#its coping

me and my fellow lesbian pillars of the deancas community hunting the writers for sport if tonight doesnt go the way it should

Omg sorry to go back to the Emotions again but like,, boris literally grew his special lily with the intent to give it to his parents like the lily that meant EVERYTHING to him he thought ,,, I should give this to someone sad, they return his gesture by hitting him and smashing the lily, like not to he dramatic but that's my life!!!! that's everything I've always been! Like you can see it right?? Him being Exactly like what I'm talking about myself? I can only imagine he woulda grown up repeatedly trying to give to everyone and it's also a Desperation For People to Love You thing like 100%, mines rooted in childhood trauma too lol, but it doesn't seem like he ever made friends or retained them and then he's at the point where he gathers a bunch of people to faux care about, room and board for free, and his whole teeth thing was this Greater Good idea like his brain snapped at some point and he realized, not everyone will be happy no matter what he does, which was my breaking point too except I didn't go all woobie villain about it , idk it's just, such a Personal narrative, looking in a mirror, maybe I'm filling in a lot of blanks in with me but can ya blame me, can you look me in the eyes and say there's nothing to back it up