#irl problems

Like my car is stuck in the mud right now cause of all the rain but I’m over here freaking out about it like “omg I’m literally a fucking idiot for getting stuck im a fucking failure who can’t do anything and will never be able to live on my own and and-“

Running around on the playground

Yelling at you for not wearing a jacket

In the cold snowing weather

I still remember

When you ate that sandwich

Claiming it was your sanity

When you felt like you belonged

I still remember

When you’d ask for a granola bar

Because you were always hungry

And id never eat my own

I still remember

The laughter together

When we we best friends forever

And everything was perfect and fine

But now I remember

Your ignorance at the table

As you ignore what matters

Because nothing is easy anymore

But now I’ll remember

When you dropped us forever

Not telling us why or where you would go

And I shed my tears and tried to move on

Now I’ll remember

The good times and bad

As you attempt reconnection

But to no avail because

It’s gone

I haven't been active recently because I recently lost my job, so I've been a little bummed out, and that's just really been affecting my mood to write and do everything else.

So for now, I'll be taking a bit of a break until I start feeling better.