#irl venting

Please donate to us. The wind and the airport destroyed our tents, leaving us with nothing: no shelter, no clothes, no mattresses, no blankets.😭😭

Kholoud I am sending my love, prayers, and money to you and your family. I am so sorry the world hasn’t done more for you, and for every Palestinian persecuted and displaced by these atrocities.

I wish I could give more. My heart breaks for everyone in Gaza, but it weighs heaviest on me for the families. For the moms just trying to feed their kids. For the dads braving massive crowds to come home without anything to eat. I pray for you every day, I help where I can, but I am angry others aren’t doing more.

Kholoud and her family have been vetted by @gazavetters and can be found under entry No 585 in their vetting spreadsheet. There is a paypal and gofundme links, and if you can you should donate, too.

Kholoud’s family’s gofundme can be found here:

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I've been working in therapy about remembering that I am an adult.

So much of the contention between me and specifically my mom is that my mom can be a bully. She has a lot of strong opinions about things and will unabashedly express her opinions. She'll try and belie this with saying that "it's your life" but like... will just carry on.

My SO and I are buying a condo.

I'm not on the deed or title for reasons that we discussed and agreed on.

I haven't really kept my mom in the loop about this because it's my life and my relationship and she doesn't need to know. But I kind of let it slip and she was quite upset and saying that she didn't think me not being on the deed or title was a bad idea.

Now I feel "bad" because I "did something wrong" when like, I didn't. It's my life, my decision.

To add what feels like insult to injury, my brother is getting married this weekend and I'm in the wedding and will have to spend the weekend with my family with this whole "you're not on the deed" hanging over my head.

I'm doing my best to remind myself that I can do what I want and my mother's opinions don't matter in regards to my life because she's not living my life.

I would just love for people to support me and be happy for me, even though I'm doing things differently...

So now I'm not even excited about getting this condo and I'm dreading this wedding because I'm going to be made to feel like the problem.

Bonus perk of all of this is that apparently the giant ice block Mei Ult that was my furnace was the cause of all the weird popping and cracking that I had assumed to just be the ductwork cooling and heating or just some really noisy ghosts coming over from the cemetery next door to hang out.

Like…is it really too much to ask to keep your milquetoast white picket gay porn off my dash?

Oh wait this is tumblr nvm

Please continue in your Privileged White Girl™️ way. I’m sure there are no black or trans women left on this site to notice and y’all will claim some weird defensive fandom stance and get mad at anyone calling this out.

But I am sick of seeing two whiney white boys whine about their privileged little lives as superstar athletes exchanging hotel rooms every away game or whatever. I haven’t even seen the show and after the last two months I don’t want to.

Wild that in the same month I can watch this site breakdown over the stranger things season being “queer bait“ (it’s not-but it is pretty racist 🫠) and also have a dash full of a show who’s only selling point for the fans (at least that I can tell) is soft core gay porn.

What’s the point of having learned and discussed so much social justice on this site? Y’all just willingly propagandize yourselves if it suits you anyway.

P sick of virtue signaling cishet white women at this point. Y’all missed the point and I think as a group you continually do so on purpose when it suits you. Screw you for abandoning your dark-skinned and trans sisters just cause you wanna have your softcore HBO porn.

I can’t block a whole show from existing and I somehow managed to block the entire rowling fandom from showing up for me so… 🤷‍♀️

I am kinda annoyed by own dashboard and groups at this point.

I’m off this site for a bit

/re:BeSmart’s “Why Everybody Suddenly Has Autism” video