#johnrambles

I’ve been up all night. .  _. Making music threads, making music Patreons, doing commissions, finishing dramatic music. It’s just. A musical day I suppose! But now I’m loopy and tired and quite frankly happy it’s sleepy-bye-bye hours so I can just post this and then forget I did until it’s time to officially and properly announce this thing. Right around the time I get that Google Drive folder with the unclaimed music finished up.

i had originally believed that my timeline failed, that we never completed the game, but i'm not so sure anymore? i don't really have any memories of everyone being dead. i only remember my own deaths, or my frantic, occasionally futile, attempts at death. every memory i have is based on sadness at this point, every single one. and i think, unconsciously, i'm afraid that a memory based on happiness would break me. i'm not so sure anymore.

so every time i here the piano now, i feel like my world slowed down considerably and it was slowly turning blue. reminds me that things can be happy and sad at the same time. it doesn’t all have to be one or the other.