŚ
âWorms donât make for such fine test subjects,â Phecda had said. The words still bothered Centaurus. What had he been trying to imply? And did Centaurus want to know? Just the idea of being considered a âtest subjectâ annoying him to no end.
âIs he saying Iâm not a wormâŚ?â Centaurus muttered out loud. A few passing residents spared him a glance, the curiosity clear in their expressions. However, Centaurus didnât pay them much mind. He only wanted to see if their body language betrayed any intent to fight.
Was Phecda suggesting that Centaurus was somehow better than his peers?
âSunuvabitch,â he muttered as he walked past the automatic doors. Golden flowers and vines made of fine metals decorating the glass. The sheer lavishness of it all made him ill. He was glad to be leaving the building. Taking his first step forward, his gaze instantly shifted to the professor leaning up against the wall just a few feet away from the entrance.
Professor Polarisâ eyes didnât widen when they wandered over to Centaurus. His pose, lax shoulders and a hunched back, remained static as he spoke up. âAh! Quite fortunate, seeing you here,â he said, lazily raising his arm in a small greeting. Despite his attempts to seem casual, he had been expecting Centaurus. Polaris shouldâve been at least a bit surprised or had some sort of reaction to seeing him.
âWhat is he playing at?â thought Centaurus. âHe was waiting for me.â
Even after several hours, Polaris retained the same host. For whatever reason, whenever he found a body he didnât seem to enjoy discarding it until the mission was over. Centaurus had once overheard a student from another class refer to Polaris as âoverly sentimental.â
âHow have you been, Centaurus?â said Polaris as he approached. âI trust your tasks have been finished?â
âProfessor,â said Centaurus with a curt nod. âIs there something you need?â Answering his question, for whatever reason, didnât feel right at the moment. Itâd be better to just remain discreet. Centaurus also noticed that Polarisâ stance was unusually lax. His knees were straight, his hands were in his pockets, and his feet werenât far apart. Werenât soldiers, especially those with stories histories like Polaris, supposed to be more serious? Despite how little humans knew of their existence, the planet was still enemy territory.
âNo, not quite what I need. But I do wish to inform of some of your classmatesâ conditions. Particularly that of Alcor.â Centaurusâ eyes widened, and he cursed his sudden reaction.
âWhat does Alcor have to do with me?â he said, attempting to remain casual.
Polaris shrugged. âFrom what I can tell, nothing. But that reaction is certainly interesting. Usually you just shrug and dismiss me whenever I discuss your classmates with you.â
âWell, whatâs the news on Alcor?â
âHeâs gone,â said Polaris, eyes brimming with⌠pride? Amusement? Centaurus couldnât tell. âLeft the testing grounds, and it doesnât appear heâs returning. For all intents and purposes, he has gone AWOL.â
âOh, Iâm surprised,â said Centaurus with a shrug. He had managed to regain his composure. Just a few more exchanges and heâd walk away and be home free. âFor all his talk, I wouldnât have guess heâd just up and vanish. Guess he was all bark and no bite.â He said, forcing a snicker.
âAww⌠is that any way to talk about your new friend?â Despite his teasing words, Polarisâ eyes almost looked sympathetic. Centaurus didnât respond. He dropped his arms to the sides and glared at his professor. âYou know, Centaurus⌠to live freely is to give other freedom. To gift him that chance to escape, that opportunity to shape his own life and future, is something beautiful. Did it feel rewarding?â
â...Why arenât you reprimanding me?â asked Centaurus, narrowing his eyes. âYou almost sound proud of me. Why? Shouldnât I beâŚI donât know, expelled? Punished? Even just scolded?â
Polaris didnât stop smiling. Instead, he turned around and gestured for Centaurus to follow. âWalk with me. We should talk privately.â Before Centaurus could respond, Polaris had already begun walking off. They were headed towards a more populated part of the fair. Not far from them was a closed, unattended booth. That was most likely his destination.
âH-Hey, wait damn it!â Centaurus ran to catch up with Polarisâ stride. The professorâs host had longer legs, and he almost seemed determined to leave him behind. âAssholeâŚâ Centaurus muttered once he finally caught up. â⌠it was bittersweet.â
âHmm?â
âYou asked me how it feltâwith Alcor. It felt, still feels, bittersweet.â It had been a brief connection, but it was one of the few that Centaurus had ever made. To watch it go and ride off towards a land promising freedom tore at his heart. It was difficult not being envious. âHeâs fine, heâll be happy, out there. But, Iâm still here. Still the same.â He looked up at the sky. The sun was beginning to descend, dyeing the world a vivid orange. Everyday, the sky changed hues.
