#journl

"With pure intention, never give up. Ever. Ever ever. No matter what comes your way, what leaves, or gets shaken up. Let it. This is the clearing of the path, the opening of the ways."

She didn’t like the one she took orally and balked at the syringe thing the nurse tried to put in her mouth. The nurse said she had never seen a baby turn their head so sharply to refuse it before.

Art is a Portal/ Temple/ Gateway

All of February has been a strange month for me. I’ve shifted between really happy times and really sad times. I haven’t been to church since stake conference on the 4th. I haven't had an actual lesson from the missionaries since the beginning of the month (though we did have dinner with a couple of friends on Valentine’s Day). I picked up the Book of Mormon a couple of days ago and flipped through and read a couple of verses, but I haven’t properly read it in weeks. 

I was able to go to Las Vegas last weekend to go see Lana Del Rey with my sister and to see my mom too. I don’t like Lana too much but my sister asked for tickets for her birthday and my dad bought me a ticket as well. It was great flying into Vegas - I realized how much I missed the sky and sun and mountains. Seeing my mom and sister was the greatest part of it all (I also met some other family members but I’ll write about that in a separate post). I’ve been pretty homesick the past few weeks and I can’t wait for spring break to get here, but I have so many things to get done before I get there.

I’m still grappling with the issues that were confusing me last quarter, namely future career path and transferring schools. I feel really aimless right now and, though this past quarter has helped me to revisit an old interest in urban planning/studies, I just don’t feel like I have anything more figured out. I won’t be able to apply to transfer to many of the schools that I wanted to apply to because they require recommendations and I wasn’t able to get them from my professors because they haven’t known me long enough. I’m thinking that it will probably be better for me to go home and go to community college for a year before hopefully being able to go to a school that I’d really like to attend.