#jay2

So,over the last year or so, performing has definitely taken on a much different value. I’d like to think that I never took what I did for granted prior to the bioweapon being unleashed..BUT,whether I did or I didn’t I surely know that ANY opportunity to do my thing out in the wild is so much more important. So back in March, Sean Owens, Brian Reaves and myself teamed up with the good folks at Wild Prairie Vintage&Vinyl for the second edition of the MOOD MUSIC all vinyl in store set..We had a blast and honestly, it just feels good to be able to play music outside of my house and be around people that I dig...So here is the video of the full set..It was fun!! Enjoy and share with friends...

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every so often i think back on my “first love” and i’m terrified i’ll never feel for someone in that way again. or i’m scared i will and they’ll leave like he did. it just seems like it did all this fucked up shit to me but still is good. he has a whole girlfriend which she seems great or it looks like they have a really good relationship and it’s just like damn, what i do. why couldn’t i keep the only guy i really wanted. or maybe i was just so young and the feelings at that time overhwelmed me cause maybe i wouldn’t even like him now. but i just remember how it brought me to my true self in a way through music which than lead to every else. maybe it was just a short period in my life where i’d experience love but not long enough for it to be an everlasting feelings. maybe i just deserves those months and the years of heartbreak that followed. this happened in like 2018 and i’m still hurting from it and i hate that i am. i hate that i can’t seem to 100% get over this one. i hate that i feel i won’t ever feel for someone else like that again. i just feel like i wasn’t worthy. well fucking shit

Smino - Innamission