#irealized

I used to worry about every little thing, trying to figure out every problem. Well, I realize now how foolish that was. I was no more in control of my life than the man on the moon. -Joyce Meyer #joycemeyer #themanonthemoon #nomore #usedtoworry #worried #moon #usedto #foolish #bluefudge #collage #collageart #collagework #freemix #ichoose #queserasera #word #wordoftheday #本日の言葉 #irealized

so besides being scared half to death today about the stranger in my house, I also realized that i lost my virginity to a balance beam. I was on my period tracking app today answering some questions so that its more accurate or whatever and i was reading an article they had on it about virginity and how people say that your hymen breaks when you lose your virginty etc. anyways it was basically talking about how that wasn't true because you can break your hymen earlier in your life through sports and other physical activities. and i immediately thought about when i was 8 years old and i was in gymnastics. i was on the balance beam and i was trying to do something off of it and i had landed on the beam instead of off of it and i remember coming home and taking off my leotard and seeing blood where the white lining thing is and i freaked out and i told my mom that i got my period. i told her that my vagina hurt and showed her my leotard. even though it seemed wayyyyyy to early to be having my period she showed me how to use a pad and i wore one for the next few days and there was no blood. so my mom just assumed it was a false alarm. well i got my period about 5 years later so obviously it was a false alarm. but i didn’t realize this until 9 years later. i fucking broke my hymen on a balance beam and in some people’s view of virginity, FUCKING LOST MY VIRGINITY TO A MOTHERFUCKING BALNCE BEAM 

#iStopped ... #ExplainingMyself ... #iRealized ... #PeopleRefuse ... #ToUnderstand ... #WhyYouAsk ??? #ThatsWhy ... (at Subang Jaya) https://www.instagram.com/p/CTbtp6elUui/?utm_medium=tumblr

December 20th, 2017 #Dear2017, #Irealized my inner world creates my outer world. Inside my cocoon I asked for 2017 to morph/change me and that it did. Each challenge this year brought, I had to dig inside, deep inside to rise to the occasion. Each time something didn't work out, each time something with my children challenged or saddened me, each time I hurt, struggled, felt inadequate I had to reach for tools inside. When relationships confused me or brought me pain, I found healing inside myself. The more I worked on me, the more my life reflected it. People didn't stop hurting me, I stopped being around people prone to hurt me. I didn't stop having challenges with parenting or living with my mother, I stopped responding in a negative or detrimental way. I started to rebuild my trust in myself. Trust that I could and would make appropriate decision. My world and the chaos that had been there, had eroded my faith in myself. The more my faith in myself increased, the more my life changed, the more empowered I felt. It's not everyday I feel all peaches and cream. But I realized I am more empowered than I have felt for years. Confidently, #DanielleElizabeth

The moment I realized Radiohead’s album In Rainbows is almost 10 years old. #radiohead #inrainbows #radioheadinrainbows #realization #irealized #themomentirealized #10years #happy10thanniversary

Then #irealized I #missed #you #N I need you back but you already gone It huts but I found that I'm not that kind of guy who can go to club and pick up a girl like a beer. My mind load too long to realize what I need but I've to move on and keep hassle because time never stopped. (at Kigogo)