âI try to change,â continued Centaurus, looking down at his rough, scarred hands. It was unfamiliar to him, and yet he still remained the same worm he always was. The faces he wore and the memories he ingested were all different, yet the scars he bore and the faint hope he clung onto remained the same.
Static. Stagnant.
âI wish I couldâve gone with him. I wish I couldâve escaped and shaped my own future with my own hands. But I was scared.â His voice cracked as he spoke. His hostâs heart was racing, each thump an agonizing reminder of his own life. Why had he survived while other worms didnât? Why did he continue to live? âI always thought becoming a Dreadfighter, becoming someone, would bring me happiness and freedom. And maybe it will. But I still wonder why I didnât just run away with my friend. Why just being someone to Alcor wasnât enough to let me run alongside him.â He looked up at Polaris. âProfessor, did I make the right choice? Or am I just weak?â
âI canât say,â he said. âNo one can know what choice is the right one. We simply choose and allow the consequences to play out. If we donât like them, we just deal with outcome and make another choice later down the line. Thatâs what life is, Centaurus. Thatâs the beauty and terror of freedom.â Polaris raised his arm and stopped Centaurus in his tracks. âAnd you made your decision. You chose to help Alcor find freedom, Centaurus. Extending a hand out in kindness, even after facing so much abuse from others, from your own kind, takes a type of strength I deeply envy.â
Stepping forward to stand in front of Centaurusâ host, Polaris placed a hand on Centaurusâ borrowed chest and squeezed. âYour heart is scarred, and it remains strong. Itâs so easy to hurt someone else because youâve been hurt. But you chose differently, Centaurus. As your teacher, I am so very proud of the choice you made.â
âProfessor, IâŚâ
Before either of them could continue, âA-HEM,â a loud and deliberate cough cut them off. They both turned to face a round-faced women with a babbling infant in her hands. âPride is important and all, but please donât grope each other where kids can see you.â Polaris withdrew his hands, muttering a sheepish apology as his ears turned red. âThank you.â With a huff, the woman walked off.
The two stood there in silence before Polaris let out a snicker. âSnrkâŚ! HehehâŚ! Here I was trying to be all emotional that I forgot humans donât share such intimacy with each other.â It wasnât long before he was full-on laughing, shoulders bouncing up and down as that little embarrassed joy filled the air.
Centaurus joined in for a second with a few light-hearted chuckles, but remained paranoid the whole time. âProfessor, whatâs the real reason you wanted to speak to me?â
âAh, yes, yes!â nodded Polaris. âCome. We should talk privately.â He walked over to the boothâs closed curtains and gestured for Centaurus to walk in. He didnât. After a few moments of waiting, he nodded and said, âSmart. Donât show your back to someone if youâre not 100% certain you can trust them.â
âItâs just common sense.â
âNot to those who can afford it. Those we call âElites.â I do apologize that to you it is common sense, Centaurus. Or for anyone, in that war-fueled society of ours.â Polaris stepped into the darkened booth first, and Centaurus cautiously followed.
âThereâs a lot that needs to be said,â said Polaris, his voice dropping low and losing any of the levity it previously had. âAnd some that can only be shown to be believed. But I suppose thereâs no easy way to ease someone into this next bit of news.
âCentaurus, our society relies on the weak thrown and killed on the front lines or dying in the mines for resources to fuel our machines and weapons to fight. Or even as slaves, not servants, to Elites who see them as lesser.â With each word he uttered, his voice became softer and somber. The look in his eyes, a bit harder to tell in the dark booth, grew dull and damp. It was as if speaking about this was sucking the life out of him.
âWar and hierarchy are intrinsic parts of our society,â he continued. âAnd this decades-long war, having started long before I was even born, allowed for technological prosperity, but social stagnation. It makes sense, doesnât it? We canât move forward without risking stability, and no one wants that in the middle of wartime.
âBut, Centaurus⌠you, me, and all who have died and lived in the 20 years have been living a lie. The war has been over. Our Emperor has made fools of us all.â













